Yolanthe v M's NDE

EXPERIENCE:

My name is Yolanthe v M, and my mind has given and conveyed to me so much knowledge.  When I left my body in 1988 (horse stood on my head) I just was in light, going up.  I left my brain, my body down there, not feeling any pain.  It is the mind of every individual that does go on. I have learned to use my mind to help people, to use my energy, be in command of my mind letting nobody take control of it.  I am a free thinker, without being a puppet in religious belief.  That is the way I am.  To believe in god, is Hell, for then I did suffer from illusions, from persons who wanted, and tried to dominate me.  To be a free thinker is loving life, taking all the advantages, loving everyone as they are.  If I stayed with belief, I would not be accepting all that is alive, including in other dimensions.  Belief is full of limits.  Life goes on, and I know that my Dad, out of body now, shall become m grandson.  His own choice, as a free thinker!  I was my great grandmother, and chose to be with my daughter, my grandmother.  I am and stay a free thinker. That is a very brief introduction. 

I went up a ray of light and was stopped by someone who asked me "Do you believe in God?"  I answered "Yes" and had to leave the light, through an archway to an expanse of blue.  There I did see my grandmother who was so upset about seeing me there, and told me that Dad would take care of me.  I saw Dad in an old boat with my brother Diederic, who dies when he was 6 years old, and I was 1.  I was there for a long time, but outside the boat. 

Dad asked me if I wanted to stay or go back.  I did not have time to answer him, but found myself at my daughters' bed, then 10 years old.  I hugged her, kissed her, told her I loved her and was happy, but she did not see me or feel me, crying out Mum don't die, or words to that effect.  The same with my son who was 14 at the time.

I was more than upset and Dad saw that, so I came back but saw that my children did shine light and my husband was in black.  Then on the way back I saw Richard C who told me to play his music in order to regain my health. 

I woke up, and did not have my memory, but my Dads' calling my mother Carla, my brothers girlfriend Francis with the name Peggy.  I did know my son as Daniel but my daughter I did not know.  Dad was a great architect and I did the drawings automatically, though I had no qualifications. 

It took me a long time to adapt to being myself again, and letting Dad go, although sometimes he is right beside me, and a part of me when I need it for some reason.  My grandmother was a great artist, doing portraits of famous people like Judges etc.  She painted the faces, but the characters in the hands!  No wonder there were some rather terrible looking hands! 

My art is not of how the people look outside, but how they are inside, and some of them do not like at all what they see.  I know that there are many other artists who do the same, thus those people need to help all those who they have harmed in their past, in order to have a clear mind, thus also give out to artists how positive they are! 

Writing is just thought transfer to me.  Poetry just comes out when an individual is poetic!

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?     Yes: No

Placed on Tegratol and Dilantin, which placed me as "different" in society.

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? No: Yes

: Family would not accept my having the experience, and still do not, but I am getting through to them quietly.  Mum still thinks that United Church ideas are right, and I know that it is wrong, feel great about that fact, for my mind and feelings are together on that subject.

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Yes

Was running on machines for 8 days: 

Fell off a horse, which stood on my head, thus with brain injury.  I was clinically dead for 8 days, and my children knew that there was little chance for me to go on living.

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?           Super! : Very vivid indeed, and stays so like it happened yesterday!

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   No

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Yes

WOW!  Wonderful!: 

I was a free individual, going up the ray of light.  I did not see or look at my body at all.

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?           Dad, and Richard C, my son and daughter:

Hear, vague music, but no noise from Dad, yet his thoughts I received.  I did hear my children crying when I went to them, and that upset me.  When I came back I heard Richard C telling me to play his music in order to restore my health.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?          No

Did you see a light?           Yes

Yes, until I said that I believed in God.:

I just went up a ray of light, and stopped when someone asked me if I believed in God.  On saying Yes, I had to leave the light and went through an ach where I saw my grandmother.  The rest is in the question 4

Did you meet or see any other beings?           Yes

Grandmother, Dad, Diederic, Richard C, son and daughter: 

Grandmother, father and brother, then on the way down Richard C.

