EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION:
Went to the ER due to a sudden onset of symptoms: chills, vomiting,
fever, headache and progressed weakness over an 8 hour period. I had an
infection that turned septic, which travelled into my bloodstream, suffered a
possible heart attack, extreme low blood pressure (49 over 28) and pneumonia. I
spent 12 days in the hospital; 8 days in the ICU and 4 days on the regular ward
and two months off of work recovering .
Twice in a 24 hour
period I remember the exact same occurrence. I remember feeling very weak when
my eyes rolled back into my head, then suddenly I was standing upright, but not
on the ground, it was as if I was floating in a very silent, peaceful space.
There was an oval shape of a cloud-like image surrounded in light that became
larger and larger in size. I heard a voice saying; "Tina, it is not your time
yet, so don't worry or panic. The voice repeated this statement two or three
times and then told me to relax, calm my body and concentrate on opening my
eyes." I then remember thinking (knowing) that it was my angel speaking and
comforting me. I felt an extreme sense of peace and stillness. During the second
experience I also remember thinking that it was really unfortunate that my life
was over but if I were to go I wouldn't be alone and that I would be with my
mom. But the voice answered my thought with words of comfort and peacefully
suggested that it was not my time to go.
I
then open my eyes finding a medical team working to revive me, the second time I
was woke almost in an up side down position with the ICU physician inserting a
central line in my neck. It was at that moment when I had realized that I had
just witnessed a near death experience(s).
Was
the kind of experience difficult to express in words?
Yes The sense of peace, silent space and standing horizontal but not on the
ground.
At
the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?
Yes
At
what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness
and alertness?
When I heard the voice speaking to me, very clearly. My name was repeated as if
the voice was certain of my full attention.
How
did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience
compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?
More consciousness and alertness than normal
If
your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was
different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please
explain:
When I heard the voice speaking to me, very clearly. My name was repeated as if
the voice was certain of my full attention.
Did
your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect,
such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of
solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?
Yes The cloud-like oval was very clear with a sharpness/extremely focused
visual of the image.
Did
your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any
aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness,
etc.)?
Yes Very clear and concentrated. It felt like I could hear the
silence...complete attention.
Did
you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?
Yes
What emotions did you feel during the experience?
Peaceful with a non emotional listening state of awareness.
Did
you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?
Yes A cloud-like oval image that increased in size surrounded in white
light.
Did
you see a light?
Yes see #15
Did
you meet or see any other beings?
Yes a voice
Did
you experience a review of past events in your life?
No
Did
you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience
that could be verified later?
No
Did
you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or
dimensions?
Yes The level of stillness and silent-ness was not earthly...it was
definitely a soulful level.
Did
you have any sense of altered space or time?
Yes absolutely an altered space of stillness....present moment.
Did
you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?
Yes I knew it was my angel speaking to me...a instant knowing, not a
thinking knowledge.
Did
you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?
Yes I did not cross it because it was not my time to go.
Did
you become aware of future events?
Yes
Just that I was told that I have a lot left to accomplish on earth.
Did
you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience
you did not have prior to the experience?
No
Have you shared this experience with others?
Yes Almost immediately, to family, later friends. Everyone has an emotional
response of belief and gratitude of my sharing my experience.
Did
you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?
Yes Heard stories on TV or read about in books...but my experience
does not match anything previously learned.
How
did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it
happened:
Experience was definitely real It was definitely a life altering
experience...never to be questioned or doubted and would remain in my memory
forever.
Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or
significant to you?
everything about it. It didn't seem to last very long...I am uncertain of the
length of time the experience lasted.
How
do you currently view the reality of your experience:
Experience was definitely real see above
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your
experience?
Yes
Attempting to live my life consciously and with more meaning.
Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your
experience?
Yes
Now
I know at least of how one feels just before they pass.
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life,
medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
No
Is
there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?
It
was a true blessing to have had those experiences.
Did
the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and
comprehensively describe your experience?
Yes It is great that you are studying this experience...hopefully our
stories will begin to shed a glimpse of understanding to those who only can read
about it but also I hope it directs others to find comfort.
