Gulia M NDE

Experience Description

Before my body put itself into a coma following extremely violent status epilepticus, detected late when I was already experiencing cerebral hypoxia (blue skin), I had been hospitalized for a week for a procedure called SEEG. This procedure involves inserting electrodes to perform an intracranial EEG to determine the location of the epileptic foci. The final step of this SEEG is for the neurologist to send electrical discharges via a machine via these intracranial electrodes to observe the brain's reactions. Following this, that same evening, I suffered this state of illness with countless seizures. I was transferred to intensive care in a coma.

This coma lasted two days.

This is what I experienced; even if words are not enough to explain it.

So, basically, because the experience I had is indescribable.

I was in reality in a coma, unconscious, but what I experienced was quite different.

I crossed a small wooden bridge that went over a gently flowing river; and I arrived at a path with an embankment and tall, magnificent trees. The Earth itself was magnificent, and there was an extraordinarily beautiful, but not dazzling, light coming through the trees. One of my deceased dogs was walking beside me, peacefully. All the colors were splendid; it was so magnificent that it's indescribable. I felt a total serenity that you can't feel on earth; I was outside of time; time didn't exist.

I knew I was me and that the situation was special, but I didn't feel any surprise or questioning; it was simply normal. I was part of a whole, in a harmony that was once again indescribable. It could have lasted the length of a walk, or I don't know what eternity was, because there was no time, just the present moment; it was so magnificent.

The words I'm using aren't the right ones; you can't understand it if you haven't experienced it; there are no words beautiful and powerful enough to describe this journey.

The little wooden bridge and the water were so magical, as were the path and the earth of the embankment, as well as the trees and the light. My dog, although deceased, who was walking beside me, didn't question me; we just walked peacefully together, in complete inner peace. I wasn't aware that I was actually in the hospital and in a coma.

I was fully in the present moment, with no past or future coming to mind, just this landscape of which I was a part, like a greater whole.

I was so serene, I had become serenity, it was as if it had invaded my entire universe and guided every beat of my heart. It was so magnificent, but it was like that, as if it were self-evident, and I was too busy living and being life.

It was as I was looking at this extraordinary land that I began to hear all the beeping of the machines around me, and to feel the pain of the tubes bothering me, and to see the bright, aggressive lights of the intensive care unit. My hands were tied; apparently, I was very agitated in my coma. I gradually realized that I was in the hospital. Shortly after, my loved ones told me about that horrible moment of the Exetera coma. Yet, all I could think about was that landscape, light, and serenity. I had so much happiness, although the word happiness isn't a strong enough word for what I felt.

But I've always been surrounded by family and friends who are very rational and resistant to such inexplicable things, and I quickly understood that they didn't believe me and that I shouldn't talk about it.

Even I came to doubt it. I never doubted that I'd experienced an NDE, but I told myself that maybe it didn't mean anything after all, even if that memory would remain extraordinary for the rest of my life. However, although I have this doubt, I doubt it, that is to say, I tell myself now, much more than before, that anything is possible, and that I was probably wrong to doubt it. I no longer see the end of life as nothingness; I think there's probably something beyond it. An afterlife.

I wouldn't say I believe in God, but more in the universe or something like that.

However, I can't be sure; I continue to doubt.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: 02/2023

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Uncertain Illness Life threatening event, but not clinical death A 2-day coma following late-detected status epilepticus and severe cerebral hypoxia, in neurological intensive care. Status epilepticus following electrical discharges sent directly to the brain via intracranial electrodes during hospitalization for a SEEG.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant

Did you feel separated from your body? No No

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal The questions don't seem very representative of my experience, so it's difficult to answer. I wouldn't say it was about awareness or vigilance, but about the magic of the beauty of serenity and the present moment.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? I'm not sure I understand if it was really about awareness and alertness at the time I experienced the NDE. If so, my awareness and alertness were at their highest level throughout the entire experience.

Were your thoughts speeded up? No

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning Time did not exist, neither past nor future, only the present moment persisted.

Were your senses More vivid than usual? More vivid than usual

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. In my case, what can I say? Immediately before the experience, I was in my hospital bed, losing consciousness, far from imagining what was about to happen.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I didn't experience anything special in terms of hearing, neither silence nor particular noise, how can I put it, it was just life and I was life and that's how it was.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes It was my second dog, a golden retriever, who had passed away in recent years, walking beside me. I was both very happy to see her, but without question, and we walked together in a kind of Happiness that cannot be described by any particular feelings.

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? An unusually bright light

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes So bright without being dazzling, passing through the trees and making them so much more beautiful, a light of love and magic

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No

What emotions did you feel during the experience? At the same time, it seemed normal to me, like something obvious, but I was also amazed by the purity of this landscape, of every single thing that made it up. I knew I was part of everything in perfect harmony. I was happy to see my dog again, but I still found it normal. Overall, I felt an extraordinary serenity, an immense sensation of being outside of time and in the present moment, a sort of heavenly bliss.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Happiness

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No

Did scenes from your past come back to you? No

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? No

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Unaffiliated- Agnostic Agnostic

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Uncertain I am more interested in Buddhism and especially in the present moment.

What is your religion now? Do not know

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience I was agnostic but at the same time I thought that possibly there could be some sense of the universe that could exist in life and death.

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes It reinforced my idea that the universe has an impact on our lives, that other forms of animal or plant life have an intelligence and a goodness that we do not yet understand.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Yes As I said, some questions don't allow me to answer accurately and precisely. Since the experience, I have the feeling that I can better put myself in the place of animals or nature, which remains only an impression without any certainty.

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? No

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? No

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? but the experience made me realize afterward that such inner peace was possible. No

During your experience, did you gain information about life’s difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

During your experience, did you gain information about love? Uncertain I won't say specific information or love

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Moderate changes in my life In particular, greater sensitivity towards animals and nature, and greater open-mindedness

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes A person on earth who has not experienced it cannot know what it is about, words are not strong enough to express this experience.

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience An NDE, at least mine, is so incredible that it's impossible to forget. Of course, I also remember the trauma I experienced in the hospital, the physical and emotional pain, and so on, but that doesn't take away my indelible memory of this extraordinary moment, which is unlike anything you experience in real life.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No Serenity and inner peace; Present moment; Extraordinary nature

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes When I came out of the coma, I told my parents and my partner about it, and I quickly realized that they didn't believe me. Afterwards, I told a few friends who sometimes believed me and told other very surprising stories, but different from NDEs.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Uncertain I knew it existed but I didn't know any more.

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was probably real I knew it was real but my loved ones who didn't believe me really made me doubt

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was probably real I know I experienced it and it was definitely an NDE, but until there is scientific validation I think I will continue to doubt life after death.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? Uncertain I would say that this extraordinary landscape has a vague resemblance to one of the walks I took with my deceased dog, only in reality it doesn't resemble him at all, it was so much more beautiful and so different.

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Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? I wish it could be scientifically proven so I could finally be sure I've had a glimpse of life after death. If so, then I could almost say that death is good news.

Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? Perhaps make more sections based on people's NDE experiences.