Terry A's NDE

This was my 4th child , and he like the rest were born at home. My husband was a doctor, and it always seemed to me that we were over prepared, with medical equipment etc. except this time, the room looked sparse to me. Later I found out that he feared something would go wrong and some weird denial took over, and he talked himself out of trouble. Also as a note, he had started to have feelings for a female patient of his, which I was also I think in denial about.  After giving birth to my sweet Boy, I began to hemorrhage.  We also had a midwife helping, who turned to my husband and asked for the shot to stop the bleeding.  His face turned white, and the look passed between them was unforgettable panic. I guess at that point I passed out.

I remember walking along a long corridor of light with a man that I couldn't see, and could only hear. I could see ahead of us a group of people standing there, just there shapes and sizes, no features. I also felt I knew these people. I must have asked my male friend, over and over again, why am I so happy?  I just left my new baby, and my other 3 children, and my family, because it was Thanksgiving night and all of our family were there watching the birth and eating turkey.  I felt whole and complete Love and Peace. I was so curious why I would feel so happy, and not miss anything or anyone. Then my friend spoke to me and said "you have known them all before and you will know them all again, there is no loss." He then told me that I had a choice, I could go with him or I could go back. Then pictures began to flash within me I guess, and I believe I saw the future, because I knew that I would be raising the children by myself and they would need me with them.  Then I felt, oh yes I must go back. That seems to be when I came back into consciousness. Barely alive, but alive!

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes     its hard to express the tremendous feelings of Love and wholeness

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Yes     I hemorrhaged after giving birth to a 10 lb baby boy

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    When I was talking with my guide, or friend.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?    More consciousness and alertness than normal

If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain:            When I was talking with my guide, or friend.

Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?  Uncertain      Every sense was alive

Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
            Uncertain      I just remember every word like it was yesterday

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Yes

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            LOVE< and WHOLENESS

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?          Yes     Yes like a tunnel

Did you see a light?           Yes     Everything seemed to be a soft glowing white light

Did you meet or see any other beings?           Yes     I met a man whom I could not see, yet his voice was calm and loving, also I could see people up ahead, but could not see there details.

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?    No       I saw future events, I knew I would be raising my children by myself basically, and I was very important to them. Also I do not fear death, My own or others

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          Yes     Yes; two years later, I was divorced, and I am the key figure in their lives.  I knew that's why I must come back.

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?            Uncertain      Every moment was beautiful

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   No      

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?     Yes     Yes, but I don't know why I know this, I just do.. Like, I was changed forever, strangely fearless, and I am certain that this life is not what's really who I am.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes     My guide and myself only walked so far down the tunnel, and we stopped .

Did you become aware of future events?       Yes
            Very accurate

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?     Yes     Most of my life I have had other worldly experiences, I think for what ever reason, I am letting them come in stronger and more freely just recently

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes     When I was stronger physically I told my husband first, He had a hard time wjith it because he felt he nearly caused my death

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?    Yes     I was brought up with a mother who was very metaphysical, I always gravitated towards the unusual.

How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:            Experience was definitely real    I just felt changed forever, like a secret life.

Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you?    I still think about how wonderfully whole and happy I felt, even though I was leaving people I loved

How do you currently view the reality of your experience:            Experience was definitely real    the experience is definitely altering the way I view life, it seems more important and less important at the same time, the gift that keeps on giving

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?           Yes     very hard to put into words, definitely they are richer, yet I feel less clingy, or possessive

Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?            No           

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         Yes     Dreaming has become my favorite pastime, or in deep meditation, I feel closest to that experience

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?        I think this altered my sons life too, being so connected at birth, like he tapped into the altered space as well, also I think he's always been afraid I would leave him

Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?         Yes     It was fun for me to review it all again, thanks