Timothy T's NDE

I was living with a girl who I loved very much , We had moved recently because of a earlier attack on us by 2 guys . I was able to fight them off that time .  But 3-4 months later Her ex boyfriend tried to kill me with a crossbow but missed.

Then a couple months later I came home from work to find 2 guys in my apartment weighing drugs on my table when I asked what the hell they doing in my place my girlfriend came out of the bedroom with 1 guy and said (I let them in ) After seeing that I became very angry and through the drugs on the floor.  And they said that was it ! you F--ked up cracker they chased me out side to the parking lot where 1 came at me swinging a sword.  I had thought he cut my fingers off but when I looked I had caught the sword with my hands and kicked him in the chest somehow knocking him down. Just when that happened I heard a kind of drumming on my head . I fell to my knees to see what was causing it .

The pounding started again and that's when the pain was so bad I could not take anymore pain. Blackness and then I was looking at someone laying on the ground in the parking lot with 3 guys standing over him (1)w/sword (1)w/bat (1)gun.  And I thought hey what's going on that's me down there. I was rising above the buildings and trees . Just then A Large Hand came and held my hand and then  I saw HIM  He was bright and had beautiful features long silver hair and beard along  with bright never-ending gown . He didn't say a word but I heard its OK we are going home. Next there was a field on the right with people working in it harvesting some kind of grain. Next to the left there was shops and a street that was beautiful and bright . Something else I saw benches like bus stop benches that was weird . Then I heard the most calming and peaceful voice saying to me . Its Not My Time! Yet Somewhere along this journey there had been a kind of screaming and kicking going on within me. I was saying NO NO NO. I can't leave without saying goodbye to my family I love them please NO

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words?          Yes    Because I did not know how to say (I don't want to go away from loved ones)

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Yes    this is hard to explain .  

I was attacked by 3 men . (1)with sword (1) with bat (1) with gun

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?  I don't understand  I was the minute I left my body I guess

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?          Normal consciousness and alertness         

Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?          No     

Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
          Yes    when the hand came out of nowhere I felt at ease , calm .the voice saying its not my time yet

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?          Yes

What emotions did you feel during the experience?          pain at first .  then afraid of being left alone . then love and anger

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?        No     

Did you see a light?         No     

Did you meet or see any other beings?         Yes    the Large being was on my left and was holding my hand

No

Its okay I'm here to walk with you

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?   No     

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?         No     

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?          Yes    A street with shops on the left and a field of gold grain  with benches

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?  No     

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?     No     

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No

Did you become aware of future events?      No         

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?       Yes    that there is nothing to fear in death

I mostly come in contact with older adults

Have you shared this experience with others?        Yes    3yrs

Oh they had no idea that really happened to me

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Uncertain     my mother told me a story

no but I believe in hell now

How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:   Experience was definitely real   it was real

after 3-4 days something just felt different

Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you? that someone was holding my hand and walking with me through this

and that love is a power that knows no boundary even in death

the hair on my neck and arms just stood up wow~!

How do you currently view the reality of your experience:          Experience was definitely real         it was my experience and only mine

I am a unique person

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?          Yes    my selfish needs and thoughts are not important

that though life is hard we have someone to hold our hand

Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes    yes very much so

not afraid to die

I know where ill be going I'm not alone

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?    No         

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?          yes FORGIVENESS that's what its all about

Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes   

Are there any other questions we could ask to help you communicate your experience? its kind of weird but my experience is very different