William AM's NDE

Experience description: 

On a Thursday afternoon late in the month of January 1993.

At a time when the affirmation of Christ was at a peak level in my life.  I died. I died a complete death. The only thing that I can find that nearly resembles what I experienced is the "Near Death Experience". However my experience lacked a major component of the NDE. Specifically, the part when I was supposed to be pulled, or drawn, or just awaken back in my body at approx. the same time as when I had left it. It's not as though I didn't try that. I certainly made several attempt's. That didn't work. 

It was a day like any other day. And then it happened. I got hit! The 1st van clipped the rear wheel of the motorcycle I was riding as I passed in front of it, sending the rear end of the bike around in a circular direction into the opposing flow of traffic and another van, which also hit the bike in the same way increased the velocity of the spin immensely. I was thrown to the ground with an amount of force sufficient to break my neck. The chin guard on the full face helmet I was wearing took the 1st point of impact. My neck twisted and snapped so clean and so quick, I didn't even know I was dead.....! So, I got up. I began brushing myself off. I still had my helmet on and the grey leather military issue German fighter pilots jacket I was wearing was not torn but I could feel the tiny pieces of asphalt through my gloves as brushed away at the abrasion across the front of the jacket. My ears were ringing so loudly that I couldn't hear anything at all above the high-pitched, persistently resonant tone. My entire body had a buffered, swollen feeling. A powerful vibrating buzz permeated my entire being. Much like I would expect to feel after being slammed into the ground with the force which I had just endured. You may be familiar with the feeling. I was, I recall feeling this way at other times in my life when I began to enter a state of shock.

As I looked around to my right side, my motorcycle was there across the center of the road 6 or 7 feet in front of me. A station wagon had stopped beyond there blocking the traffic from the scene. A car came around the right side of the station wagon hurriedly and accelerated as it passed right through me and sped on down the road away from the accident. People had begun to gather around my body as I lie there motionless on the ground between the bike and the car that stopped to block the traffic from the scene. People were moving about frantically covering there faces and looking away as they could see by the unnatural turn of my neck revealing a lifeless gaze on my face, eyes still open and staring into nothing. Obviously dead. 

I could see that no one had touched me or tried to move me. So I got down on my hands and knees and attempted to reenter my body. Placing all of my limbs into the same position as I lay there. 1st my legs, then my torso, and now my head. I recall seeing the rim of the face opening of the helmet as I looked at my left hand, carefully aligning my fingers with my fingers. A man had gotten down on his hands and knees trying to get a closer look into my eyes to see if there was any sign of consciousness or breathing. I guess it was possible to him that I may still be alive only paralyzed from the neck down. At that point I would have been okay with that. I expected to feel some sort of click when I became fully aligned with myself. I didn't. As I began to push against the ground with the palms of my hands my shoulders and head came up about a foot before I realized I could still see myself laying on the ground below me. It wasn't working. I made two more attempts at getting up with my body. Before I stood up without it. 

I was now fully aware of what was happening. I had just died in a motorcycle accident in front of my home, on the way to work one afternoon. And what was worse was that my neck was completely broken and I couldn't get back into my body. I didn't know what to do. I was no longer concerned about my body or the people who were trying to help me or the entire scene all together. I was more interested in what began to happen next. I was once again oriented to the scene as I was when I began to brush myself off. This time I had no physical sense of being, my movement was more drawn or pulled than it had previously been I could no longer see myself. My senses seemed to all become one sense of presence. Rather than sight or smell or touch or sound. I was simply present and aware. The visual realm began to swirl. I could sense the tree in my front yard and wall to my house as a tunnel formed right through them in which I was drawn into. On the walls of the tunnel there seemed to be spaces that were occupied by events in my life none that particularly stood out or that I recognized as significant relevant to any other. I was more fascinated by the way that they were revealed, than I was in the content of each space. 

After passing through whatever it was, reality began to again take on form just the same as it had lost form only moments before. I regained the physical senses I had once before as I stood at the side of my bed in my bedroom which all became to be, as I became to be simultaneously. I saw myself lying there before me in my bed sleeping. I was wearing only my boxer shorts. The same as I was wearing there in my bed. I lay down into my body so easily and so comfortably and so tired. I fall asleep.

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?     Uncertain

Used small amounts of LSD infrequently between ages 17 and 19. Marijuana from 16 to 25 and some psilocybin as well. Recreational cocaine and speed from 22 through 36. This experience did not resemble or seem in any way at all alike a drug induced experience. I was not going through a use cycle abnormal to my usual self nor using any unfamiliar substances at the time.

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes

I myself had trouble with the believability of the experience. I didn't talk about it at all for some time. In order to keep from seeming to be losing my sanity. It eventually became necessary for me to explain some of the changes that had come over me. So I shared the experience with my family and some close and trusted friends. They encouraged me to talk about it more. It has become easier to talk about since. I am still overwhelmed with sharing the experience at times.

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Yes

The motorcycle accident.

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?           Heightened!

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   Only in context that it seemed other than real.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Yes

I experienced a state in which I could see and feel myself, but others could not see or feel me as for I was isolated and separated from them but still able to observe. Still able to act but have no influence. Akin to I would say a ghost.

And also a state with no physical sense at all only presence and awareness. Akin to I would say ethereal. But not exactly.

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?           yes, only a loud high/mid range resounding tone. other than that mostly silence.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?          Yes

            Describe:      what I passed through is well reproduced in the television series "Sliders".

Did you see a light?           No

There was not a light in the tunnel it was shallow and not dark but dim on the other side.

Did you meet or see any other beings?           No

Not other than the people who were involved accident and still alive and had no interaction with.

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?    Uncertain

occurrences  occupied spaces in the walls of the tunnel, they seemed to be of my life, however I didn't pay much attention to them.

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          Yes

I was wearing a helmet that I didn't have when I returned. But was given to me before I died. And was given to me again a short time after my return and before the time when I had died before.

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?           No

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Yes

I returned to my body two weeks before the event that caused my death.

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?    Yes

only after returning.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes

A broken neck.

Did you become aware of future events?       Yes

I became aware of a range of possibilities to which things do occur. I also became capable of recognizing variables which do occur and how the range of possibility fluctuates based upon each variables determination.

Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?       Uncertain

I knew that I wanted to return. but I don't know if that is why I did.  There was another time when I was allowed to be involved in a decision as such.  But I don't know if my involvement did actually have any bearing on such decision

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?         Uncertain.  Some people might call it that. But I see it as only as greater insight.

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   Yes, A stronger conviction of faith.

How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?       most things are different now. In regard to material possession mostly.

It is surprising how the value that is put on material possessions affects relationships, Daily Life, Religion, Career choices, etc... etc..

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         Yes

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes

People, are truly affected by my sharing of my experience with them.

It seems in so many ways. I only Hope that. They can find A glimpse of what is  Eternal life. To have some concept or seed to grow upon.

What emotions did you experience following your experience?  The entire spectrum of emotions all to an extent greater than before

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      the best (getting back in)

the worst (not getting back in)

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?        Yes, there was not enough room to finish. I came back two weeks before I left.

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?               Yes

Please offer any suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire.    you stated there more space to write than there was.  I would have condensed had I known.