Silvan's NDE

EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION:

I was in the car taking my girlfriend home when I felt a growing pain in my right leg and I went into automatic as though something or the part of me that was conscious was preparing to leave my body without harming anybody else. I stopped the car, it was January and cold, I opened all the car windows, started breathing in the cold air and also turned on the air conditioning, but I couldn't catch my breath. It felt as though I was fainting and I have fainted before, but this time, with the air conditioning pointed at my face, I pushed my car seat into the reclining position and stayed like that for about 10 minutes.

Immobile, eyes open, no respiration, as confirmed by my girlfriend. And without thought, I'm always thinking, I am a very logical person yet in that moment I was without thought. All of a sudden I felt so peaceful the way I never felt before, a deep peace, the body no longer existed and it was as though it had never existed, none of my memories ever existed, pain never existed, memory of pain, no recollection of anything, only serenity and a white light all around me, blinding, a light cold in tone but warm, I don't know if I can succeed in making you understand, it's as though you have your arms wide open on a summer's night and your eyes closed and you feel the synchronicity of everything. Then a worry made me turn from where I was, it was a worry, I knew that I would never have been able to return without that worry that made me come back, and I don't know if it was the right thing to come back. In any case it was only in that instant when I returned that I felt the worry, I was still advancing but at the same time turned towards whence I had come. With the same peace that I described above.

Until I found myself there reclining in my seat. And I began to observe, but quietly, peacefully, I watched my girlfriend turn towards me, she was seated, I saw my shoulders and my neck from below, I saw my girlfriend yelling, but I couldn't hear her. But that didn't interest me. I was at peace. And I was returning. Without walking and without any sensation of movement I was returning to myself until I reached the surface of my body lying on the seat, until I and my body were reunited perfectly, and then I turned to my girlfriend and said why are you screaming. It was her screaming and her terror and her panic that had created the worry.

Now I have changed tremendously. At night I used to be afraid to go to sleep, and I had pains in my body that I had never felt before. The following day the doctors examined me. Cerebral RMN, ECG, electrocardiogram, normal. Nothing in particular, maybe a very fine discrepancy in energy between the right and left hemispheres of the brain, but nothing significant.

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words?         No      

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?         Uncertain      

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?           

When I was returning 

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?  More consciousness and alertness than normal 

If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain:            When I was returning 

Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?   Yes

I could see all around me without moving my head 

Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?            Yes     

I spoke and knew another language, only sounds 

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?  Yes 

What emotions did you feel during the experience?       peace 

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?      No     I only passed through the seat 

Did you see a light?  Yes      An immense very powerful blinding light like a star but very near as though the light passed through me 

Did you meet or see any other beings?     No        

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?            No  I began analyzing my life and human existence, the laws that govern its existence, actions and reactions 

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?  No        

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?            No        

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?           Yes      It seemed as though I was gone years, not 10 minutes 

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?       Yes      We are all guinea-pigs, maybe there's hope for those who've had my experience not to become a guinea-pig 

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?          No        

Did you become aware of future events?  No     

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?    Yes     

Psychic thoughts. There's no particular situation, it's just that this event brought forth other senses in me and I can understand myself and others, but I am not happy about it 

Have you shared this experience with others?    Yes     

A year or 2 later, but I'm not sure, time doesn't exist for me anymore, I don't feel it pass, I am 34 years old and everything has stopped 

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?     No       I was afraid to go to sleep at night 

How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:            Experience was definitely real       

I consider it magnificent, I was never so much at peace. My greatest desire is still unfulfilled, the desire to not remember anything or anybody. And I would be there alone, with that joy within me which in this plane of being does not exist  

Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you?        I described it above 

How do you currently view the reality of your experience: Experience was definitely real        

I don't judge it, I can only say that had it not been for my girlfriend making me return, I would not be here today  

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?  Yes     

I am very direct now, crude, cynical and nobody understands. And I don't care whether they understand 

Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?    No        

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?  No        

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?  I no longer fear death, at that moment you don't remember who you are, you are only afraid of death because you are afraid of the pain it will cause others, but in death you don't remember anything 

Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?   Yes     

I would say yes, there's nothing like living the experience