Tonya R NDE

EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION:

My experience happened in  1993. I am SO happy that I am still here. I try to give the gift of not being afraid to die to others now. My brother died knowing that what he was experiencing prior to death was real (floating above his own body, not feeling connected to it, but loving everything he ever lived as the same as he'd ever loved). My other brother had a lifelong friend die recently, I went to the funeral last  night. I am astounded that I AM ABLE TO BRING COMFORT TO MY LOVED ONES WHEN IT COMES TO THE UNEXPECTED DEATH OF THEIR PRECIOUS OWN LOVED ONES. Life's a trip.

I cannot tell you who "Harry" is. But we know, in my family. He died a "bum". But what does that word mean???? Harry was bad, jail material from the beginning. Robbing, stealing, a bum. But he was nice. He was with my brother so much that in my mind, he was my brother too. I had not seen Harry in years, but he was still one of my little brothers. I loved him in life and I love him in death. What I heard at his funeral was good. But what I heard from a bunch of different bums was best.  You see, Harry had learned to give in his life. I heard other bums tell of how Harry had seen them out on the street and hungry and he "took" them out to "his" restaurant" to eat. How he would show up at a certain restaurant and get them so much food, not just enough, but more than enough. Harry? A jailbird??? There but for the grace of God go You or I. I learn from my "experience" each day that we are  CHOSEN IN OUR OWN WAY and given a chance at redemption. My own experience is profound, but I choose to give you Harry's experience today at this particular moment.

To hear mine, please just contact this ghetteo girl, turned full time mother, to grandmother five times over. To having son who is a truck driver, to9 having a son who is a frat boy. To having a daughter who saved her life through prayer and who needed her afterward through three "baby daddy's", college and beyond. I've got a tale...but can you accept me and all that is a result of me???? Please contact me. It seems and feels the world has changed since that day....My story is more profound because of it's origin and I want to tell it, but I am tired. I am disabled and my body hurts. But I love everything so much more today. I', tired right now but if you wish to hear about the experience, I can tell you in full detail. Please, just let me know....

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes     The complete feeling of joy, acceptance, happiness (different from joy) contentment, i.e. the total absence of any negative emotions or energy seems to still be beyond explaining

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Yes     I was to have a simple medical testing procedure performed to determine why I was experiencing unfathomable pain in my abdomen.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    I was always aware; from the moment I began to leave my body.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?    More consciousness and alertness than normal

If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain:            I was always aware; from the moment I began to leave my body.

Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?  Yes     I could see far, far away into the distance; to the place where I was going to, the place where I was headed.

Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
            Yes     I didn't have to "hear". What my angels, guides, escorts aid to me, I heard without them ever uttering a sound or moving their lips. I instinctively knew when I was spoken to and knew to respond accordingly. Words were never used.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Yes

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            Indescribable peace, joy, security. A sense of well being that I have never encountered before.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?          No      

Did you see a light?           Yes    

Did you meet or see any other beings?           Yes     Two young men, quiet and well groomed. They had on shades to shield their eyes from me. They were Black, like me, yet they were not like me except that they seemed very familiar and trustworthy. I knew that they were there to take me somewhere and I had no thought of objecting.

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?    No      

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          Yes     My daughter was app. 9 years old at the time. She told me later how she prayed and she prayed for God to make me better so that I could come home. She cried tears of grief and fear. At approximately that time, I "saw" her next to me as I travelled with my two otherworldly escorts. Seeing her brought me home, in an instant. The moment I saw her, I was no longer with my escorts but waking up in ICU. Instead of looking at her, I found myself looking into the eyes of the nurse who was positioned at her front desk location.  The nurse saw me open my eyes and immediately picked up the phone at her fingertips and I heard her voice carry over to the entire hospital as she paged my doctor stat. At that moment I had no idea what was going on. But the nurses quick response to my waking alerted me that something out of the ordinary had occurred. I don't think they thought I was coming back. But my daughter's prayers made sure that I came home...

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?            Yes     As odd as it may seem, when my "escorts" showed up to take away from the hurt body I'd just left behind, they mentally told me to enter this older model vehicle. I instinctively knew to get into the back seat, which was wide and kind of like an old fashioned Yellow Cab in build. The two escorts rode together in the front and they made eye contact with me, assuring me with their vision that all was well. Yet I felt just the slightest twinge of regret and I also felt that they did not enjoy taking me to where I was going. They were not angry, but sad; for me, it seemed. The vehicle began to move, but not forward; instead it moved upward at a very peaceful pace. I settled in for my journey. We rose and I saw ahead of us, upward bound, a vision of a place that looked like a beautiful sunset. The hues of brilliant red and gold surrounded by a purplish atmosphere beckoned me and I looked forward to arriving at that destination. Since then, any sunset is a reminder of that time...

