Experience Description

At some point during my experience of giving birth, I was aware that the atmosphere changed and there seemed to be a medical emergency. I could feel blood pooling in my chest (I was having a c'sarean and the lower half of my body was paralyzed from the epidural anesthetic). All at once, I felt the essence of myself/ the thinking part, separate from my body. My consciousness seemed to be heading somewhere. At that moment, I heard my daughter cry and I willed myself to reenter my body. When this happened, I remember saying, 'Back down to Earth again!' I was hemorrhaging massively during childbirth and the doctors and nurses were finding it hard to stop the blood flow.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: January 1994

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Childbirth Life threatening event, but not clinical death I was hemorrhaging massively during childbirth and the doctors and nurses were finding it hard to stop the blood flow.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Neither pleasant NOR unpleasant and/or frightening

The experience included: Out of body experience

Did you feel separated from your body? Yes Yes I heard all that the doctors were saying. I can't recall if my vision was enhanced. The birth of my twins. I clearly left my body and existed outside it

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal I was totally present in my mind and very aware of the fact that I was heading somewhere.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? When I was out of my body.

Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? No

Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. No change.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. No change.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? No

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Wonderment.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No

Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? No

God, Spiritual and Religion:


What importance did you place on your religious/spiritual life prior to your experience? Not important to me

What was your religion prior to your experience? Unaffiliated- Agnostic

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes More curiosity/desire to explore spirituality.

What importance do you place on your religious/spiritual life after your experience? Moderately important to me

What is your religion now? Unaffiliated- Agnostic

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience I had never considered that my consciousness could separate from my body.

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I believe we continue to exist in another form.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? No

Did you believe in the existence of God prior to your experience? I was uncertain if God exists

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? No

Do you believe in the existence of God after your experience? God probably exists

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:


During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are possibly meaningful and significant

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No

Did you believe in an afterlife prior to your experience? I was uncertain if an afterlife exists

Do you believe in an afterlife after your experience? An afterlife definitely exists Yes I felt that if I had not willed my consciousness back into my body, I would have left it altogether for somewhere else.

Did you fear death prior to your experience? I moderately feared death

Do you fear death after your experience? I do not fear death

Were you fearful living your life prior to your experience? Slightly fearful in living my earthly life

Were you fearful living your life after your experience? Not fearful in living my earthly life

Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are possibly meaningful and significant

Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant after your experience? Are probably meaningful and significant

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

Were you compassionate prior to your experience? Moderately compassionate toward others

During your experience, did you gain information about love? No

Were you compassionate after your experience? Greatly compassionate toward others

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes A little in that I have less patience with trivial things.

After the NDE:


Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes My 'consciousness' left my body. I was and am sure of that. It is hard to describe how that felt, but this was the reality and I was not hallucinating.

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes I was visited by my recently deceased brother. I felt his energy within my body attempting to let me know he was okay.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The reality of the experience and my absolute certainty that this was my brother.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes In the months after the experience I told a couple of close friends and my sister. They said they knew I was telling the truth, but they couldn't imagine what it would feel like.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real It felt unlike a dream and was not due to drugs. I was very alert and aware of what was happening.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real My memory of it has faded, but I still have no reason to believe it was not real.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? Yes My brother's visitation.

Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? No