Silvia C's NDE

Experience description: 

Everything began when I was at some friends’ house and suddenly I felt a severe headache and I felt sick. I put my hands on my head, but pain was unbearable. I started falling to the floor  saying “My head”, “My head”. From there on, darkness. I was in coma and they brought me to Emergency in the hospital and from there to Bergen, in helicopter. Vital signs were very weak and they did not know what to do or they were not sure about performing surgery on me. I don’t know. At last, they decided surgery. I stayed there for five days, totally unconscious, according to my husband and surgeons at the hospital. During those five days I did not wake up, said anything or even move. I was almost dead. 

I have asked whether during these five days in coma, anybody saw me opening my eyes or moving. Everybody agrees that I did not. The medical prognosis was that I wouldn’t survive. There were more chances for me to die then to survive, to such an extent that my husband – advised by the doctor / surgeon- called my daughter in Spain so that she could see me before dying, my situation was critical. 

My experience says that I did wake up and I did it four times; the first three right in the middle of a shining/blinding light. I did not see anybody, just the light. My body did not exist any longer. The light, my eyes and my mind…Nothing else. The light was hardly bearable, too intense. At the same time, I did not feel any pain nor worries  at all. I felt happy of being there, but light was damaging my eyes, it was too intense. I thought I was having a nightmare, but I was not really sleeping; this is, I was in  coma, but I was thinking. So, I was telling to myself: “ You are having a nightmare, Silvia, close your eyes and you will go back to sleep. When you wake up, you’ll be home”. So I closed my eyes – eyes of the mind, since the real ones were fully closed- and slept.

This happened three –consecutive- times.

During the fourth time, the same happened. I woke up in the light and there I notice like I was floating on the air, but I was only eyes and mind…My body did not longer exist or I was not able to see it. This time there was people at the back of the light, lots of people, coming and going, as if they were having a walk….A deep feeling of peace came upon me, happiness, comfort….you feel in a full stadium of grace, it is a marvelous feeling. I don’t know how long did I  spend in there, watching people. All of a sudden, somebody I knew, it was my husband, walking along with people, such a coincidence. He turns around and notices me, raises his hand , greets  and walks towards me….and then I fall again in complete darkness ( as if I just had winkled) and AT LAST I OPEN MY EYES TO LIFE…..

When I woke up, I was not aware of where I was or what happened to me. There were machines everywhere and lots of tubes/pipes connected to my body. A nurse began talking to me, but it was difficult to me to understand. And she was calling somebody to translate. She was requesting my husband, sleeping in the adjacent room of Intensive Care.

I asked everybody and, according to them, I never woke up, I was in coma the whole time, I do not know to what extent.. My husband  scarcely saw me, he was in the adjacent room to Therapy / Intensive Care and he says that when I came back to consciousness, he was immediately called. During my coma, I was always accompanied by nurses and doctors

And according to the Neurosurgeon, the fact that I am still alive IS A MIRACLE; they though that according to the tests, I would not survive; and if I did, I would suffer terribly.

After being in coma, I had weird experiences; I could see shadows passing ( I cannot say they were ghosts, I only could see shadows moving), moving. Initially, I was scared of them, but after a while I realized that I had to be faster then them and reach them with my seeing and confront them. That way they would disappear.

They disappeared in fact after a while.

When I explained this to my husband, he said that I had a vivid imagination. This is quite possible; quite likely when we are in coma we can dream…But I think that there is more then coincidental that most people can see the light or are in the light; I do not think that all of us have the same dream programmed in our brain. I know that there is no logical explanation to this. Now I can say this with no fear to be considered mad; he who thinks so is nothing but an ignorant of the secrets of the world and the humankind.
 
Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?     Yes

I do not know what medications were given to me, but I had brain hemorrhage.

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes

I first explained it to my husband. And he look at me as if I was mad…Figure  I was to explain it to some others!

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Uncertain

I was in coma for five days and I know that my condition was critical.

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?          None

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   Nope. I insistently tried to convince myself that it was only a dream and commanded myself to go back to sleep, in the conscious part of my unconsciousness.
 
Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     My body did not exist, but at no stage did I see my consciousness separate from my body. When I was in the light, only my eyes and my ability to think existed.

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?           no

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?          no

Did you see a light?           Yes

Did you meet or see any other beings?           Yes

In the other street. I did not contact them, they were doing their things; coming and going, laughing, chatting, but they did not contact me.

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?    No

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?            Uncertain The light. There are no limits…it is there, here, everywhere. It is a whole.

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?    No

Did you become aware of future events?       No

Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?       Yes
Every time I woke up, I repeated to myself that I had to go back home, I want to go back home…But I fully believe that it was my husband who brought me back home.

If I hadn’t meet him, quite likely I would not have been back. I think that he found me and brought me back. This is the idea I have.
 
Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   Yes

You stop fearing death; it is like somebody taught you that it is fearless; in the afterlife we won’t be alone, lots will be joining us.

How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?       Before my NDE I was good in saving money; now, I try to enjoy life…And I teach this to people close to me….

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes

Most of them were skeptical and some others weren’t.  The ones who weren’t skeptical advised me to research on the Internet in order to find answers; I do not know if there was any influence in their lives. It is said that we learn with our own experiences.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?     The best part was the feeling of peace and happiness, that is all you wish in your life. The worst part is not knowing exactly what happened, being unable to provide a logical explanation…It was a dream, a nightmare…WHAT?

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?               Yes, I believe so. In my case, the questions asked were enough for me to explain my experience.