Tammy F NDE

EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION:

I remember my ex partners hands round my neck as I was in a standing position and slowly started to slide down the wall as I lost consciousness. then he was gone and I was stood in my own head although I couldn't actually see my feet in my head I was aware that I was out of my body looking down at my own body but standing not laying prone. my body lay crumpled on the floor. I was wearing all white clothes in my new state. I looked left to the front door trying to get my bearings, not understanding what I was seeing, then looked right to the back door that was open from where my ex partner had run thinking I was dead. I had an unbelievable feeling of warmth and love. I could see the faces of my children and dead parents - everybody that was important to me kind of scrolled in front of me. I felt so calm and I didn't want feeling to end. I was worried about leaving my children behind and that they had no one to care for them - I think I said "my kids". this timeframe was guessing about 1-2 minutes from seeing myself to the end when I suddenly awoke laying on floor where I had collapsed thru lack of oxygen.

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes     hard to get across the intense love warmth "HI" feeling - used to extremely emotional when discussing it

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Yes     - I was being strangled by ex partner - he left me for dead

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    beginning to end

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?    More consciousness and alertness than normal

If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain:            beginning to end

Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?  No      

Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?            No      

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Yes

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            extreme love and kindness - calmness - joy - warmth - worried about my kids - peace

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?          No      

Did you see a light?           No      

Did you meet or see any other beings?           Yes     saw fleeting images of my kids and all loved ones dead and alive - seemed to flash in front of me like fast forward

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?    Yes     images of all people important to me kinds fast forwarded in front of me - all of them smiling

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No      

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?           No           

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Yes     did not feel like I was in same house I was looking at

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?     Yes     I am now convinced that the energy in our bodies transcends this life after death. I used to think you died and just rotted, maybe have 70 years on this planet. now I strongly believe/know there is something else.  I believe our soul is energy that is returned to space/time once it leave the human body

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No      

Did you become aware of future events?       No           

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?     Yes     I seem to be able to understand people better now - insight into what makes them tick. I can see hurt in people.

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes     took me about 6 months before I could talk about it - first few times I shared it I could hardly breath whilst describing the emotions - extremely emotional. they reacted to it positively. no one has ridiculed me about my experience.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?    No      

How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:            Experience was definitely real    I still feel exactly the same about the experience as I did the day it happened - it was real. my views have never waivered nor will they.

Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you?    the most powerful thing that comes across from the experience is knowing that there is something else - death is not the end - that and the powerful feeling of love/peace/calm

How do you currently view the reality of your experience:            Experience was definitely real    the feelings and emotions were so strong - stronger than anything else I have ever encountered. no dream or nightmare or drug induced state has ever felt so real. I have experimented with drugs including ketamine and speed and nothing compares to this. I have had a experience/other life delusion/dream on ketamine whilst being high and it cannot be compared (this happened after NDE) never taken ketamine prior to NDE

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?           Uncertain            as I've changed but not sure if its life experiences that's changes me maturity/knowledge or my NDE

Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?            Yes     Complete reversal of my beliefs - I did not/do not believe in Jesus but now believe that there is an orchestrator of some sort. an energy

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         Yes     - used ketamine briefly post NDE. experienced past life that seemed to go on for days when actually it only lasted minutes when I passed out           

Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?         Yes     this is a full account of events leading up to my NDE and what occurred during it