So called
martial 'spiritual questing' martial artist and craze seeking friend manipulated
pressure to different places on face and neck. I had to breathe deeply and hold
again and again. Strangulation took place. I remember falling to the floor, I
think I peed slightly. Thankfully hadn't eaten! No sexual activity took place.
I left my
body with a strange fizzing electrical sensation into light and then into a star
filled black void that was full of awareness and life's precious lessons. I can
remember thinking this sensation is not real and that my life was being being
pulled away but I wasn't scared just amazed. I then just went with it. I knew
I wouldn't be returning but that didn't scare me. I calmly looked back at my
family and said goodbye. I think I remember hearing from deceased and wisdom
from somewhere higher. A lot of learning went on during this time but
unfortunately now the lessons have been forgotten.
I felt at
the time that everything was so clear and so important to remember. I then
heard human voices and felt disappointed. "My God she's back," "you went too
far man!" and after I was told that it was so incredible..... I was dead for a
long while. It was clear that these people had all undergone the experience but
never had been 'out' for the length of time. It was obvious they had trouble in
bringing me back. There was relief as well as some kind of praise for me.
Whether it was my life's energy being sucked out of me. But if felt like there
was more to it after the tingling energy had gone and I was out in space with
clarity.
Was the
kind of experience difficult to express in words?
Yes The sensation, the void, the slipping away and beyond. Nothing about it
felt like anything I had felt before. The energy took on a different vibration
and. Like being sucked through a vacuum into a fuzzy but not scared place.
There was clarity, messages. Most of which evaporated when bought back. The
crazy group I had encountered said I had been 'out' for the longest they had
known anybody to be and were relieved I suppose that they didn't have to bury my
body. It took ages to feel like my feet were placed on the earth again.
At the
time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?
Yes as above
At what
time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and
alertness?
After going through a vacuum procedure out into space. A part of it I think I
can remember being carried by an aware horse and holding the mane. Going at
great speeds.
How did
your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare
to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?
More consciousness and alertness than normal
If your
highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different
from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain:
everything was pure clarity and deeper messages. I was able to communicate and
listen at a higher level. You know lots of things at the same time.
Did your
vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such
as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of
solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?
Yes Colors, depths, transparencies, field of vision, like going through the
cosmos.
Did your
hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect,
such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
Yes clarity of sound and understanding. Hearing from beyond and
above. My own voice having a knowing.
Did you
experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?
Yes
What
emotions did you feel during the experience?
new emotions that dont relate quite.
Did you
pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?
Yes Pulled
up through a tunnel of bright fuzziness into an expanse of darkness stars and
awareness
Did you
see a light?
Yes Many different
Did you
meet or see any other beings?
Yes I know that I met someone wise and we talked clearly for a long while but
know I have forgotten.
Did you
experience a review of past events in your life?
Uncertain uncertain but I remember looking back at my family and saying
I'll be alright and knowing they would.
Did you
observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that
could be verified later?
Yes Only in the she's alive part as I came back down.
Did you
see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or
dimensions?
Yes I think mostly was absolutely amazing, have a feint recollection of
viewing a place not quite so. But not built like a heaven or hell.
Did you
have any sense of altered space or time?
Yes Everything just so different no way to clearly describe in English
Did you
have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?
Yes My knowledge has been forgotten. I can remember being told not to forget
something very crucial to 'life', it was made again by this person, yep I
forgot it.
Did you
reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?
Yes the boundary I suppose could be at the end of the upward spiraling lit
tunnel into the expanse
Did you
become aware of future events?
No
Did you
have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you
did not have prior to the experience?
Yes Have always felt like I came back from a previous time to get somebody.
Felt this like a knowing since I was a baby.
Have
you shared this experience with others?
Uncertain not in this detail. Nobody would believe it anyway.
Did you
have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?
Uncertain No but I had found myself attached like a lizard to the ceiling
and looking down at myself sleeping. I had the feeling of being able to go out
but thought awareness dropped me to my body which was waking.
How did
you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it
happened:
Experience was definitely real Like I had been involved in the most strange
experience that couldn't possibly be relayed to anyone else due to enormity of
difference in space time clarity emotion.
Were
there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or
significant to you?
How do
you currently view the reality of your experience:
Experience was definitely real At the time it felt more 'real' at the
time and that it is this life that is the fake.
Have your
relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?
Yes
I'm not certain
how.
Have
your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your
experience?
Yes
as regards to
religion I am not sure whom or what it was I was seeing and talking with.
Following the
experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or
substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
No
Is
there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?
Only
that this account cannot possibly have the depth and meaning that it had at the
time. I haven't the use of language enough to describe.
Did the
questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and
comprehensively describe your experience?
No As
above we would need to know different words in order to clarify the experience.
