EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION:
In March 1984, I was six months pregnant, and awoke with severe pain in my leg.
In preparation of going to the ER, I began to feel faint, and felt like I was
going to pass out. I recovered within a few minutes, and my husband quickly
drove to the ER. While in the ER, I was lying down, and began to feel faint
again. The ER staff quickly wheeled me into an ER room where they began to
frantically "work" on me. During this time, I could hear them say, "We're
losing her and the baby's heart rate is dropping." A nurse also apologized to
me as she told me that I was going to feel tremendous pain while sticking a
needle in my wrist to take blood and measure the oxygen level. Despite all the
frantic comments, and people rushing about, I felt nothing, but pure peace and
no pain, and felt like I was floating. I remember thinking, "I just want to go
to sleep." A voice quickly said, "No, it's not your time." The ER staff
administered an IV of heparin since they determined that it was a blood clot.
Once this was administered, I awoke and felt excruciating pain. Unbeknownst to
me, a doctor took my husband aside, and told him that my daughter (yes, she was
born a month later at 3 lbs. 11 oz.) and I were not expected to live. A few
days later, I had an x-ray that revealed two pulmonary emboli (blood clots on
the lung), which they believe happened during my fainting episodes.
It was challenging to be in the so-called real world as I wanted to go back to
the peace that I felt. I had a long road ahead of healing ahead of me with the
pregnancy and giving myself shots of heparin. And there were many times, I
asked to return to that state of being.
Was
the kind of experience difficult to express in words?
Yes I couldn't describe the peace that I felt.
At
the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?
Yes I was six months pregnant, and had pulmonary emboli (blood clots on the
lung).
At
what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness
and alertness?
When I was being wheeled into ER, and sensing so much panic. Yet, I was in a
high level of consciousness.
How
did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience
compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?
More consciousness and alertness than normal
If
your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was
different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please
explain:
When I was being wheeled into ER, and sensing so much panic. Yet, I was in a
high level of consciousness.
Did
your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect,
such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of
solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?
No
Did
your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any
aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness,
etc.)?
Yes If I can describe, and it's hard to do so, I could only hear
peace. Despite all the ER staff running about, and hearing the sounds of their
voices, I only heard peace. I know this is very hard to understand.
Did
you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?
Yes
What emotions did you feel during the experience?
Such euphoria of peace beyond anything that can be imagined. I felt
such profound love.
Did
you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?
No
Did
you see a light?
Uncertain It was more like a presence of light all around.
Did
you meet or see any other beings?
No
Did
you experience a review of past events in your life?
No
Did
you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience
that could be verified later?
No
Did
you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or
dimensions?
Yes The distinctive level of consciousness where only peace and love
exists...there is no other.
Did
you have any sense of altered space or time?
Yes time didn't exist or it stood still.
Did
you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?
Yes Since I've been able to be with this experience, and glean the
wisdom, the special knowledge I received was to help others walk in the path of
peace and love.
Did
you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?
No
Did
you become aware of future events?
No
Did
you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience
you did not have prior to the experience?
Yes I'm aware of physic, clairvoyance, and special communication gifts.
Have you shared this experience with others?
Yes It was several years before I really shared it. People have shared that
since I have had an NDE that I'm gifted in some way, and know what it's like on
the other side so as to benefit others.
Did
you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?
Uncertain I think I probably knew others had one, but didn't really
focus on it either way.
How
did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it
happened:
Experience was definitely real It was weeks because I was focusing on my
pregnancy and subsequent birth of my daughter. After I had time to be with the
experience, then I understood how real it was.
Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or
significant to you?
I
can't help but return to that perfect place of peace, and in the last year, I
keep hearing that message over and over again. With this said, I'm actually
creating an environment which embodies this, and it's been through some
challenging times, that this message is clear.
How
do you currently view the reality of your experience:
Experience was definitely real As I'm on my awakening journey...many years of
trying to find answers, I now understand the presence of pure peace and that
love and peace is all that exists.
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your
experience?
Yes
I'm much more compassionate and kind as this energy is with me all the time.
Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your
experience?
Yes
I'm
much more aware of recognizing all beliefs in the power of Oneness.
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life,
medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
Yes In the past year with the "so-called" economic events, I'm returning to
this perfect place of peace as if nothing else matters.
Is
there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?
The
experience came to me as a gift. Although for many years, because it was
pulmonary emboli, the doctors kept saying I was at risk for many health related
circumstances. I now know differently, and I'm not afraid. As I keep listening
to my internal dialogue of communication with the Source of this gift, I'm on
the road to explore all the benefits that come about through my listening.
Did
the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and
comprehensively describe your experience?
Yes the questions were great as I could be with my experience, and see it
from all wavelengths. Thank you.
Are
there any other questions we could ask to help you communicate your experience?
No. Thank you so much for this awesome experience!
