Douglas T NDE

Experience Description

Here's a little background information which led to my NDE. I chose to run away from home at 15 and a half. Little did I know my parents had decided if I wanted to run away, to let me go my way. At the time I had been using marijuana to escape from my bad life experiences. I stayed with my Grandfather(on Moms side). By the time I was 16 and a half, I left my Grandfather's. In the previous year I also discovered alcohol. My addiction was just starting. I had heard Ft. Lauderdale, Fl. was a happening town so I went. Keep in mind I had often had trouble sleeping. I bounced around alot, would stay at one place the would have to find another place, etc. etc.

Then it happened.

I was 17 when I had my NDE. I lived with a nurse. Because I suffered from insomnia, my nurse friend suggested a placidil(a heavy duty sleeping pill). I took it and at the time was drinking beer. About 45 minutes later, I was talking to my Mom on the phone and collapsed on the floor. Had a cigarette burning my leg but couldn't move.

The best way I can describe what happened, what I felt and what happened is like this. Imagine the euphoria you feel from drinking or drugging about 10 times intenser than the original feeling. That's how it felt at first. I saw my entire life flash before me. The good and bad. Then I saw a tunnel with brightness, brighter than the sun pulling me towards it, the bright light was at the end of the tunnel and I could see my body on the floor. It was like I floated above it. The one thing I immediately picked up on was an inner peace like no other. Then I reached then end of the tunnel. What I saw was amazing, it was Jesus. I asked him why. He replied if want to enter here you have to change. I said but I don't want to go, it's so peaceful here. Jesus said you have to go back it's not your time yet. I again said I don't want to go. Jesus said, tell them about me. I said I'll give them hell. Jesus grimaced as if he didn't care for that comment. My last words to him was, you know what I mean. This was said as I was going back to earth.

Well it wasn't long after that I relocated to Houston, Tx. I had heard it was booming with jobs. Went through several places to live. Eventually I attempted suicide in 1981. My Father had said once I turned 18, I would have to fend for myself. At the time I did this, I had lost my job and my roommate announced he was moving to California to his parents and I couldn't go there with him. With all that going on, it's why I did what I did. Long story short, my Dad said I could come home. The time frame of this was like late September of 1981. In February of 1982 I moved Washington, DC. because of my job. By the end of February I quit my job and relocated back to Houston, Tx.

Meanwhile, my alcoholism and addiction had taken off. Also too, at this time period I was very agnostic. Then I had a couple geographical cures(left where I lived and went to a place nobody knew me). Went to California a couple times and Florida a couple times. But would always return to Houston, Tx. By 1983 I settled in Houston until 1986. The recession had caught up to Houston and I had two choices stay and eventually get evicted from where I was stay or leave and relocate to New Hampshire. I relocated to NH. I stayed in NH. until 1990 and relocated to Fl. Stayed in Fl. Until 2001, relocated to Cleveland, Oh. for 5 months, the moved to where I am now Dundalk, Md.

In 1988 in NH. I got a DUI. this is when I finally realized I had to change or eventually die. Even had a Dr. tell me I would be dead in 6 months to a year if I didn't. That was my wake up call. So, I started with A.A. When I went to Fl. I continued my A.A. recovery. In a nutshell A.A. led me to a relationship with a higher power and in turn led me to accept God and Jesus. Then ultimately led me back to going to church.

What I got from this was Jesus telling me to turn back to him.


Background Information:

Gender: Male

Date NDE Occurred: 8/1978

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? No. Drug or medication overdose Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function)

How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant

Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I could see myself hovering over my body and my left leg twitching from the cigarette burning it. This was very brief because of the pull of the tunnel. I clearly left my body and existed outside it

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal It was more sensitive than earth consciousness and alertness.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Immediately

Were your thoughts speeded up? Faster than usual

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning It seemed like time went by without measure.

Were your senses More vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. In the NDE realm my vision was sharper than everyday vision.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. NDE hearing was very clear and sensitive. It was like I could hear things quicker than everyday hearing.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere, as if by ESP? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes It was like my spirit (that's the best way I can describe it) was being pulled through the tunnel by, at the moment, an energy source I didn't know of or unknown to me at the time.

Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? An unusually bright light

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes The unearthly light was brighter than the sun.

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm After the travel through the tunnel I stood face to face with Jesus. The thing that was odd in my NDE was there were no thrones or buildings or other spirits/Angel's. It was like we were just a couple feet away from the tunnel with no other things around.

What emotions did you feel during the experience? At first, I felt shocked briefly because of the fact it was like I could see my body on earth and at the same time I was out of it. Then an overwhelming feeling of peace come over me as I moved upward through the towards the extremely bright light at the end of the tunnel.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No

Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control At the moment of my spirit separating from my body I saw my whole life flash before me. Both good and bad.

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will. Yes where I stood talking to Jesus.

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Unaffiliated- Agnostic From birth until was about 13 I attended church. My parents removed me from the church I attended, citing the church was a bad influence on me. Some life experiences I had made me question if there was really a God or Jesus.

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I go to church, read the bible every day and pray alot.

What is your religion now? Other or several faiths Spiritual not religious, Southern Baptist, Baptist and a touch of Buddhist.

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience At the time I was somewhat agnostic. I knew of Jesus, God and Heaven but my belief had been watered down a lot. When I met Jesus face to face in the afterlife, that was confirmation of Jesus/God being real.

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes The meeting and talking to Jesus reaffirmed my belief he does exist.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin I saw Jesus

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? Yes Jesus told me before I was told I had to go back, to tell them(people on earth)that Jesus/God is real.

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Yes The fact that I met Jesus and spoke to him, yeah there is mystical universal connection does exist.

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Yes I met and spoke to Jesus

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes I believe Jesus let me experience this to communicate to me that he is real and to tell others of his existence.

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? An afterlife definitely exists Yes The fact that I met and spoke to Jesus. The fact I existed as a spirit but to see my earthly body.

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

During your experience, did you gain information about love? No

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Moderate changes in my life I have noticed that I'm quite sensitive to visions (very immediate future, never long-term future) and they are very vivid, sometime very graphic. Also, too, I noticed I've become more sensitive to spirit presence/visitation.

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes I noticed that when I'm with a loved one, it's like there's a real intense bond at first, then it seems to fade, sometimes to the point of them leaving the relationship.

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? No

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience. The best way I can describe it is, I remember everything that happened with the NDE but life remembrance seems less clear at times.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes The sensitivity to spirit visitation/presence.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Yes, just meeting, seeing and talking to Jesus that itself was, to me, a very intense(in a good positive way)experience.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Two days, that's what I was told by my nurse roommate at the time, that I had be asleep for. When I told my roommate about the NDE, she was like, you must have had one hell of a hallucination. I shared it a couple times between 1977 and current day and had a mixed reaction. Some said it was a drug induced hallucination and others believed it. I chose to share it now publicly (I shared in a NDE Facebook Group) because, I feel the world needs to know and two, I'm tired of being looked at as a psycho because I experienced this. Lastly, I shared it publicly to meet people who could identify with it and perhaps learn/grow more.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real I generally don't take things for granted. At first (before NDE) I was between I'll believe it when I see it or I have my doubts. After NDE I take things at face value, at times with some skepticism (you know how some people like to tell tall tales, in that vain of skepticism).

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real Hey I saw what I saw, I did what I did. To me it is a very real experience.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? Nope, your 7 pages is very thorough.