Shonda G's NDE

EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION:

            I was 11 years old and was suffering from severe anxiety and depression. I was seeing a counselor and on the anti-depressant imipramine. I know two things about what happened before the attempt. I had a doctors appointment and I had a fight with my mom. The rest is kind of foggy to me. I know that I went to the kitchen to get a glass of water to take the pills with. I shut and locked my door and started taking the pills. They were very small and I took around 100 pills. My mom was banging on my door because it was time to go to the doctor. I remember telling her it didn't matter because I took a bunch of pills. She said she was going to call 911 if I didn't open the door. I then told her I didn't take the pills and we could go to the doctor. We lived about 5 minutes from the doctors office and by the time we got there I was feeling very sleepy and sick. My mom knew then that I had taken the pills. She kept asking me how much I took and I kept lying saying I didn't take any. I told her I was going to throw up and I needed to go to the bathroom. I went into the bathroom at my doctors office and sat down by the toilet. I then had what I call a NDE. I suddenly felt like I was really small and looking down at myself on the floor. Everything was dark around me and I felt very very alone. I felt very sad for the person on the floor (didn't really associate that person with myself) I felt a sense of never ending aloneness. That is the last thing I remember until I was in the ER getting my stomach pumped. I don't remember getting to the hospital or anything else. I was put in the psych ward for a week and have struggled with depression and anxiety until this very day.

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? No      

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          No      

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    I was aware during the whole experience but it didn't feel like it lasted long.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?    Normal consciousness and alertness

            I was aware during the whole experience but it didn't feel like it lasted long.

Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?  Uncertain      I felt like I was in the corner of the bathroom but far above.

Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
            Uncertain      I experienced no sound

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Yes

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            Alone, Sad, empty

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No      

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?           No           

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Yes     never ending aloneness

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?     No      

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No      

Did you become aware of future events?       No
           

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?     No      

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes     I spoke about my experience about 12 years after it took place

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?    No      

How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:            Experience was definitely real   

Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you?            The aloneness is the most significant part to me

How do you currently view the reality of your experience:            Experience was definitely real   

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?           No      

Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?            No           

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No                

Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?         Yes