James R NDE

Experience Description

I arrived at the hospital for a medical test rto investigate a sustained period of low blood pressure which could not be explained by hypothyroidism. To monitor the cortisol level over a period of time requires being injected with cortisol. I was in a comfortable, hospital chair when the injection was given. I felt the substance course through my veins and enter my stomach. I immediately felt sick and weak. To deal with this, I focused my mind outside of myself like when I meditate to not feel in pain or discomfort. I felt myself going backwards, as if sinking into and through the chair. At the same time, blackness closed in over my vison from the side. It was as if a dome was closing over me. I felt somewhat distressed and was aware that I was dying. I have had an anesthetic before and this was not the same because it didn't put me to sleep. In my mind I asked to not die now as I wanted to retire to Thailand and teach English. It was something I had been working towards for a long time and after the death of my father 3 years prior, I was finally getting closer to my goal.

The blackness moved in from the sides and was not completely closed. Since birth, my life to this point rapidly shot through my mind. I saw imagery and felt all the emotions from the hurt my family members had done too me. I also felt their hurt emotions and understood them. I was told clearly as the darkness finally completely enveloped me; I had suffered from them.

That past life vanished in an instant and I was aware of receding away from my body. There was vast space around me. Initially, I was aware of going backwards to something, there behind me. I still felt like I knew where the front and rear was even though I was not in my body and had no sense of a physical form. I moved back slowly at first. I was fully aware that I had left my body and wanted to go back to it to continue life in peace. I can remember reaching out and grasping with arms I didn't have physically. Then there was a sensation of peace with what was happening to me. Everything was o.k. now. I seemed to stop going back and realized that I was not alone and this space was not emptiness.

I was aware that what was behind me was holding me where I was floating. I could not see them in a physical sense, but something was on either side of me. They were friendly and came to me, which became a swirling light that enveloped me from behind. I began to turn to one side, yet still had an awareness of direction. I was told, but not in words, to head forwards. I was not allowed to go backwards. As I went forward, I was aware of many destinations. I was aware of being in a tunnel and going forward with something around me. I can not begin to describe, as it was not physical, liquid, or gas. I was aware of needing to go to the end of this tunnel to re-enter the world. Then I came out of the tunnel towards the light. This opened up into the hospital room.

I was conscious of what happened, but was confused. It so happened that the male nurse and female assistant where both black of African descent. I have lived in Thailand and Cambodia and I know that a soon as I was conscious my mind told me, that I had come out in the wrong place. My body was in the United Kingdom and I needed to go back to the tunnel. Immediately, the blackness came over my vision. There was no past-life imagery this time, but a more rapid movement backwards until I was again halted. This time however, I was turning to find a direction I wanted. I could feel I was being guided.

One aspect that stands out in memory was being guided forward and still being aware of needing to find the right tunnel. When I went forward, a voice clearly registered 'yes, this way.' It was as if I was spun to the side and sent forward and out of the tunnel. I found myself staring into the eye of a white female nurse. Although I did not at the time have the sensation of being back in my body, I was consciously aware of being in front of her. She shouted 'yes, now fight' and it was at that point I felt myself slam into my body. She shouted at me to breathe. I took an extremely painful breath, which resulted in pain in every muscle in my body. After a short while, I mentioned the pain to the nurse. She told me that it would go in a minute and it was because I wasn't breathing.

I shared a joke about coming back and thinking in I was in Cambodia, so I left again. I did not tell the staff about the rest of the experience. It seemed something to keep private at the time. They said we thought we had you back, but then you were gone again; so stay with us now.

As the muscle pain came from the lack of oxygen an overwhelming sadness came over me and I began to cry. I realized how blissful it was when I was away. I actually felt resentment towards the white nurse whose eyes I was staring into on my return. Then the most curious thing, I could feel her awareness of my resentment and she moved to the other side of the ward.

Then the pain subsided and I began to process what had actually happened. I felt no resentment only bliss and joy. I looked around the room and everything appeared fascinating; as though I had never seen a curtain before. I couldn't stop staring in amazement at the wonder of it.

I left the hospital a few hours later and went for a job interview that had been arranged. I won't go into exact details, but it was a man and woman interviewing me and while answering the ladies question she seemed to become hypnotized by my voice until her head slowly lowered ans she was asleep by the time I finished speaking. Me and the other man waited for her to wake up. She woke up as I looked back towards her and consciously willed her to do so. Nobody said anything. We all carried on as if nothing happened.

I didn't remain in the job for long as I know have a clearer direction in life. I am selling up and retiring to Thailand. There have been many mystical and spiritual experiences since. I have also struggled with returning to normal life afterwards. I am now looking for peace.

Background Information:

Gender: Male

Date NDE Occurred: 14/07/2023

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Uncertain. Medical test Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function)

How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant

Did you feel separated from your body? Yes the nurse saying 'yes this way,' and when she said to fight. I could see her eyes, but was not in my body at the time. I clearly left my body and existed outside it

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal. Increased awareness without the need to process or think

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? My consciousness was at a high level at the beginning and stayed that way throughout the experience.

Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning. I had no awareness of time until after returning

Were your senses More vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. bold and vivid, things appeared not as separate but all one. Everything was brighter, as if in a golden light

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. different but not in terms of volume, frequency seemed different. I could feel the sound as much as hear them

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes what was behind me was tunnel. It vast. I could not see it but was aware of it. The tunnel opened out around me. There was also a tunnel or many tunnels at the front, which was the direction I had come from. I was still facing towards them, although they were not visual; I was aware.

Did you see any beings in your experience? I sensed their presence

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes the light was behind me

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm. It was a world that was not empty but had no form

What emotions did you feel during the experience? panic at first, then acceptance, bliss, joy and peace, warm and comfortable that everything was ok and perfect.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe. Everything made sense as it appeared.

Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control. Family trauma in childhood

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will. After the initial panic, I was at peace and aware of leaving behind life. At the half way point, I was halted and told to go back. They helped me get back. I was actually consciously aware of returning but not aware of returning to what I left behind.

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Buddhist

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No

What is your religion now? Buddhist

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience. The returning through tunnels is consistent with Buddhist ideas of rebirth, which I was aware before the experience.

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes less willing to conform to society expectations.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin. I had a guide or many guides that had no form, but telepathically communicated with me. There were commands from a voice that could not be heard in the earthly sense

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I sensed their presence

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? Uncertain I became aware I have always been in existence and always will be so; just not always in a physical form and that I do not need a physical form to exist

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Uncertain

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Uncertain. We are all it. It is us; it is everything.

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes The knowledge that we are not our physical form or who or what we think we are.

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? Uncertain I was aware we are here for a purpose.

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? Yes As I moved back towards our world, I had no awareness of returning to what I left, just I was returning.

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life. Greater spiritual awareness and less concerned with rules, conventions, and allowing of others to dictate my life.

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes there is nothing earthly to relate it to. The light, not of one color but many colors. The presence of something with me but there was no form to describe.

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience. I can remember most of what happened but certain aspects aren't as prominent; like the past life imagery at the beginning was so rapid as to be almost one event made of millions into one.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes telepathy and ability to hypnotize has been shown to me, though it is not on my demand. Others also.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Uncertain Not fully, I just sometime joke I came back. If questioned, I say I went somewhere and we all have nothing to worry about regarding death. The rest seems too far out for most people to want to hear, and I don't feel like I should really divulge except to help others.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. The continued mystical experiences and changed perception in the weeks afterwards confirm to me reality is my conscious awareness.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real. I have had further evidence of being protected and guided in the earthly physical realm

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? No

Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? None

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