Wendy D's NDE

Experience description: 

I had had surgery a week before.  I developed an infection, and had a bleeding vessel in my abdomen.  Suddenly, I began to BLEED.  I had been in pain for quite some time before this event, but at the time, I was not feeling any discomfort.  I was an inpatient at the hospital at the time.  I heard the nurse telling my blood pressure, and hearing the numbers go down.  She said  "I can't get a pulse or blood pressure, we're losing her!"  I watched the nurses pack gauze into my wound, and run to get blood....22 units.  It wasn't frightening at all.  I felt regret thinking I would be leaving my family and friends behind.

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?     Uncertain            I was being given painkillers at the time

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? No      

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Yes     Many cancer surgeries

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?           I Was awake.  I could hear and see everything

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   NO

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Yes     I can't recall thinking I had a physical form.  I was looking at it from outside of it.

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            curiosity;  feeling of regret to leave family, as i am convinced they need me.

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?           NO

Did you see a light?           No      

Did you meet or see any other beings?           Yes     I knew some of them, not others.  They seemed to know me.  No spoken words, just a supportive feeling presence

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          Yes     The word  "tamponade"  I asked about it.  It was packing the wound.  And the one nurse kept saying to me, "Debra!  Debra!  focus on me..." She had my face between her hands talking into my face.

Did you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they different?          Yes     I felt no pain or discomfort.  I had no real sense of a physical body.

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Uncertain      They say I was hallucinating and talking to people that weren't there for a couple of days while I was in the ICU

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?    Yes     I felt that I wasn't ceasing to be, but that I was going to the source of all things

How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?       My family has reunited.  I talk to my mom and sister daily, when I hadn't seen them in over a decade. I savor things more than I did.  I'm more observant

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         No      

Have you shared this experience with others?         No      

What emotions did you experience following your experience?        I was elated to be back in my body, among the living.  I was also disappointed because I was in pain again.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      No best, no worst.  It just was

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?        Not as monumental and scary as I would have thought.

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No      

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?               Yes