William M NDE

EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION:

Driving on the QEW from Buffalo to Welland, Ontario after being very tired from working a 40hr day job and 4 or 5 music projects.  Frequent driving between Toronto & Buffalo.  I was taking my girlfriend to her parents home in Welland, I went to sleep while driving.  Then I was aware that we were out of our bodies & quickly flying up toward space, holding hands. We flew straight up for a minute or so when we started to see a park or countryside-like landscape.  It seemed to be in twilight, sort of dark, but we could see trees, bushes, etc.  Suddenly, we were intercepted  by 4 creatures.  They seemed about ten feet in height & were invisible, but we could see a vague humanoid outline (my best description would be like the invisibility effect in the movie "predator" which I saw some years later.  Two flanked each of us and began to gently separate us.  They overwhelmed us with a feeling of the highest love & compassion that was well beyond anything we could experience on earth.  A divine love.  We therefore had no resistance to their effort. I recall feeling sort of like a baby in mother's arms, but it's hard to accurately describe.  Two of them moved her upward toward the distant landscape & two moved me back downward.  I felt so much love, peace, & comfort, that I wanted to protest & say "no, please let me stay here", but hearing inwardly (without ears) or psychically that I could not stay.  Next, I could see my car, in flames, from maybe about a quarter mile up above. I felt a sensation of falling, & awakened in the car.

The front was on fire. I moved her from leaning on me, as she was when I fell asleep, knowing that her body was an empty shell. I had left her above with those beings.  In shock, I made a few attempts to get out of the car, but failed not knowing why my feet couldn't be lifted.  They were through the floor.  After waking & passing out a few times, I saw someone approaching the car.  The man (a passing trucker) saw the flames as he passed & turned back to see if someone was inside.  He was startled by my appearance & said not to worry, he would get help.  Next I recall being removed from the car by  firemen. The fire was now on the dashboard. I regained & lost consciousness many times between the crash site, the hospital in Welland, & then the hospital in the U.S.  A couple weeks later I was in intensive care & overwhelmed with grief & guilt at having lost  a person's life. She came in through my window as a classic "woman in white" apparition & again I heard without physically hearing that I shouldn't blame myself & everything is as it should be. This has been very difficult for me to write.  It still makes me cry.  She then floated out the door into the hallway right between two nurses who obviously didn't see her.  I am still amazed by it all.

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Uncertain      being out of body, but still being me. Indirect contact with divinity.

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Yes     daredevil-type injuries. Many broken bones and head trauma.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    I didn't perceive any change, except for when I was back in my body passing out & waking up, alternately.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?    Normal consciousness and alertness

            I didn't perceive any change, except for when I was back in my body passing out & waking up, alternately.

Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?  Yes     visibility/invisibility of the spirit wranglers

Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?            Yes     hearing telepathically, first the tall invisible humanoids, then my girlfriend.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Yes

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            a divine love beyond our human ability to comprehend.  We can't feel it here.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?          No      

Did you see a light?           No      

Did you meet or see any other beings?           Yes     four of them. about ten feet tall. invisible, though you could see where they were by a vague, faint outline. humanoid in shape.

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?    No      

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          Yes     car on fire from above.

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?            Yes     park or countryside-like landscape, dimly lit as if in twilight, slightly distant.

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   No      

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?     Yes     the love aura (or vibration) of the tall beings. Now I feel that I know for certain that there is more than this mortal world. I  feel that our life is a temporary gift & the feeling of love from those beings is only a small amount of the divine energy. What we do in life is our own choice.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes     being turned back before I reached the twilight plateau in front of us. I left my girlfriend there.

Did you become aware of future events?       No           

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?     No       I have always been sort of sensitive to spirits. We had mild poltergeist activity in my parents house when I was young.

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes     I think I told a few people while I was still in the hospital. I was there for three months & a week.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?    Yes     I had heard of people going down a tunnel or toward a light.

How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:            Experience was definitely real    too unforgettable.  As real as anything.

Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you?    all of it affected me. dying/flying together. being separated by the tall creatures. feeling the purest love. being sent back. her message to me.

How do you currently view the reality of your experience:            Experience was definitely real    its as real as any other memory I have of my life experiences.

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?           Uncertain      I hope people I have told about got something from me telling them, but I know how fantastic it sounds. I'm still not sure what I should do with what I now know, but I think people should know that there IS more than this life & we are not alone.

Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?            Yes     I feel that I know something not known by many. but I feel that I wish I knew how to use that to help others. I know we have a place with God after this world, but most religions don't quite have it right. I don't feel that I can follow the paths laid out by other mortal men.

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No      

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?        I hope my story can help or comfort someone.

Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?         Yes     I think so. this has been a bit hard for me.(& I don't type well)

Are there any other questions we could ask to help you communicate your experience?   can't think of any suggestions.