Trisha H's NDE

Experience description: 

As I came through a white light I saw him standing there, tall, young and in a brown military uniform and I just knew who he was, when he reached out his hand I saw what I had seen my whole life, a hand like my dad's. As I went to hug him I was overcome with a deep sorrow and I just cried, a deep cry that I know I have never felt before.  I cried for his short life, for his 3-year old son he never saw grow up, for my grandmother who never remarried, and for me, for the grandfather I never knew. 

We talked about his plane crash in WWII , I told him that his death was never a subject brought up when I was growing up, and that I only new a little about him, he explained that my grandmother (his wife) had dealt with her grief in 1945, but that this subject was hard for her.  I told him that I was feeling guilty for really never taking an interest in him, he laughed and said, "I know, but now the time has come." We walked and talked for what seems like a very long time, it was not rushed, it was peaceful.

As we walked I remember meeting other men who had been killed in action, my grandfather stressed over and over how it was my time "to set the plane crash right." At that time, I knew I wanted to stay, but my grandfather walked me back to what seemed like the outskirts of a town that was still in 1945.  At the edge of town was the white light, at that moment I felt a deep sadness for leaving him.  As we walked to the light he gave me a hug, and said, when you have doubt, or sadness, remember this hug and the warm breeze and you will know it was real.  I took in every scent of him.  I even "thought" I caught my hand on a medal on his jacket.  My grandfather and I went to the light and I felt so torn, but with his words of "I love you and I will be here when you are ready, not now for there is so much for you to do."

I asked him about my son whom I had just had.  He told me to be strong, Joey will have a mild problem but it will all work out.  We hugged again and I walked back to the warm light.  I know I saw myself lying on the bed with a lot of tubes, and a nurse and that was it.

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience:  Uncertain

      Explanation:  was very ill, have no memory of hospital stay until I "woke" up 2 months later

Was the experience difficult to express in words?  Yes

      What was it about the experience that makes it hard to communicate?  feel that no one will believe me and my biggest question is why ?

At the time of the experience, was there an associated life threatening event?  Yes

      Describe:  Was 7 months pregnant with third child when I developed HELLP Syndrome

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?  not sure,  I think I was consciousness

Was the experience dream like in any way?  no, very real

Did you experience a separation of consciousness from your body?  Yes

Describe your appearance or form apart from your body:  as a whole person

What emotions did you feel during the experience?  Strong connection, and love, deep sadness

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?  no

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?  Yes

      Describe:  walked out of tunnel into a town

Did you see a light?  Yes

      Describe:  White, warm, inviting

Did you meet or see any other beings?  Yes

      Describe:  yes, people of this town who all seemed to know me

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?  No

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?  Yes

      Describe:  Joey was diagnosed with MILD Cerebral Palsy that by age 5 was nothing more than a limp.

2. Grandfather's plane crash that killed crew, was able to obtain 40 page Army Air Crash report and most of the crew's family's were never told how the accident happened

3 Nightgown I was wearing was put in a bag the next day and put away by accident, found it 2 years later, and while opening bag discovered it had a scent, and not the hospital 

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?  Yes

      Describe:  the whole town was warm, all flowers were in bloom and the colors were beautiful

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?  Yes

      Describe:  felt time was from another period

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?  No

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?  Yes

      Describe:  the end of town, and I knew my grandfather could not go

Did you become aware of future events?  No

Were you involved in or aware of a decision to return to the body?  No

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?  No

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?  Yes

      Describe:  I am more sensitive and feel strongly about things

Has the experience affected your relationships?  Daily life?  Religious practices etc.?  Career choices?  Became very involved in my family genealogy leading me to become a genealogist

Have you shared this experience with others?  Yes

      Describe:  most just think I dreamed it

What emotions did you experience following your experience?  all

What was the best and worst part of your experience?  meeting my grandfather and not being able to bring him back

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?  no

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?  No

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?  No

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?  Yes