Vincent T's NDE

Experience description: 

Well it was quite a simple experience.  I had suddenly gotten ill while vacationing in Disney World over the New Year, 2000.  My wife and I had gone out to dinner, several hours after dinner I began experiencing intense abdominal pain.  Of course, being an Italian male, I refused to go to the hospital.  Well at about 4 am the pain just became so intense that I told my wife to call the front desk.  As Disney has its own EMTs/ambulance staff, they dispatched an EMT crew to my room.  The two paramedics, retired from New York City, said I had to go to the hospital. 

Apparently on the way to the local hospital my vitals began to real slip.  I remember the paramedic requesting via radio that instead of going to the local hospital, they divert to Orlando Regional Trauma Center.  Blood pressure had fallen to 60/40.  Upon arrival I remember requesting something for the intense pain, the staff refused. Doctors said they could not give me pain medication until they found out what the problem was.  The had to perform a CAT scan, etc. 

That's about the last I remember. I don't think they ever gave me any pain medication.  I do remember telling my wife she had been a good wife, as if I knew I would be leaving. Unknown to me at the time, the hospital had sent the Chaplin to stay with my wife, in my room.  I also later learned that doctors told my wife they had done all they could, and now it was up to me.  Well at some point, I guess I lost consciousness. 

Upon awakening I remember it was like being shocked back to life.  (no I didn't have a heart attack, they did not use the paddles either)  I remember seeing a very very bright white light.  I also remember seeing my mother who had passed several years earlier.  She was standing in front of a doorway, or entrance in a blocking manner.  She did not say anything, but I guess the symbol was that it was not my time to enter.  I then woke up. 

For some reason at the time I felt disappointed that I was not allowed to enter and remain where ever it was I had gone.  It seemed so peaceful. Today I have no fear of dying as a result of what I experienced. That's about it.  To this day the doctors debate whether I had a staph infection, toxic shock, or anaphylactic shook.  I did make a full recovery from what ever it was.

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience:  No

Was the experience difficult to express in words?  Yes

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?  I believe I was unconscious.

Was the experience dream like in any way?  no

Did you experience a separation of consciousness from your body?  Uncertain

What emotions did you feel during the experience?  calm, painlessness, peace

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?  no

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?  Yes

      Describe:  seemed like a dark tunnel, with that big bright white light at the end.  The light was so bright it hurt to look at it.  The light seemed to draw me toward it.

Did you see a light?  Yes

Did you meet or see any other beings?  Yes

      Describe:  my mother, standing by a doorway or entrance.  Nothing was said, it was if she turned me away and sent me back.  That's when I regained consciousness.

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?  Yes

      Describe:  It seemed as if time, or nothing else mattered.

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?  Yes

      Describe:  I feel more relaxed, and do not fear death.

Has the experience affected your relationships?  Daily life?  Religious practices etc.?  Career choices?  not very strongly

Have you shared this experience with others?  Yes

      Describe:  my wife and several relatives.  They didn't seem to be influenced one way or another

What emotions did you experience following your experience?  kind of a let down

What was the best and worst part of your experience?  not being allowed to remain, where ever it was that I had gone to.

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?  No

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?  Yes