Veronica W NDE

EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION:

I will share my near death experience  and will make it as brief as possible.  In the  summer of 1995 in CT, I was alone at home gardening and by accident put my hand into a black wasp or hornet's nest.  Being allergic, I went into anaphylactic shock but had enough time to call 911 before I went into full shock.   

While in the ambulance, I could hear the paramedics discussing the severity of my condition and the last words I remember from then was, "We  don't have a pulse; she is flat lining. If we give her any more medication it will kill her."  Then some other debate over what to do.  Then I was gone.

I went directly to a place of light.  It was calm and immediate -no tunnel or any sensation of travel.  The place where I was, I perceived to be analogous in a way to a exterior of an entry way but not fully in heaven.  There was one major being of love and many other beings of love with actual personhood or souls.  I could not see much but light and vague outlines in a way.  There was nothing but love, goodness, truth, and all things to do with love with NO ROOM for fear or evil or anything but this love.  It was more wonderful than any of my best hopes or experiences on this planet.  It was beyond perfect and loving as we in our human state know it.  No words to describe it.  I was so happy to be there.  I was shown a close up "picture "  of my daughter's face and was told that she would need me.  I was 55 at the time and my daughter was in her junior year of college . The major heavenly being of love who I call God, which seemed masculine to me in a way, imparted the message to me directly through thought that I could stay or I could go back. 

My sense was that it would please God if I went back to earth.  I loved him so that just knowing this made me want to please Him.  He warned that it would not be easy for me back on earth and gave me a chance to "consider" then the second I decided in my mind to go back, I woke up in the hospital bed. 

The hives were like bunches of grapes on my body and I was on oxygen mixed with meds for breathing, tubes, IVs, etc.  There were many doctors around me.  They were amazed at the condition of my body and that I gained consciousness. 

Several months after that, I went through a horrible divorce,  my divorce attorney as well as the judge was bribed or swayed in some way by my ex husband to rule unfairly in my divorce, I believe. My beautiful home was foreclosed on and I was left in debt while my ex husband kept millions.  I had to take a teaching job in a dangerous school because of my age being in my fifties and lack of recent teaching experience and the time of year which was mid school year.  One terrible experience after another occurred that compromised my health and physical condition.  

I finally remarried after five years.  Then my daughter did need me.  She was married and had a dangerous life -threatening pregnancy that left her on complete bed rest, hemorrhaging  often, etc.  Her baby girl was born one month early but healthy, beautiful and identified as gifted now at five years of age.  The child's chances were about  one in a million to survive.  My daughter and granddaughter did need me as I cared for her mother throughout her pregnancy. There have been many times that weren't as dramatic where my daughter did need me, as well. 

So the hard times, my daughter needing me and the vivid indescribable near death experience changed my life.  Now the injustices of this world, the mistakes that I made in my choices ,and still make, are  even more  clear to me and I can see that those poor choices are not in keeping with the love I knew from my Heavenly God.  I see how our heart attitudes need to be aligned with His and how we need to seek a relationship with Him  striving toward being one with or in Him.   

I can't express all the impressions I gained in earthly words. But the experience made me want to continue my spiritual  growth, my work here on earth, to please God and become more like Him even more so.  I also feel that I want to encourage others  on the path to conform to God and His TOTAL and PERFECT love. I miss God and the taste of heaven but I know there is a reason for me to be here.  I feel sad that I have not reached the level of being a truly highly evolved loving being yet but I feel that God knows I love Him and I am trying. 

There is so very much more that words can't express but what I have written is about the best I can describe of my experience in mere human words.  I want to read many accounts of near death or clinical death experiences.  Each one is tailored for us, it seems, yet there are common elements.  I also wish  all others could know that holy and positive experience of my near death or know about it and believe.

Please feel free to ask questions or contact me.                                                             Veronica W.

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes     There is no human vocabulary, experiences, feelings, spiritual feelings here on earth to communicate my near death experience.  This can be frustrating because I want to share it more.

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Yes            anaphylactic shock from an allergic reaction to multiple black wasp stings

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    When I was told that I could stay in what I perceived as Heaven or go back. It "hit me" or brought home to me that I was not in my earthly place. I also knew that this was a very important decision in some way. But when I sensed God's love for me and for all... probably that was the most emotionally intense and heartbreakingly beautiful moment.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?    More consciousness and alertness than normal

If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain:            When I was told that I could stay in what I perceived as Heaven or go back. It "hit me" or brought home to me that I was not in my earthly place. I also knew that this was a very important decision in some way. But when I sensed God's love for me and for all... probably that was the most emotionally intense and heartbreakingly beautiful moment.

Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?  Yes     There was such light that it obscured my human vision but it was also soft and part of love, of God. God and the other spiritual beings appeared in translucent type outlines of white or light but I saw no visual details. Everything was focused on love, information, and in a spiritual format.  The clarity of vision happen when I was shown my daughter's face close up and in a very very large video or photo type manner. I was almost not interested in the visual or needing it and it felt natural. So hard to explain.

Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
            Yes     Messages were communicated by telepathy or something like telepathy between God and the other holy beings and me. I felt that no one on earth was aware of what was happening there, in or just barely in Heaven or or just barely outside of Heaven. I don't know where it was almost like a waiting room part of but just outside of all of Heaven.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Uncertain

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            I am crying again. The emotions of love and gratitude toward God was and is overwhelming and sublimely beautiful beyond measure. I felt NO fear which is strange because I get anxious easily on earth many times. I felt safe, known, loved, understood, cared for like I have never known. I felt euphoric yet calm. I wanted to stay immersed in God's love, to stay there. I had to be reminded of those I loved so much on earth because the love in Heaven was so inviting.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?          No      

Did you see a light?           Yes     I was immersed in light which also was God, which also was love and loving perfection of all of everything there. The light was "blinding" but soft to my human self. It was not unpleasant or frightening.

Did you meet or see any other beings?           Yes     There was one major superior being of love which I understood as God. There were a number, I don't know how many, of other loving beings with God.  I felt like they were his  spiritually evolved helpers or companions.  I just don't know the others exact role.

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?    No       It was more a prediction that if I chose to go back to earth that I would encounter difficult times and that God wanted me to know that before I made my decision. And yes, I learned that love in its perfect state through God is what is important. I learned that we are always able to evolve and serve God and each other forever. We have the choice to learn about this love and how to become a part of it and God if we want to do so. It seemed like our relatives are especially important to us for our spiritual growth and journey. All beings seemed to be important, even nature and our precious animals as well as other beings from other realms. That is an impression that almost seeped into me-into my soul. Also, that in our human state, we are so off course and primitive in a way but still loved. That God wants all to be a part of Him and His perfect love. It seemed like a short time and while main telepathy was going on, I was quickly absorbing these other truths by osmosis in a way from being immersed there.

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No       Only that my daughter did truly need me to literally save her life and her baby's life later. It was imparted to me from God that my daughter would need me while I was with Him.

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?            Yes     As I described earlier. There was a beautiful bright yet soft light and almost mist there. The beauty was in God and the total perfect love. The sight of my daughter's face was beautiful to me but I saw no distinctive locations or scenes.

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Yes     It wasn't like clock time on earth. We were so in the love and in the present in my experience. I did reflect "back" on my daughter on earth and had a warning of what was to come if I went back to earth in "the future" on earth. Yet there in or part way in or just outside of Heaven, there seemed to be the past, the present and future altogether to God but it made sense when I was there. I can't explain it further.

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?     Yes            God is manifest perfect, heartbreakingly complete, highly evolved love yet He is a being with a soul and identity. My sense was that we all are on a path to that love and to God. The main purpose is love and realizing the source which is God. What can be is so beautiful and right. Others, all others, count even nature and precious animals. Our purpose our goal is God and his perfect love  to continually learn and serve God, love and serve each other, love ourselves, grow spiritually but we have a free will to not be aligned with God at any point. We must understand God's love, understand the opposite of it and how destructive and wrong it is, then reach toward God to have a beautiful and completely loving existence.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes     This is a hard question. I could say I almost felt like I had a toe in the door of Heaven. I know I was with God and other spiritual beings of love. That I communicated with them and they with me. I gained knowledge and my heart was breaking with love for God and His way.

Did you become aware of future events?       Yes
            That I would experience difficult times, that my daughter would need me, that I had other work to do for God, others and myself. I was not told the specifics.

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?     Yes     I have always had some psychic gifts but I believe they were heightened. For instance when the phone rang most times I knew who it would be if I already knew the person calling. I felt a strengthened sense of what is right and wrong.

I could hold a photo of someone and get a sense of them. I know that I know that God is aware and loving even through difficult times. I do get specific signs from God often.

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes     It has been about eleven years. Some people were incredibly effected and encouraged, others unsure and some skeptical. Mostly positive responses and some familiar with similar accounts like mine. I am always happy to share my experience. I usually cry for love of this event and God and get frustrated because no human words or events can describe my time in or near Heaven with God and His perfect love.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?    Yes     I had heard that my aunt who was an athiest had a clinical death. She was so angry to be back on earth because she loved it there. I was young and do not remember any specifics and do not know if my aunt came to believe in God. She seemed to always be helping other though.

I also read some of Moody's work out of curiosity. Although my entire greater family were atheists except maybe my uncle, I always believed in God and loved Him.

I do not feel that reading books or hearing my aunt's account second hand influenced me. I truly expected the tunnel and was afraid of that because I don't like tunnels and speed. I did not experience that so God knew that, also.