Timi G's Probable NDE

I set off down a long tunnel, at the end of which was a dot of light.  As I went along, I thought, "Oh, good.  I'm dead."   When I reached the end of it, there was bright sunlight, and I was walking in a landscape.   I walked over to a building like a church hall, and went in.   The floor was of pine floorboards, and I noticed with interest that there must have been many parish dances, as the knots in the wood were standing proud of the rest of the floor, and were very polished. 

I spotted a piano standing by the far wall of the hall.   Strangely it was on part of the long wall of the hall, not up at what I perceived to be the front of the hall.   I placed my hands on the keys, about to play one of Mendelssohn's Songs Without Words, which I had already played when my father died, and which I thought would summon him to my side. 

At this point, someone took hold of me by the shoulders, spun me round through 180 degrees, and gave me an immense blow between the shoulder blades. 

At this moment, I was back in the bed, with a nurse having just started a blood transfusion into me.   No-one had touched me while this was going on, and I was not resuscitated by any medical means.

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words?          No     

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Yes    I was giving birth, and the baby and the placenta both arrived with one push and there followed a massive hemorrhage.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?  When I found the piano.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?          Normal consciousness and alertness         

Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?          No     

Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
          Uncertain     I don't remember there being any sounds.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?          Uncertain

What emotions did you feel during the experience?          Joy that life was over (I was not in any way depressed at the time).   Curiosity.      Anticipation of the joy I would feel when my father came for me.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?        Yes    It appeared very long, and the light at the end was just a mere dot.   I seemed to travel for quite a long time before I go to the end of it.

Did you see a light?         Yes    The light started out as a dot at the end of a very long tunnel, and eventually got bigger until I came out into the open.

Did you meet or see any other beings?         Uncertain     I didn't actually meet anyone, but I knew my father would soon come for me.

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?   No     

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?         No     

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?          Yes    As above (#3), a church hall, previously unknown to me.

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?  No     

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?     Uncertain     Only a feeling of recognition of what I thought was happening, i.e. that I had died.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No     

Did you become aware of future events?      No         

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?       No     

Have you shared this experience with others?        Yes    I told my husband fairly soon  after this (as I was extremely ill, I can't exactly remember how soon, but certainly within days of the experience), and he was accepting.   Anyone I have told has seemed to accept that I had this experience.   I don't know if it influenced anyone.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No     

How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:   Experience was definitely real   Everything was so "likely" - the friendly well-used church hall, the idea of playing that piece for my Father - that I was convinced that it had happened, and it has made me a lot less afraid of dying - I still fear the actual process, but not the outcome.

Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you? The night my father died, I was at our home, and at about midnight I was impelled to play a certain one of Mendelssohn's Songs Without Words.   I later discovered that this was at exactly the time he died.   So it did not seem strange to me that I was once again impelled to play this piece.

How do you currently view the reality of your experience:          Experience was definitely real         The same as above (#40).

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?          No     

Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience? Uncertain     As it is now 34 years since this experience, my religious area has obviously developed, but how far that is as a result of this experience I cannot say.

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?    No         

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?          No.  But I had my first strange experience when my father was dying, and I felt the presence of his (late) mother at the bedside.

Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes