Suzanne F's NDE

Experience description: 

THIS IS MY NEAR DEATH EXPERIENCE. IT WAS MANY YEARS AGO. I WAS IN THE HOSPITAL IN CHICAGO. I WAS DYING OF BLOOD CLOTS  IN MY LUNGS FROM  SMOKING, AND TAKING BIRTH CONTROL PILLS. WE DID NOT HAVE THE INFORMATION THAT WE HAVE NOW. I WAS IN GREAT PAIN AND THE DOCTOR ON CALL AT THE HOSPITALS EMERGENCY DEPARTMENT THOUGHT I HAD PLEURISY. I WAS SENT HOME. HOURS WENT BY AND I COULD NOT BREATH.

I HAD A FRIEND DRIVE ME BACK TO THE HOSPITAL. I TOLD THE ATTENDANT AT THE DESK TO ADMIT ME, BUT SHE WOULD NOT. I THEN SAT IN A CHAIR IN THE EMERGENCY ROOM AND PUT MY HEAD ON THE SHOULDER OF A STRANGER SITTING NEXT TO ME. I WANTED TO DIE DUE TO THE PAIN. WHEN I WOKE UP I WAS IN A BED IN THE HOSPITAL.

BEFORE I DID AWAKE, ALL I CAN REMEMBER IS I WAS IN A WIDE TUNNEL. THE LIGHT WAS VERY BRIGHT. I WAS CALLING OUT FOR MY MOTHER. I COULD ONLY WHISPER FOR HER. THEN A VOICE  VERY SOOTHING AND COMFORTING! VOICE, SAID, DON'T TALK, SAVE YOUR ENERGY. I WAS AWAKE AND SCARED. I THEN CALLED FOR MY MOTHER AGAIN. I REMEMBER IT WAS HARD FOR ME TO TALK.

THE VOICE GOT SOMEWHAT LOUDER, AND SAID THE SAME THING TO ME, DON'T TALK, SAVE YOUR ENERGY. I NOTICED AT THE END OF THE TUNNEL, A TINY FIGURE, AGAIN I TRIED TO CALL FOR MY MOTHER, I HEARD THE VOICE AGAIN, IT WENT ON FOR A LONG TIME. AS I SPOKE THE FIGURE BECAME BIGGER AND BIGGER.

WHEN I AWOKE, MY MOTHER WAS STANDING AT THE FOOT OF MY BED. I STILL WONDER TO THIS DAY IF IT WAS HER VOICE, BUT THE VOICE WAS A MAN'S. THERE WAS NO DOCTOR IN THE ROOM AT THE TIME I WOKE. I KEPT IT TO MYSELF FOR YEARS, BECAUSE I DIDN'T' WANT ANYONE TO THINK ME CRAZY. CAN YOU HELP ME WITH THIS.

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience:  Uncertain

      Explanation:  THE DOCTORS TOLD ME IT WAS A COMBINATION OF BIRTH CONTROL AND SMOKING, I WAS PROBABLY THE REASON FOR THE WARNINGS NOW!

Was the experience difficult to express in words?  No

At the time of the experience, was there an associated life threatening event?  Yes

      Describe:  i was in the hospital because i could not breath

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?  it seemed i was fully aware

Was the experience dream like in any way?  very much so, the tunnel was curved at the top and filled with white light

Did you experience a separation of consciousness from your body?  No

What emotions did you feel during the experience?  i was searching for something, i was trying to get to the end of the tunnel. i saw a tiny figure at the end i kept hearing a voice. i thought it was god, telling me to stop talking save my energy.

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?  already submitted

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?  Uncertain

      Describe:  i was in the tunnel

Did you see a light?  Yes

      Describe:  the tunnel was all light

Did you meet or see any other beings?  Yes

      Describe:  in the beginning, no but after a while i saw a very small figure, i could not describe if was a man or a woman.

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?  No

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?  No

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?  No

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?  Uncertain

      Describe:  i thought i was dead and going to heaven

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?  No

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?  No

Did you become aware of future events?  Yes

      Describe:  if i didn't talk i could save my energy that the voice told me to do.

Were you involved in or aware of a decision to return to the body?  No

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?  Yes

      Describe:  i have e s p and very vivid dreams that are very real.

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?  Yes

      Describe:  I REALLY FEEL DIFFERENT.  I WANT TO BE ALONE MORE, AND I HAVE  DREAMS THAT I AM IN THAT ARE SO REAL AND VIVID. I THINK HOW CAN I DREAM ABOUT THESE PEOPLE AND EVENTS.

Has the experience affected your relationships?  Daily life?  Religious practices etc.?  Career choices?  I HAVE BECOME AWARE OF HOW DELICATE LIFE IS AND I APPRECIATE EVERY DAY THAT GOD GIVES ME.  I DON'T LET THE SMALL THINGS BOTHER ME AS MUCH. I AM CLOSER TO GOD NOW.

Have you shared this experience with others?  Yes

      Describe:  ONLY A FEW PEOPLE.

What emotions did you experience following your experience?  I WAS GLAD I WAS ALIVE, I LOVED MUCH HARDER AND WAS THANKFUL FOR THE BEAUTY OF THIS EARTH.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?  THE BEST PART WAS THAT I HAD THE EXPERIENCE, THE WORST PART WAS I DIDN'T KNOW WHAT OR WHO THE VOICE WAS FOR SURE BUT I HAVE MY OWN OPINIONS.

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?  NO

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?  Yes

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?  No

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?  Yes

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