Antonio P Probable NDE

Experience Description

There is no beginning for this experience. I remember what I did many days before the accident. I clearly remember what happened before my NDE. But it didn't happen all at once so the experience is divided into two stages, two places, many people, and many arguments.

I arrived to that place dragged by 2 little boys about five-years old. They held my hand while they laughed and sang together with four other boys who were holding musical instruments. The music as fine, sweet, and loud as it spread all over in this space that had no walls, angles, or rooms. I stopped because I had arrived to a dark, pitch-black, place that was far away from the little white point. The point became larger and whiter. I arrived quickly but was in no hurry. The darkness disappeared and a great light was all around me. The boys appeared again and led me a little further. I saw a black point very, very far from me. I floated without feeling the weight of my body. I looked around and was happy. I didn’t wonder where I was or where I was going, or who those boys were. I just floated with great happiness.

I saw a bench that was suspended in the white light. Three old men were seated on the bench. When the boys appeared, they started to elbow each other, while smiling and laughing. They were three, toothless nice guys, especially the middle one who was almost bald.

I was led to a guy who seemed human, at least from the waist up. He was dressed in a white tunic. His bust and shoulders were very, very white as the light all around us. As I think about it, I could not distinguish the tunic. Yet, I thought he wore one like mine. I distinguished his face because he had long curly, grizzled hair. I assumed his form because in front of his chest was a very high pile of extremely big sheets of paper he started to look through calmly. I'd say there were at least 20,000 sheets there. He asked me for my name and surname in that order. My name was not in his lists, but in another guy's list. While he was looking up my name and not finding it, he became impatient and then as he continued to look, he because frantic. He kept flipping through the pile of sheets at an extremely high rate. Then he closed the book. Before starting again to search for my name, he looked at me and asked my name. I answered by pronouncing my surname, followed by my name just as I did when I was enrolled in the military school where I was trained on earth.

I didn’t feel the sensation of time running, but he flipped through the sheets with much more eagerness until he realised that my name was not there. He wasn’t disappointed at all and with authority ordered me to turn around. The music disappeared and there was complete silence. The boys disappeared too. These instants lasted just a few moments. Then, I felt a strong push on my back as he said, 'It is not your time. You cannot stay here. It’s not your turn, turn back!'

Later I remember waking up in a hospital bed with my back lightly arched and with my sister near the bed.

Another part of my experience, I don’t know which is first chronologically because it is very different in places and arguments. I recall speaking to my sisters, or more precisely, I looked at me speaking to them and to my mother while sitting at a round table in my mother's kitchen. The table was almost set and my mother was sitting to my left, my sister Susy sat to my right, while my sister Mariolina was standing in front of me while she was doing the dishes. She told me that in a few days I would be hospitalized for a check-up and advised me to put all my things right since my hospital stay could be very long. I watched myself talking to them and was adamant that that situation was real. When I asked my sister's about this conversation, they told me it had never happened.

Background Information:

Gender: Male

Date NDE Occurred: 29 April 2017

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Accident Life threatening event, but not clinical death. I was in intensive care due to a motorcycle accident

How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant

Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I lost awareness of my body

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Less consciousness and alertness than normal in the one part, and very alert in the other one part

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? In the second part of my NDE, it was so real!

Were your thoughts speeded up? Faster than usual

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning. I could not feel the time passing during my experience. I couldn't say if it lasted seconds or years.

Were your senses More vivid than usual? More vivid than usual

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. No answer

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. My hearing was more high-pitched during the experience.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere, as if by ESP? Yes, but the facts have not been checked out

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes I was in a dark place with no angles. There was a tiny white point in front of me that became bigger as I went further. I think this is really the tunnel effect.

Did you see any beings in your experience? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes The three old men seated on the bench, who were very old but still alert and with nice faces. They were unlike any people I had seen before.

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes all was extremely white around me but with no source of light but just an extremely intense whiteness.

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? Some unfamiliar and strange place It was unreal but serene.

What emotions did you feel during the experience? I felt extreme calm and serenity and then amazement in the second part.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No

Did scenes from your past come back to you? No. Uncertain, just when I repeated my surname and name, I recalled events that happened 31 years before the accident.

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Unaffiliated- Agnostic Nothing

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No

What is your religion now? Do not know

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience. During life on earth, I never thought about death, if an afterlife exists, or when my time will be to go. Now, after my experience I still don’t think about it but I am sure I am not afraid of death anymore.

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I am more attentive and sensible to human condition, but I am not so sure about a clear-cut distinction between 'good' and 'bad'.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin. It was the guy who flipped through the pile of sheets.

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Uncertain Just awareness that all is connected and that everything is life in different forms.

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? No

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? An afterlife definitely exists During the first part I lived as it was normal life on earth. I wasn’t informed but I felt that it was not death.

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

During your experience, did you gain information about love? Uncertain Love is intended as 'no hatred' and Oh yes! All was love.

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Slight changes in my life. I am more calm and more thoughtful. I try to think what other people would do in certain situations.

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes I am much more sympathetic and consider what I thought to be minor things to be more important now.

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? No

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience. I remember the experience more accurately than other life events which happened after the experience.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The extremely high pile of sheets were full of names, but whose names? I get shivers just thinking about it. Ultimately, I think it had to be a system and a sort of rule that I know nothing of.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I shared with my family who have cried. My sister, who is also physician, told me she had listened to similar stories recounted by some of her patients.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. I saw myself move around in midair and talk to others.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was probably real. Both parts were probably not real as far as life on earth is concerned. The second part was much less real than the other part.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? I am living with a serene doubt but, at the same time, it’s not important because I still live.

Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? No suggestions, I think your site is well structured. Keep it up!