From March
16, 2006 my seizure activity had increased. I was having unknown amount of
seizures. My wife was working and was not there to keep track of them. As a
result I got more and more depressed. Then on May 4, 2006 I apparently had
multiple seizures and during my buzz zone as I call it (that is where I am not
fully awake or not having a full seizure) I took 40 100mg Elevil. My wife
called the ambulance and I went to the hospital.
While in
the E.R. I remember falling asleep. When I was "asleep" I remember floating
above my body I could see the Dr.'s and nurses in my room. I continued to float
away, the farther I went the calmer things felt around me. I remember hearing
soft gentle sounds around me but couldn't make out any particular sound or
song. Also the further I went I could here voices of people calling to me to
continue coming. I felt total love and acceptance from the voices. I started
seeing shapes of people but couldn't make out any faces or sexes all were the
same. They all showed love, understanding, and compassion for, like I have
never felt. Then I started hearing another voice telling me to "drink this." I
didn't want to at first. but as I continued to listen I drank the drink. It
tasted horrible and I didn't want to drink anymore but the voice kept saying to
keep drinking and to drink it all and I would be alright. The next thing I
remember was waking up.
I was so
angry that I wasn't able to stay with those other people that I have sought
anyway possible to get back there. I can't commit suicide because I promised my
wife I wouldn't do that again but I still look and hope that I can get back
there as soon as I possibly can.
Was the
kind of experience difficult to express in words?
No
At the
time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?
No
At what
time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and
alertness?
The part where I could see people.
How did
your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare
to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?
More consciousness and alertness than normal
If your
highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different
from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain:
I felt healthy and didn't have any disabilities.
Did your
vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such
as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of
solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?
Yes I didn't have to wear glasses and every color was very exact.
Did your
hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect,
such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
Yes I wasn't deaf in my left ear and all sound even though it
wasn't a clear song it was clean and clear.
Did you
experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?
Yes
What
emotions did you feel during the experience?
Pure love, understanding, and comfort.
Did you
pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?
No
Did you
see a light?
Yes
Did you
meet or see any other beings?
Yes Just shapes of people no features or even sexes.
Did you
experience a review of past events in your life?
No None
Did you
observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that
could be verified later?
No
Did you
see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or
dimensions?
No
Did you
have any sense of altered space or time?
Yes Time seemed to stop.
Did you
have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?
No
Did you
reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?
No
Did you
become aware of future events?
No
Did you
have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you
did not have prior to the experience?
No
Have
you shared this experience with others?
No
Did you
have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?
No
How did
you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it
happened:
Experience was definitely real I believe in a place where we will all go to be
together.
Were
there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or
significant to you?
The part where
the people were asking me to come. The part where I felt totally loved by all
around me.
How do
you currently view the reality of your experience:
Experience was definitely real
Have your
relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?
Yes
I can't think
of anything else.
Have
your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your
experience?
No
Following the
experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or
substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
No
Did the
questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and
comprehensively describe your experience?
Yes I was
able to express myself and felt all things were covered.
