Stefanie R's NDE

EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION:

            I don't know why or how but I was in a white place where you couldn't see any thing, and then I saw this white bridge with my dead uncle Nick (he was my favorite family member who died when I was in the 4th grade) standing there, I went up to him and he spoke to me, telling me that this was the "family bridge" where everyone in our family goes after we die and one member is there to greet us, that after we cross it there is no going back, but that I didn't have to stay that I had to choose to either go back and live and suffer in many ways but find what I've been looking for, or stay with him but I would never be able to go back to my life, I remember not believing that I was really there thinking that he wasn't really there either and asking him to let me touch his face but he wouldn't let me, then he asked me what I wanted to do and I said "well if this is heaven then I'll go back" I'm still not sure what I meant by that but then he spoke to me but I don't remember what he said other than his last words "every thing will be ok you will find what your looking for we will meet again" the next thing I remember is being in the hospital.

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes     the place I was, the way I felt when I was there

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Uncertain      I was sitting in the back seat of a Tahoe with my friend driving down a 2 lane highway when some guy tried to do a u-turn across the highway when he hit our car, I wasn't wearing my seat belt and I felt my head slam into the window and door next thing I know the car Im in is flipping and I remember being thrown up-down-up-down and being totally conscious of all of it I remember thinking, but not really thinking more like someone telling me in my head, "just keep your eyes closed, cover your face it will be over soon" next thing I remember is thinking I've got to get out of here and trying to push my friend who wasn't wearing his seat belt either out the window, next thing I know Im laying on the side of the road unable to move but feeling every bit of the pain

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    when I was asking him if I could touch his face because I was there I could think while I was there and after he said no I remember crying I could feel the tears on my face

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?    Normal consciousness and alertness

            when I was asking him if I could touch his face because I was there I could think while I was there and after he said no I remember crying I could feel the tears on my face

Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?  Yes     everything was so bright white and the ground was bright white too but not solid kind of like whipped cream

Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
            Yes     Nick's words were coming from his mouth but were more internally heard than normal conversations, kind of like he was in my head talking to me

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Uncertain

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            a wonderful calm, like the best I've ever felt like I was at peace, like a warm blanket was wrapped around me, I felt very reassured after speaking to Nick like no matter what happened in my life everything would turn out ok

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?          No      

Did you see a light?           Uncertain      everything was bright and white like everything was surrounded in a bright light

Did you meet or see any other beings?           Yes     I saw this white bridge with my dead uncle Nick (he was my favorite family member who died when I was in the 4th grade) standing there, I went up to him and he spoke to me, telling me that this was the "family bridge" where everyone in our family goes after we die and one member is there to greet us, that after we cross it there is no going back, but that I didn't have to stay that I had to choose to either go back and live and suffer in many ways but find what I've been looking for, or stay with him but I would never be able to go back to my life, I remember not believing that I was really there thinking that he wasn't really there either and asking him to let me touch his face but he wouldn't let me, then he asked me what I wanted to do and I said "well if this is heaven then I'll go back" I'm still not sure what I meant by that but then he spoke to me but I don't remember what he said other than his last words "every thing will be ok you will find what your looking for we will meet again"

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?    Uncertain      \

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          Uncertain      I know Nick told me things some of which Im sure had to do with my future but I cant remember, all I know is I felt very reassured after I left that place

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?            Yes     everything was so bright white and the ground was bright white too but not solid kind of like whipped cream, there seemed to be nothing far as the eye could see but that white bridge and my uncle

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Yes     it was like time didn't exist where I was like nothing really existed but just was I don't know if that even makes any sense to you

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?     Yes     I know Nick told me things some of which Im sure had to do with my future but I cant remember, all I know is I felt very reassured after I left that place like I knew something but I still cant put my finger on it

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes     I was at a bridge and Nick told me if I crossed it there was no turning back

Did you become aware of future events?       Uncertain
            Nick told me I would suffer in many ways but everything would be ok and I would find what I looking for, when I returned I suffered much physical and mental pain from the accident, my parents tried to get me under a guardianship so they could take all the money I received from the law suit after the accident, but then I got my money, moved away from them and met the man of my dreams, I think that was the "what your looking for" I had always been looking to meet the man of my dreams, unlike most woman when I say man of my dreams I actually mean the man I had been dreaming of for years the way he looks the personality he has even where he was from, the things we do together everything is exactly like the guy I had been dreaming of all my life

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?     Uncertain      I have always had a certain gift of knowing things and reading tarot cards, like being able to read people very well, having a feeling of things to come even the day of the accident my friend Russell was supposed to drive (he was a very good driver) but that morning they changed plans and Chase was going to drive, I remember trying to convince them not to have him drive not really sure why I just felt some thing bad would happen if he drove

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes     when I was in the hospital my mother asked me if I saw anything, I told her everything, I don't know if she believed me

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?    No      

How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:            Experience was definitely real    I don't know why maybe because it felt so real, I mean I could see, think, hear, and feel through out the entire experience

Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you?            seeing Nick again was the most wonderful experience of my life I hadn't seen him since I was in kindergarten and I feared he was in hell because he had gotten AIDS and after battling it for many years he killed himself

How do you currently view the reality of your experience:            Experience was definitely real    I don't know why maybe because it felt so real, I mean I could see, think, hear, and feel through out the entire experience and I just have a feeling that Nick was right that even though I did and still do suffer I did find what I had been looking for

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?           No      

Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?            Yes     I believe in an after life and that both good and bad things always happen for a reason, that everything, every event, every decision is connected

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No                  

Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?         Yes     every thing I've written thus far is self explanatory