Suzanne RP NDE

EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION:

I was in 11th grade and attended the local high school.  I had an after school part time job at a doctor's office as a clerk.  On this particular day I had a dental appointment.  I went to work for an hour or two and then went upstairs in the same medical building to the dentist.  I had a cavity filled and was given Novacaine for pain, so one side of my jaw was numb.  After the dentist I worked for a another hour or so and then I left to go meet a friend.  We had decided to meet at about 5:30 pm at top of Sav-On which was rooftop parking.  Sav-on had an interior stairwell although inside had full length windows facing the street. 

I parked on the top lot and my friend who was always late didn't disappoint, so I went inside Sav-on to get this particular flavor of yogurt that I hadn't had anywhere else - Apple Pie a La Mode.  Sav-on was sold out of it.  So, I went back to my car and on the way up the stairwell a man was coming down and we nodded to each other.  Evidently this same man followed me up the stairs and to my car.  I did not realize this until I was seated in the car with my keys in my lap and I pushed the car door open and out in order to slam it shut and that  is when the assailant was shockingly there and got in between the car and the door, thus blocking the ability to close the car door.  He knelt down and put one hand on my mouth and the other hand into a fist punching me on the numb side, so I couldn't feel anything.  He told me to shut up and give him the keys.  I never looked directly at him even though he was inches from me, then he strangled me and the last thing I remember was the graffitti on the wall in front and trying to peel his hands off and then I passed out. 

It was still daylight out and I don't remember doing this, but I did get up from the parking lot and then fell down on my elbow.  Somehow, I felt my way down the stairs and there was a person on the public phone and they helped me to the bathroom.  They asked me who did this etc.  They asked me where I had come from and I replied the dentist.  They asked for my home phone number and I gave my work number.  The secretary came over and took me to the office and the doctor, my boss, stitched the back of my head and had the various specialists in the building check my eyes and teeth.  My parents were called and they took me to the hospital where I had CT Scans and in between I was questioned by the police.  I believe the tunnel of light occurred when I was removed from the car and dropped on the pavement hitting the back of my head.

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Uncertain      Do you mean to relay the experience to someone else or the actual experience itself as it was happening?  There was a light tunnel of light and I was in the light.  I did not have to go to the light.  I didn't hear anything around me.

I saw at the end of the tunnel of light my maternal grandmother who had passed away in 1976 and I was in my mind reaching up to here to pull me up and she just shook her head.  She didn't say anything.  Then, the tunnel at her end closed and was black.  Two to three weeks before this - this same deceased relative came to me in a dream.  A very different type of dream.  Very well lighted.  I was dreaming, but it was a if my eyes were open and my grandmother entered my room and she looked so real.  She was talking very fast or at least, her lips were moving very fast, but I was so shocked at how real she looked that either I did not hear what she was saying or I didn't not listen to what she was saying.  It appeared as if she was repeating the same thing over and over and I kept repeating in my mind, no, no, no. . . she appeared urgent in her demeanor and in some way frustrated, so she came closer and closer, so that I could understand what she was saying.  She was trying to warn of something.  This is what I told my family at the time, prior to being assaulted.  Anyway, she finally came so close that she touched me and she was ice cold and I woke up abruptly.  I never did hear what she was trying to tell me.

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Yes     The pre- dream no, but at the time I saw the light with my grandmother at the other end, yes, I was being or was already assaulted and strangled and thrown out of a car onto the pavement.  Incidentally, I don't think the car was moving at the time.  I had blood coming from my mouth, nose, both ears, eyes, and the the back of my head.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    I don't understand the question.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?    More consciousness and alertness than normal

            I don't understand the question.

Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?  Yes     Brightness.

Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
            Uncertain      I don't recall.  I vaguely remember that I may have begun to mix senses for example I could hear colors and smells...like her perfume.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Uncertain

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            Frustrated that when I was reaching up to her my grandmother was not responding in a way that I expected.  She was not grabbing my hand.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?          No      

Did you see a light?           Yes     Yes, a tunnel of light, but not blinding light.  It was not a spot light, but I was in it and it directed my vision upward directly to the other end o the tunnel and it was my grandmother's head.

Did you meet or see any other beings?           No      

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?    No      

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          Yes     A year so later I had another dream that was like the first one.  Very well lit and as if I had my eyes open.  I was living in La Jolla, California and sharing a room with a roommate in a two bedroom apt. with 4 people total.  I was attending college.  I did not see my grandmother in this dream.  Instead I saw a friend of a friend and he was in a lot of pain, so much pain.  It was so real that I told all of my roommates and it bothered me for days afterward.

So, at the request of my roommates I tracked down this person.  I first called information to get the number of my friend and the I called him and he gave the his friend's phone number.  I called the person and when he answered I had to remind him that I was Suzanne friend of so and so etc and then I asked him if he was ok.  He said yes, that now he was.  He relayed that he had driven his mom's new car on the curvy topanga road and lost control and crashed into the mountain and broke both thigh bones.

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?           No            On a different dream a different day.

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Uncertain      Don't understand.

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?     No      

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Uncertain      Blackness void.

Did you become aware of future events?       Yes, but at a later date I dreamt about the death of my dad a year before it happened.

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?     Yes     The account of a friend of a friend breaking his legs and dreaming of my dad dying a year before he did and a dream that my friend was moving even though I had no contact with her for 5 to 10 years and I tracked her down and it was her last night she was packing (she was the friend that was late the day I was assaulted).

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes     I had the dream prior to the event and so my family brought the topic up. 

I had had a concussion and was not all there for some time after the event.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?    Uncertain            I kept having dreams of being in a white room with giants and giant needles.

This was a recurring dream and when I was old enough I was told that I had ingested a fatal amount of arsenic at 18 months and the doctors said there was nothing more they could or knew how to do, so every so many hours I was given a shot and my mom said she looked in from the hospital door with a little window and said it was the biggest needle she ever saw.  I don't know what they were giving, but I wasn't expected to survive save for a miracle.  I ingested a whole jar of arsenic that is many times more toxic than a baby could handle.

How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:            Experience was definitely real    I was strangled and heading up to 'heaven' and my grandmother stopped it and sent me back by closing her end of the tunnel.

Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you?    I was too young.

How do you currently view the reality of your experience:            Experience was definitely real    I survived what was meant to be a deadly assault.

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?           Yes     At the time yes, I blamed by friend for being late and quit being friends with her...

Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?            Uncertain      I am aware of being a good person.

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         Uncertain     

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?        No

Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?         Yes