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?    No

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          Yes

My brother then beame my nephew in the same year.: 

I saw my 2 children and my husband at the time as photographs.  My children shining light and my husband in darkness.  I asked Dad what religion to follow and he was rather upset by my question but answered "The nearest to the truth, is Buddhism"  I know it is not the truth, but is fairly near to it, with Chakras etc.

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?           Yes

Just light blue, with old boats needing repair.

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Yes

My mind can be for a whole day in Paris, and just 30 minutes in a bus, in reality!  There are no time limits to my mind, nor to yours!:

They are the people fit and healthy I saw then, thus without any recal of pain.  I do not remember the accident either!

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?    Yes

I create my own life, my own future, the way I feel it is right for me!  All questions my own mind does answer in a manner that I do understand.: 

I just use my wavelength to think, thus to transfer thought to and from me. All the questions I have and or had, have answers.  Some anwers required that I first know the basic steps, like 1 + 1 = 2 before 12*12 = 144!  Questions like why did I have the experience spring to mind.  Answer: You love it all the way it is now, and have learned so much since that accident!

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No: Yes

There are no limits to my mind, thus no boundaries!  Were not aware at the time of this principle!: 

The fence or boundary is believing in a superior power or being. To give light means that you do not ask for anyone to help you.  Religion is full of conflicts, causing wars etc, in the mind as well as in reality.

Did you become aware of future events?       Yes

A great deal, for I would know beforehand what the next day would be.  I would work out how to react to different circumstances.  My mind does prepare me, without outside influences.:

I just wrote it down, not just what I do see, but what my mind conveys to me.  There are a heap of files stored with all that information.  That is in the room I see as being past.

Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?       Yes, I decided to return because I could not get through to my children.: 

Yes I chose to return because my children needed me, and because I was so upset by not being able to contact them.

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?         Yes

I had it, in my mind, just did not know that I had it.  Everyone has it, and it is by time that they use what they have!:

I learned to use all those capacities I was ignoring.  There are so many of them.  Psychic is just to let ideas come to you, that you find are important to know.  Paranormal.  I think I am normal thus see nothing as paranormal.  Artistic like mad, seeing how people are inside them, thus do portraits of how I see them.  Extremely accurate.  Have an income from that.

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   Yes

That the persons who use belief, tried to limit me to their limits.  I am a free thinker now, and stay so.

How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?       I love everyone as they are.  Daily life?  Help one person a day, and love what I have earned!  What career?  I help persons in hospitals, voluntary because I love to. :

I just take people as they are, and focus on the positive aspects.  I am not critical, and help those who are, so that they stop being critical.  Those who are critical, are criticized!

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         Yes

In any situation I know that I am there for a good reason.:

The more I do help people, the more I am happy!

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes

They love it, especially persons with NDE in strokes.  They feel no more alone.: 

Yes especially with stroke victims, so that they do tell their experiences, thus not keep them bottled up inside them.  The elderly loose their fear of death, and look forward to being with their parents and friends again.  They know that they will be children again in their next lives when they want to be.  They take control over themselves!

What emotions did you experience following your experience?  The limiting religions, trying to stop me.  Psychics trying to interfere in my ideas, telling me to believe.:

Many good ones when I played the music of Richard C, especially the CDs "Desperado" and "Lettre a ma mere".  I loved to hug my children, mother and others.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      The best, knowing that life goes on, that my Grandmother, Dad and brother were alive and well. The worst was not being able to be in communication with my children.:

The best, knowing that life goes on.  The worst, not being able to communicate with my children.

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?        Opened my eyes to inside my brain, which houses my mind.: 

It came at a point of confusion in my life, in order to sort myself out.

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         Yes: Uncertain

Please do not use drugs on persons who have had NDE.  Doctors should talk with their patients, be friends, and not just place them on chemical poisons instead.: 

Tegretol and Dilantin caused me pain, and confusion.  I am very glad I do not use it.  I ask doctors to think again about prescribing drugs to people with NDE, for it may just be harmful to them.

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