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Yes     Time just didn't exit. All time seemed to be the same. Where I came from, where I was going, where I was at that moment; it was all the same moment.

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?     Uncertain            I was fine while I was there and since everything in time seemed to be connected I felt no urgency in discovering what I was discovering.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes     I was travelling toward this ethereal destination and suddenly the notion of my daughter enveloped me and I was not just blocked, I was back.

Did you become aware of future events?       No           

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?     Yes     I understood that death is not something to be afraid of; that God loved me and my children enough to send me back because we have a job to do that encompasses more than just who we are but the work we do in providing the earth, he elements and the people who are still here with as much guidance and assistance and nurturing as humanly possible. It all connects to how we get where we are going.

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes     I shared immediately...with a few beloved people. I had to. I would not tell my doctor who asked as soon as I awakened from my experience because I though he'd think I was insane and not let me go home to my daughter who'd called me back here with her prayers and her pure and frightened love for me.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?    No      

How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:            Experience was definitely real    I was a hurting person in my everyday life. My father had abused me sexually, which led me to leave home to be with my boyfriend who would later become my husband. My boyfriend tried his best to cope with who I was, but I didn't even know who I was because I was a living mass of emotional pain and confusion. We were young so we were doing drugs, drinking and being unfaithful to each other. I wanted this man, I felt he was the thing I needed in my life and I could not even envision life without him. I really need him and he needed me but we didn't know how to communicate that to each other. My experience brought me an inner peace that allowed me to stop misbehaving and that brought about something new in my man. He saw the changes occurring in me, in my behavior, in my way of thinking and my way of being. He changed too. We wound up having two more children and now we have four. Drugs are no longer a part of our lives and our children are aware of how the world and the universe affects us and who it is affected by us. The experience defined me and I, in turn used it to guide my children. I do not limit this experience to my children but to everyone who I can feel will accept that there is unlimited joy to follow if we can allow ourselves to understand that this life is only the life w must get through to get to the joy of our true existence that waits for us on the other side. I also let them know that who we are and allow ourselves to be is the way to get there, to that beautiful unlimiting place.

Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you?   

How do you currently view the reality of your experience:            Experience was definitely real    I am a better person today. I am not confused and I am not hurt by the things that happened to me in the past; things I had no control over because I was a child. I am still a child in a new sense, but I am a child with the expectation of new life beyond the life we know. I understand that no hurtful thing on this side can keep us away from the joy of the new life we are destined for and so present pain, discomfort and inability are no longer obstacles but learning tools.

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?           Yes     I love more and I love better. I think the love is real and pure. I am only human, but I try to maintain a more accepting view of very thing that goes on around me. I understand that many people do not know anything about life after this, so I must adjust myself mentally to accommodate that reality which is the only reality for them. I pray for others to know what I know so that it will be easier for them to accept a [physical death as a new life waiting for them. My son, who is 23, has to have an operation on Monday. Today is Saturday. yesterday, he called to ask me about the surgery that ended up with me having my experience. he was only 4 years old then!! You know, he asked me..."Mommy...didn't you die?" I said "Yes." I knew my daughter who was older than him has paid attention to my "story' but I hadn't tried to make him too aware, afraid that I'd scare him. But he must have listened to the bits and pieces of it. Because now, he said to me..."I hope I die too". I said "Boy, you are crazy!!". His response taught me that my experience had been worth talking about in the past though. He said, "Ma, I don't want to 'stay' dead, I want to come back. I just want to go where you went, feel what you felt." I never knew that my family "BELIEVED ME". God bless us all.

Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?            No            I already knew that there is  place we go to. The only thing that has changed is that I feel faith is something that we come to through experiencing good things. Bad things happen, we must have faith that the bad goes away. Just like in childbirth, the pain is excruciating and almost unbearable but the end result is something that is beyond description and produces an unimaginable love. We are ourselves still in a state of being unborn and so we must learn to love living, humanity, pain and dealing with all that it encompasses just as we love our children and all of their accomplishments, failures, accolades and acknowledgements. And we must try to teach our children to do the same. It makes the journey easier when we become reborn or truly born, or actually born and enter life on that other side of life.

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No                  

Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?         Yes    

Are there any other questions we could ask to help you communicate your experience?            Somebody needs to contact me and use my experience to help influence others like myself who come from my "side of town". I have read many stories like my own, seen them on television, but never have I seen anything from someone like me, who hails from the "ghetto". It seems that all the stories I read and relate to are mainly from people who are from a whole different class. Can we change that by working on people who come from where I come from? The whole world changes when we allow people to share, no matter where they hail from.