I had taken a big amount of amphetamines, ecstasy, and other drugs with the intention to kill myself.All of a sudden, I was inside a tunnel, dark and starry, like the sky at night. At the end of it there was a light, but not white. It was colorful, like all the colors of the rainbow. Something was pulling me to the light. When I finally arrived and went through it, I saw shadows without faces. They were talking to me telepathically. They were telling me that finally ‘I was going to know him’. I did not know what they were referring to, until they took my hands and took me near a man. I did not see him, but I recognized him. I knew who he was. He was Luis Alberto Spinetta, my idol, famous singer of Argentinian Rock, with whom I felt an incredible spiritual connection since I started to listen to his music. On that day, it was his first anniversary of passing away. Just before he was going to talk to me, I felt pulled down. The tunnel got dark again and I awoke on the hospital's gurney.
There was no god or religious people.
Date NDE Occurred: 8/2/13
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Suicide attempt. Drug or medication overdose Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function or brain function)
How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant
Did you feel separated from your body? No
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal My senses were sharper.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? In the tunnel.
Were your thoughts speeded up? No
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? No
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Because of the drugs I was seeing blurry. In contrast to my experience where I was seeing clearly.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I was hearing ok, but my hearing was better in the experience.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No
The experience included: Tunnel
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes A dark and starry tunnel like the sky, with a colorful light at the end.
Did you see any beings in your experience? I sensed their presence
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes Luis Alberto Spinetta, my idol that I love.
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes A colorful light that enveloped the landscape.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm A place where I felt free and rebellious but with peace.
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Peace, happiness, and euphoria.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No
Did scenes from your past come back to you? No
Did scenes from the future come to you? No
Did you come to a border or point of no return? No
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What importance did you place on your religious/spiritual life prior to your experience? Not important to me
What was your religion prior to your experience? Unaffiliated- Atheist
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No
What importance do you place on your religious/spiritual life after your experience? Not important to me
What is your religion now? Unaffiliated- Atheist
Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience Fue consciente, Fui atea, y lo sigo siendo.
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin Luis Alberto Spinetta.
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I sensed their presence
Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No
During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? Yes Descubrí o sentía que había nacido en la década del 50, ese pensamiento llegó a mi mente de la nada.
During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? No
Did you believe in the existence of God prior to your experience? God does not exist
During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? No Claramente no había dios ni autoridad.
Do you believe in the existence of God after your experience? God does not exist
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes That day I must have died, but they rescued me in time. But I have to die. That was my moment.
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are not meaningful and significant
During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No
Did you believe in an afterlife prior to your experience? I was uncertain if an afterlife exists
Do you believe in an afterlife after your experience? An afterlife probably exists Uncertain Puede ser, no entendí bien.
Did you fear death prior to your experience? I did not fear death
Do you fear death after your experience? I do not fear death
Were you fearful living your life prior to your experience? Not fearful in living my earthly life
Were you fearful living your life after your experience? Not fearful in living my earthly life
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant after your experience? Are possibly meaningful and significant
Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No
During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No
Were you compassionate prior to your experience? Moderately compassionate toward others
During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes El amor por mi ídolo, por la música, por el arte.
Were you compassionate after your experience? Moderately compassionate toward others
What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Slight changes in my life
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Uncertain Uncertain I have always been a loner.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes It is difficult to explain.
How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience as accurately as other life events that occurred around the time of the experience
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes Sometimes I feel that I can feel the souls of people in the places where they died.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The meeting with my idol as that day was the anniversary of his death. I had been crying all day and my last wish before my ‘suicide’ was to see him.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? No They would treat me like I was crazy.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? I know that I should have died.
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