William R's NDE

Experience description: 

      My Father was a  alcoholic and quite violent. My Mother would support his violence. I felt trapped. I tried running away, but was always caught. My life was falling apart and I knew of no direction to turn so, I turned to suicide.

My Mother was a Registered Nurse and kept a drawer full of sleeping pills, valium, Librium, secenol, you name it, I took them all and washed them down with my Father's beer and whiskey.

I was discovered the next evening on the floor and not expected to live. They gave me a tracheotomy and took me to L.A. Community Hospital. While on the operating table I found myself in a dark corner of the room looking down at myself lying there. I was able to float down to the body and look up at the Doctor and Nurses who were in the process of pronouncing me dead. I saw them put a tag on my big toe. When I looked into their faces they looked so beautiful, their skin so soft and pink, their eyes so full of love. I felt very emotional, realizing what I had done, and how wrong it was. My life flashed before me, including every minute detail. Then I felt myself being pulled up a tube, or more like inside a blood vessel. All around me were other life forms being pulled up. I could see the end of the tube and it shined very brightly with white light. I kept going faster and faster until I flew out the end into space. There were stars all around, a groaning sound, I was cold, I also felt absolute bliss. I had a body, but it didn't have definition, a hand but no fingers, legs and feet, but no toes. Somehow I was drawn to this area where I could see life forms of all kinds, some even looked like elephants. They kept passing in front of me until a dark haired, human being stopped in front of me and introduced himself as my entrance into the records of all time, everything that has ever happened, or is going to happen. The library of all existing knowledge for all of Gods creatures. He shared all kinds of information with me, and even let me see other lifetimes I will be experiencing. I was given the choice to leave life on earth and continue on, or, he recommended I return to earth and complete this life cycle. He said it was important to complete each lifetime and its teachings before going on.

After 3 months in a coma, I returned to my body instantaneously, and it hurt like hell. I woke up, but was unable to see for about a week. I couldn't speak because of the tracheotomy. I could hear but it was echoey. I was a mess.

Was the experience difficult to express in words?  Yes

      What was it about the experience that makes it hard to communicate?  Until someone questioned me about the experience, I believed it to just be a dream. While explaining it, I remembered the whole experience as being real, but very hard to explain.

At the time of the experience, was there an associated life threatening event?  Yes

      Describe:  I tried to commit suicide to escape from a very unhappy family life.

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?  During my death experience I was more than alert, it was like only truth existed.

Was the experience dream like in any way?  Yes, until a student from UCLA, doing a paper on near death experience came into my room and started questioning me about my experience, then it all came out and became reality.

Did you experience a separation of consciousness from your body?  Yes

Describe your appearance or form apart from your body:  Hoovering in the operating room seeing my body laying there. It took me a while to recognize myself, I looked different than I thought I did.

What emotions did you feel during the experience?  Absolute Bliss

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?  A groaning sound and big thunder.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?  Yes

      Describe:  It was like the inside of a blood vessel.

Did you see a light?  Yes

      Describe:  A very bright light at the end of the tube, at first I wasn't sure I wanted to go there, but I did and it was wonderful.

Did you meet or see any other beings?  Yes

      Describe:  A dark haired human who spoke my language. He didn't show emotion, but was very compasionate.

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?  Yes

      Describe:  It was like it was on film, I could see the gear holes on the side of the film. It covered every minute thing that happened to me during those 16 years. I could feel a cut or thorne that I had experienced as a youth.

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?  Yes

      Describe:  My Fathers death. I saw him run into a train doing 80 mph, and be crushed. He died a year later exactly as I had seen it. 

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?  Yes

      Describe:  I call it the Caves. I meet all kind of entities there and we share thoughts.

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?  Yes

      Describe:  I have been able to hear other people's thoughts since then. I know if a person is lying. I am told things that will happen to other people, including death. I have had bad experience with this, so now I keep it to myself.

Did you become aware of future events?  Yes

      Describe:  I was shown maps and given all kinds of information concerning earth changes that are going to be happening. Many of which have already occurred.

Were you involved in or aware of a decision to return to the body?  Yes

      Describe:  I was advised to return to the body to complete my experience here on earth and to share my gifts. I'm not sure if it was mandatory or not.

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?  Yes

      Describe:  See #16

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?  Yes

      Describe:  I am a lot more caring and truly believe in God and a life hereafter.

Has the experience affected your relationships?  Daily life?  Religious practices etc.?  Career choices?  I have a hard time with people because I hear their thoughts, and they eventually find out, and don't like it. My life is dedicated to the study of metaphysics. I had to retire because I have post traumatic stress disorder and am unable to work.

Have you shared this experience with others?  Yes

      Describe:  I share my experience with anyone I can. It proved to me there is life everlasting which gave my life meaning and I want to share that. Many people are influenced positively, but most can't believe.

What emotions did you experience following your experience?  A great love for life.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?  The best is the knowledge I've gained. The worst is I see other people struggling without this knowledge, and they can't seem to comprehend this knowledge.

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?  I am so glad I was able to go through the experience. I no longer believe in death. The body goes but our identity goes on forever.

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?  Yes

      Describe:  In the 60's I took LSD and experienced many areas of the experience.

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?  Yes

      Explain:  There is more, lots more, but I think I've described the most important parts.