Stephanie S's NDE

Experience description: 

      I was simply having my wisdom teeth out - a simple operation taking ten minutes.  However, the night before I had a premonition that something terrible was going to happen to me.  I called my sister and some friends to tell them but no one would believe me.  I still went to the hospital with a slight fear and even told the anesthesiologist that he had to make sure that I pulled through.  He just laughed and then I was put into the operating chair and was given anesthetic.  All I can recall was I was woken up with them pulling the tube out of my throat and giving me heart massage.  I did know somehow that they hadn't completed the operation and that they had only managed to get one tooth out!  I told the surgeon this and she confirmed that they had only been about three minutes into the operation before I had a massive heart attack.

Also, my reaction was not a normal anaphylactic response.  I didn't show any signs that I was going to have an attack ie. asthma/difficulty breathing, blue mouth, body twitching I just simply crashed.

Not only that when they were trying to revive me they injected me with enough drugs to kill a six foot man and I was out in total for about 10 minutes - to this day they cannot believe that I had no organ or brain failure and should quite rightly be a vegetable.

Obviously they knew then that I had been correct about my premonition but know one would talk to me.

My twin sister came to visit me and I was in shock for two days.  All I knew was that I know had the knowledge that we don't die and that there is a wonderful peace and knowing when we do.  I was distraught and it took me nearly two years to want to live as all I wanted to do was die and couldn't understand why they had sent me back.

When I left the hospital it was amazing I was like a newborn child I could see and feel colors in everything (and even see molecular structures of plants and things).  Everything seemed to be vibrating on a different frequency.

Now several years later I know that I can visit different dimensions and time zones (often in lucid dreams) or actual physical experiences when I am doing normal things.

Immediately after my release from hospital I became more psychic for a limited period and could tell you the name, date, time and place when I would run into people - even those that I hadn't seen for several years and had no contact with!  I thought I was going crazy and had to give a friend all details and she would come with me to the stated places where sure enough everything I predicted came true.

These have now subsided.  I sought some help via a medium to try and understand what happened and why I returned.  Apparently I met with my brother (who I didn't even know I had) but my mother has since confirmed that she lost a baby before my sister and I were born and it was a boy.  He is my guide and a governing board of people told me I had to return as I am a spiritual leader and need to continue my life path.  This is now what I am trying to do and find different avenues for my healing powers.

I know I sound like a bit of weirdo but trust me I am a Director of a Public Relations Company and considered pretty, bright etc.  None of my friends or family will speak to me about my experience and call me the loony or it could only have ever happened to you.  For some reason today I was searching the net and found your site - obviously meant to be!

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience:  Yes

      Explanation:  General Anesthetic

Was the experience difficult to express in words?  Yes

      What was it about the experience that makes it hard to communicate?  I can't really confirm a visual response only a `feeling' of what occurred.

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?  I was under anesthetic but was aware in my soul if you can understand that on some level?

Was the experience dream like in any way?  No as it wasn't visual it was based solely on feelings and emotion.

Did you experience a separation of consciousness from your body?  Uncertain

Describe your appearance or form apart from your body:  I must have been able to as I knew that they hadn't completed the operation and was able to tell them what they hadn't done yet.

What emotions did you feel during the experience?  It wasn't an emotion except that I didn't want to return.

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?  No

Did you meet or see any other beings?  Yes

      Describe:  I knew that they were present couldn't see them just feel them.

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?  No

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?  Yes

      Describe:  I had a premonition prior to the operation and warned everyone including the surgeon and anesthetist - who all told me I was stupid.

I then was able to tell them that I knew they hadn't completed the operation and why hadn't they taken all the teeth out that they were meant to.

To this day the anesthetist and Surgeon has said to me that I did tell them in advance and that they do not know a how I survived such a long period without a heart beat etc and that the medication to revive me didn't kill me. 

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?  Uncertain

      Describe:  I knew that I was in another dimension but could only feel it.

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?  No

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?  Yes

      Describe:  I knew that it was a place that I wanted to stay and that I had found the final place - ie. after death I somehow knew that I was dead and this was somewhere after.  It is only in retrospect that I know a universal force is at work and we have destinies that we can sometimes control (not always).

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?  No

Did you become aware of future events?  Yes

      Describe:  Only a couple days after I had many psychic experiences including dreams and premonitions.  I still do.

Were you involved in or aware of a decision to return to the body?  Uncertain

      Describe:  Because of the anesthetic I am not too sure but I know afterwards that I did not want to come back and questioned `God' for a very long time on why I had to come back to this world when I didn't want to be here.

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?  Yes

      Describe:  I have always had psychic ability but this was heightened to an almost scary level. I was very frightened and didn't know what was happening to me.  I am now able to enter different dimensions (not always of my own making) very similar feeling to that seen in the film Matrix.

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?  Yes

      Describe:  I am no longer afraid of death or dying and even when my husbands brother died suddenly all I felt was peace.  His family weren't too happy as I couldn't understand their grief as I knew he was safe and well.

Has the experience affected your relationships?  Daily life?  Religious practices etc.?  Career choices?  It has changed me a lot.  I often feel that I am an outsider looking in - as if I have a knowledge that few people have.  I was always a risk taker but it has somehow calmed me down.  I am know married with a child (I was never interested in a family before) and am searching for a new vocation - preferably in the new age/spiritual healing area.  I have turned my back on the corporate world and no longer suffer fools gladly and always pushing in - I never stand in a cue as I think why should I waste 20 minutes of my life doing this - people call me incredibly selfish but I know somehow that this is my time and I need to make the most of it.

Have you shared this experience with others?  Yes

      Describe:  Most people think I am crazy and don't want to know.  Even my husband and close friends get a glazed look if I return to it.  I would like to be able to speak to people who know and understand me.  I do believe that all those who have had this kind of experience are here for a reason.

What emotions did you experience following your experience?  I was very, very angry and afraid.  I didn't want to be here and became very self destructive hoping that I would die again and this time it would be for ever.  It took me a long time to come to terms with and I often think about it.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?  It gave me the strength to be true to myself and not be afraid of anything or anyone.  It also has made me realize that time is precious and not to be wasted.

The worst part was the recovery and no one wanting to speak with me.  I feel that I have a purpose and should tell everyone I meet but if I do loads of people (friends and family( can't understand why I need or want to talk about it so I don't anymore.

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?  I wish I could somehow be regressed to that exact moment in time once more so I could find out more about what happened.  As I was under general anesthetic many believe your true psychic self is repressed and that is why I can't remember much more.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?  No response

      Describe:  Yes but it is more an overall change of opinion although I am now making real physical changes to my lifestyle.

Physically I have the pulse rate of an Olympic Athlete and my doctors are amazed as I am not into a lot of exercise a size 10 and have just had  a baby.  For some reason my body seems to be on another level of super heightened awareness. Even after loads of tests they can't find out why my body is functioning at this level.

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?  Yes

      Describe:  I often have very vivid dreams where I am on another dimension or meeting people that I know in some psychic way.

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?  Uncertain

      Explain:  I think it is such a personal experience and everyone has their own best way to deal with this either by being a visual person - whereby you see everything or like me you are very emotional and therefore just need to feel what is happening to you.