Thomas M's NDE 3958

EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION:

   I was a passenger in a car in Dallas Texas when a van came across the yellow line and hit us head on. My seatbelt broke and my head went through the windshield and when the ambulances arrived I wasn't breathing. The really funny thing is that I had amnesia when I came to in the hospital and didn't know who I was and it took a couple of weeks before my memory came back to me. The last thing I remember is that it was about two weeks before the car accident and I was in a drugstore conducting market research for my summer college job with my friend. My memory of the Near Death Experience came a couple of months later as my memory of the accident never came back completely. I remember the morning of the accident and I remember the Near Death Experience but to this day 25 years later I cannot remember the actual accident. I feel this is a gift.

     I had broken my neck in the top two vertebrae and the doctor said it was a miracle that I was alive and that I could still walk. He said one tiny millimeter in either direction of the break I would not be here today. Anyway, months later my memory spontaneously returned right up to before the accident and then right after the accident when I realized I was floating above a car wreck. I had an altered type of vision because even though I was above the car I could "see" inside the car with a sort of "super vision". I saw my body and I saw the body of my friend at the wheel. I had no real emotion to what I was witnessing. There was a calm sense of detachment and I remember looking at my body as if it were a sweater or a suit I had worn and now had cast off. I remember thinking "That was cool being Thomas" like it was some fun excursion, this human life. Then I remember being transported up quickly and with light and swiftness that defied all things and I could no longer see the car accident. I couldn't see anything but it did not matter. Sight suddenly seemed like some primitive tool as I felt enveloped in some kind of "knowing" that surpassed the human senses.

     I was aware of a presence that was at once familiar and loving and kind and all powerful and so very immense that there will never be any words appropriate to describe this thing. My first thought was "It knows my name!". I was in awe that this amazing force knew me! It was exciting and exhilarating that something so immense and important took the effort to know little me. I felt like a little baby nuzzled in the warm embrace of my mother. I felt really tiny and helpless but completely relaxed and trusting. I knew that this presence was all powerful and knew everything and that everything would always be alright no matter what happened ever. I became aware that the presence was prompting me into a dialogue. I remember bits and pieces of a "conversation" without words. I remember asking questions and receiving answers. The first question I asked was very impertinent. "Why is there so much pain down there?" (meaning on earth). The answer was laughter. So much joyful laughter like a mother laughing at the amazing questions only a small child can ask. The laughter was followed with something like: "Don't you know I have the power to take away all the pain? I can rewind the universe and start all over again with one simple wish. The pain is left behind on earth. It does not travel with us but the lessons we learn from it are eternal." I immediately accepted this without a doubt. I remember there was so much more. It was like an eternal moment which seemed to last one second as well as an eternity. I was shown many things and many realms and many many spirits of people and other beings. It was magic. This is the hardest part to communicate as this part of the experience was wordless but filled with imagery that cannot be communicated. I honestly feel such things are not for this world and can never properly be explained or explored in this world. Like a child hoping for the perfect Christmas present has many images in his head but until Christmas morning he can never be quite sure what it will be. Until it is our time I feel that the answers we seek will never be entirely revealed which forces us to have faith which forces us to change.

     Suddenly I was given a choice. I could go back to earth and back to the human body that I was living in or I could stay in these realms. I wanted to stay forever and stated just that. I was shown once more the scene of the accident and I saw my friend with blood pouring out of her nose and she was struggling to breathe and the blood was making bubbles out of her nose as the air was forcing it's way through. For the very first time of this event I experienced anxiety. I felt as if I had to help her. I was concerned about what was going to happen to her. I turned to the Presence and said that I wanted to return and the Presence said I could return but I had to do something. I had to promise before it would let me return. I promised and swore on my heart with all my might I promised and promised. The next thing I knew I was back in my body and my body was saying "Oh God. Oh God. Oh God" uncontrollably. That was the last thing I remember before coming to in the hospital. To this day I cannot remember what I promised to do. I believe I was not meant to remember cognitively the promise that instead it is somewhere written on my heart or encoded in my DNA like a program that I agreed to have downloaded in my self. I believe that whatever it was a very good thing. My friend suffered intensive nerve damage and for three years we took care of each other often joking that between the two damaged selves we made up one whole person that could do anything. Against all the doctor's advice and parental concern we both returned to college in the Fall and helped each other through some very difficult times.