Candace Q NDE

Experience Description

On March 28, 2005, I was overdue to have my son, so I went to the hospital to be induced. My son had to be delivered by emergency c-section. He was having heart deceleration from his umbilical cord being wrapped around his neck several times. I had to have a spinal block because the epidural failed to work. Unfortunately, the spinal block went wrong too. After the anesthesiologist did the procedure, I couldn't breathe, speak, yell, or make a noise to get the attention of the doctor or nurse, to alert them to what was happening. I kept going in and out of consciousness. At some point, they realized something wasn’t right. The anesthesiologist picked up my arm and told me to keep it up. I couldn’t do it and my arm fell straight down on the table. The medical staff went into panic mode. The doctor immediately gave me oxygen and put me under general anesthesia. I woke up in the operating room and the anesthesiologist was removing the breathing tube from my mouth. I fell back asleep since I was exhausted.

Suddenly, I was out of my body. I could see the nurse with my son and father. We were now in a recovery room. I was transported in a flash to a place where beautiful light was everywhere and it seemed endless. My first thought was, 'I’m home!' It was familiar, peaceful and loving, and the place I have been searching for my entire life. I didn’t have a body but I was aware I was me. I was a sphere of energy. I know I had a choice to stay here or to go. I knew that I wasn’t done with my earthly life and I still need to complete my life’s purpose. I didn’t know what it was, but it was something meaningful. I also knew my loved ones wanted to share this sacred space with me but it would change my mind about going back. I felt love like never before in this life but very familiar in that realm.

I woke up to machines going off and the nurse over me. She calms down as my eyes open up. Finally, I get to see my beautiful, baby boy for the first time with human eyes. His father was sitting in a chair next to my bed and trying to feed him a baby bottle that the hospital gave him.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: March 28, 2005

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Childbirth Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function) My lungs were paralyzed

How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant

Did you feel separated from your body? Yes. I saw the room the recovery room they moved me to and I could see the female nurse. She was at a baby station in the room where she was working with my son as his father observed. I clearly left my body and existed outside it

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal. It was very vivid and etched in my memory

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? When I was out of my body

Were your thoughts speeded up? Faster than usual

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning. Time was a non-factor

Were your senses More vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I didn’t have a body, so I didn’t have eyes. But I could see all around me endlessly. I saw light in all directions that I could see at once.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I could hear but it was in my thoughts

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes It was like 'beam me up Scotty' (a Star Trek reference)

Did you see any beings in your experience? I sensed their presence

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes They loved me from afar

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes It was all around I was floating in it

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm I was there without a body

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Peace, love, overcome with joy

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No

Did scenes from your past come back to you? No

Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from my personal future. I had to come back to finish my life’s purpose although I didn’t exactly know what that meant.

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a definite conscious decision to return to life. I know that I had a choice to stay or go but I know it wasn’t my time. I knew that my loved ones stayed away because it would sway my feelings so I would stay.! I also realized that I just had a son and I had to go back

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Christian- Catholic

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I was angry at God if there was one. Now I definitely believe in God

What is your religion now? Other or several faiths. I don’t follow a religion but I am very spiritual

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience. I thought I had a lot of medicine and I had a crazy dream

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I believe in God and the afterlife

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin. Not a voice but a knowing

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I sensed their presence

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? Yes I must have lived there before

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Yes I was part of it in the light

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Yes I knew it in my head was that the light was God. I had a choice to go back and my life wasn’t complete yet. I had great things to accomplish

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? Yes This is where I came from since it felt like home.

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

During your experience, did you gain information about love? No

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life. It wasn’t an immediate change. 13 years later is when I believed that it was a near death experience and the experience became meaningful

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? I used to fear loved ones dying and now I help assist them on their journey home. I no longer grieve for loved ones because I know where they go. And they visit me or give me signs

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes There are no words to the feelings.

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience. It was very vivid and real

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Uncertain I may have had the gift prior but I definitely have a gift

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? I no longer fear death and enjoy helping the world view it differently

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I shared it right away to family but at the time I told them, I was feeling the effects of the medicine which was the cause of the experience

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definately not real. I had to make sense of it; like do I believe itr really happened or did I make it up

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real. After watching a show about near death experiences, I saw similarities in their stories to what happened to me. Then I became spiritual and I finally realized it was true to my heart and that the experience wasn’t caused by the medication.

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