I gave birth to a baby girl exactly eleven months before the miscarriage. My next baby had been in my womb for three months when I miscarried. Earlier that day I had started planning to go to the doctor that day because for the previous three days I had been having bloody discharges. I had not yet called the doctor when my water broke and then I started bleeding profusely. [med: in the womb (uterus) the fetus is surrounded and cushioned by a fluid-filled membranous sac called the ‘amniotic sac.’ At the beginning of or during labor, the membranes of that sac rupture and the fluid comes out—also known as the ‘water breaking.’] I called my mom since my three kids were the only ones with me. Also, I called my sister-in-law, who lived next door, to clean up the mess because I didn't want my children to see it. I could feel myself slowly drifting away. I was wondering why I didn't feel any pain while I was going through it. My mom arrived panic-stricken and all. I thought to myself, ‘I'll be fine now that she's here.’ I closed my eyes and felt like I was teleported to another place. I saw shadows of people hovering above me and I felt like I had just been born. And they felt so familiar, like they had anticipated my coming. I didn't know what to expect, but I wasn't scared. A part of me was asking myself if I wanted to stay there and leave my children behind. But I thought, ‘I'm not done with my present life yet,’ and I willed myself to go back. I opened my eyes and saw my mom and sister-in-law. At first, I couldn't recognize them, but gradually my senses became more active. I begged for water as if my life depended on it. It was then I understood why Jesus asked for water when he was dying. He was trying to hold on to dear life because his business here wasn't done yet. I also realized then that death can be a choice.
Date NDE Occurred: 'December 13,2010'
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes 'Life threatening event, but not clinical death'
I lost a lot of blood and was slowly losing consciousness.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Both pleasant AND distressing
Did you feel separated from your body? No
I lost awareness of my body
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Normal consciousness and alertness
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? When I was on the ‘other side.’
Were your thoughts speeded up? No
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? No It just felt like a new beginning.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? More vivid than usual
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I felt as if I was ‘seeing’ more than usual, like there was another dimension other than the three dimensional world we've always known.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I often have this ringing in my ear like I was being fine-tuned.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
Did you see any beings in your experience? No
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No In the sense that those beings I saw were totally unfamiliar.
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? No
Did you see an unearthly light? No
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No It didn't seem that unusual—the only remarkable thing was the feeling of the place.
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Nothing. It felt like I was just a watcher.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? Happiness
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No But my desire to know the truth has become more intense.
Did scenes from your past come back to you? No
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future No, not the word's future—but I did become aware of another life—or it could have been a past life.
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will It's more like the great author of life wanted me to start a new chapter, but I refused, because leaving this life would not have been a good thing.
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What importance did you place on your religious/spiritual life prior to your experience? Greatly important to me
What was your religion prior to your experience? Christian- Catholic
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes God is more real than ever to me. My physical body is having difficulty catching up with all the experiences he's been giving me.
What importance do you place on your religious/spiritual life after your experience? Greatly important to me
What is your religion now? Christian- Other Christian
Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience they say life is a curse because you would then experience suffering.is it better than not having a chance to exist at all?the fact that we're conscious of our existence gives us an opportunity to rejoice in our creator and celebrate him.
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes Try not to think so much of one's self.
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No Everything was quiet, but everybody was rejoicing. I think that I failed to notice many of the details around me because I was there for such a brief amount of time.
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? No
Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No
During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No
During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Uncertain there's no time and space.
Did you believe in the existence of God prior to your experience? God definitely exists
During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Yes it felt like i'm something yet i'm nothing.it's like i'm just consciousness.i'm just travelling with God.all these emotions are not real.the only thing real is allowing things to happen.
Do you believe in the existence of God after your experience? God definitely exists
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes Grace is real and its gift of life is wonderful. If you're given such a wonderful life, wouldn't you ask God earnestly how you could be of service to him?
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are possibly meaningful and significant
During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? Yes nothingness is immortality.clinging to form would only lead to loneliness.just let things pass by and smile.
Did you believe in an afterlife prior to your experience? An afterlife probably exists┬
Do you believe in an afterlife after your experience? An afterlife probably exists Yes i'm not sure if one really leaves earth rather it's a whole new beginning.you know how it is when a baby looks at you for a long time.he's staring but his mind is choosing whether to stay or not.
Did you fear death prior to your experience? I greatly feared death
Do you fear death after your experience? I moderately fear death
Were you fearful living your life prior to your experience? Moderately fearful in living my earthly life
Were you fearful living your life after your experience? Not fearful in living my earthly life
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant after your experience? Are meaningful and significant
Did you gain information about how to live our lives? Yes don't be part of any system because that would deny you of knowing what you're really here for
During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? Yes don't get attached to anything.strip off your identity and know your purpose.
Were you compassionate prior to your experience? Moderately compassionate toward others
During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes love is a duty.it's not a feeling.it's the one thing that keeps this world in place.it's what God does everyday.the natural law springs from God's love.
Were you compassionate after your experience? Greatly compassionate toward others
What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life Everyone now finds me weird and it's hard to discuss with them things that I've realized. They do not understand.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No
How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience as accurately as other life events that occurred around the time of the experience
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes Sometimes I see flashes of events which are a bit scary to look at or too out of this world, but I can sense the reality behind them.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? I hear voices but I can somehow feel in my heart whether it's a divine message or not.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes At first they thought it was surreal. Then they didn't want to hear any more about it and would just walk away if I started talking about it. It's quite lonely but I saw it coming.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes When I was a baby, I had a convulsion due to high fever.
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was probably real My mom told me about it. One thing is for sure, I'll never be the same again.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was probably real It could be real but what's the point. I'm still subject to God's good humor.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? Uncertain My experience could be a memory of when I was a baby before I knew my parents. As I said, there's no time and no space there.
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? When I was young I used to have had premonitions of things to come.
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