Sylvia D NDE

EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION:          

As I stated above, this was an extreme threat to my life, I was not expected to live. As soon as the aneurysm ruptured, I knew something was terribly wrong. The pain was so severe, and my condition worsened very rapidly. I was at first aware of the seriousness of my condition until I lost consciousness. Then, I was in this very intense, bright light. I am uncertain of the timeline and order of events, but at some point, I was with my deceased grandmother. She was in a field picking green beans, and I was with her. The light almost felt like a very hot summer day, but I felt drawn into this light, a part of the light. There was no pain, no fear, only a feeling of warmth, peace, love, and serenity. It was so wonderful that I wanted to remain in that light. Then, I was aware of others with me, but only recognized my recently deceased mother. She was in a gown of white, I could see her and I reached to touch her but she remained out of my reach. I was told I could not stay, that it was not my time; I don't know who said it, it was as if by telepathy. Then, I was aware of waking and being angry that I could not stay in that light. I could hear people talking, I could hear my sister calling my name. I immediately told her that I was going back into the light and I loved her and wanted her to take care of my two children. And, my next memory is of severe pain, horrible pain.

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes     Somewhat difficult, unable to fully describe the extreme feeling of peace and serenity, a feeling of love that surpasses understanding. The light so luminous that I felt as if I was not only in it but also a part of it. It was something I had never felt before.

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Yes     I had suffered a ruptured aneurysm in my brain, with a hemorrhage and swelling to my brain. I was given a fifty percent chance of survival, and was on life support for several days.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    I'm not really sure, I wasn't aware of time. In my best memory, I arrived at the hospital, I was writhing and screaming with pain. Then came the event, then the pain.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?    More consciousness and alertness than normal

If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain:            I'm not really sure, I wasn't aware of time. In my best memory, I arrived at the hospital, I was writhing and screaming with pain. Then came the event, then the pain.

Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?  Yes     Everything seemed to be sharper as in acuteity. I am very nearsighted and I was able to see without aid of glasses or lenses.

Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
            Uncertain      I don't really recall. When I was told I could not stay, it was spoken into my mind.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     No

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            A feeling of warmth, love, happiness, and serenity, without pain.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?          No      

Did you see a light?           Yes     An extremely intense bright light, much brighter than the sun.

Did you meet or see any other beings?           Yes     At some point, I saw my deceased grandfather in my room, standing in the corner. I also saw my deceased grandmother in a field of green beans. I saw my deceased mother floating just in front of me out of my reach.

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?    No       I did not have my life flash before my eyes. I just recall being informed that I could not stay and that it was not my time yet. I was angry and upset. The experience helped me to not fear death anymore.

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No      

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?            Yes     I was in a beautiful field of green.

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   No      

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?     Yes            Just felt a sense of a better understanding of life. Definitely felt a sense of a higher power.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes     Not a distinct physical boundary, but I was trying to reach out to my mother, but I could not reach her.

Did you become aware of future events?       No           

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?     Yes     I have dreams now, usually about someone who passes away.

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes     I told my sister about it as soon as I was conscious and able to speak. Her reaction was to tell me not to leave her. We now have a closer relationship with each other and with God.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?    Yes     I have only heard about NDE mostly on television, not any personal accounts.

How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:            Experience was definitely real    I knew it was real because I had never felt anything like that before, nor since. My whole body seemed to tingle, and I still recall the sense of peace and of not being alone.

Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you?            The feeling of calmness, peace and no pain was wonderful. Also, seeing my mother was very comforting, I missed her and wanted so much to be with her. When she died, she had lost a great deal of weight. She appeared vibrant, healthy and happy.

How do you currently view the reality of your experience:            Experience was definitely real    It is hard to explain why I believe, I just do. Things occurred sort of in a sequence, as if planned somehow.

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?           Yes     I am more open to people than before, I love so much more, and easier. I realize what a gift life is, but an even greater gift awaits when this life ceases. I had not been baptized, but I am now.

Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?            Yes     I believe God kept me here so that I and my children could be baptized, I try to show love to others as much as possible.

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No      

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?        Just that I believe in God, the Father, Jesus the Son, and His Helper, the Holy Spirit. I believe God allowed me to see and return to share my experience with others.

Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?         Yes     I tell everyone who will listen about my experience. They can then make an informed decision whether to believe or not. I thank you for this vehicle so that I can share my story to a larger amount. I ideally wish my entire life story to be publicized and would appreciate any suggestions you could make to help me achieve that mission.