Sharon L's NDE

I have never been the same since NDE. When I saw my body in the street. My life all played back to me like on a video. As I saw my body disappearing as I was moving  feeling like I was floating up . I felt total peace. calm. Didn't know I was in an accident but I do remember seeing me lying in the street. As I disappeared into a light as a rose. My life before the accident feels like someone told me a story and I recall a little of it but it don't feel like its me. But what I live and feel now . I can play back in my head almost like it  all was yesterday. I know I had a head injury. But I'm far from retarded. I have a little bid of all that has happened but not a lot.  Generally I will share with you about who I was at time of accident. Your welcome to ask me anything. I would really like to find answers to me and how my life is since the NDE

June 1971 I went to get my car to go to graduation of veterinary tech school. My car wasn't there. So, I decided to ride my bicycle instead. A city bus hit my bicycle and my bike fell on top off curb and I fell under the bus. So I was told anyhow. I have no reconciliation  of the accident at all or my initial two week stay in a acute hospital. I had some broken bones and head injury. Part of the back wheel got a little of me.

 My stay in the hospital somewhere in my head from what I was told my family needed to be with me 24/7 being they ,"as in staff at the hospital" couldn't keep an eye on me.  I worked in a convalescent at night during the time I was in my accident . I seemed to replace all  my patients minds in me . I took on their personality's  ,guess mine was lost at the time. So , I would keep asking for chocolate candy bars and kept forgetting I asked and received. The same as one of my patients at the hospital I worked in. Pulled my IVs out.  Was always running thru the parking lot bare at the bottom like one of my patients did .  And several other things cant really recall all that my family had told me. But I did take on their personality and not mine.

  After my family having to stay there with me on a 24/7.  They had me released to my mothers home. It took  a  few months for me to comprehend that a bus had run me over. I will never forget the day.  I heard my mother screaming at my sister about something.  I screamed.  They came in the room and told me I was hit by a bus and my behavior in hospital and all.  I then moved out of my mothers home shortly after.

I didn't feel I belonged there.  Not any bond and so distant as for them being my family.

 I was saying all this spiritual  stuff that was so deep and I had no control over the words that were spoken. I

also was very psychic .  I was able to know when something was going to happen. It scared me.

   I was a Florence Nightingale  type of person before my accident and a goody two shoes . I always wanted Jesus to be proud and to be one of Gods chosen. When I moved out of my mothers home. I took a job in a massage parlor. I worked there learning the world  and behaviors . I was like an adult in a child's body. People scared me.  Behaviors scared me. I didn't know who I was morally or at all really.  It was like a new soul having to take in life and seeing a scary world.

Several months went by and more and more I was getting flashing of me, who I was. My morals. It was like I was two different people. One in a massage parlor who only knew that life and one coming out saying you don't belong here.  Its not you. I was remembering more and more of whom I was. My mind was in conflicts and I then started to have black outs.  I went to a neurological  doctor told him about me feeling two different people emerge and feel like I'm being told what to do like I was being lead around. It was just something hard to explain to him, when I didn't understand it myself. He put me into a mental hospital. That was very scary to me. They kept me loaded up with drugs. Guess not dealing with a head injury but a nut case...See I also told them I died and came back from the accident . Guess in 1971 those doctors didn't want to believe that. so they thought best to shove medications down my throat.

 Oh but to make a very long story short. All I can remember from the accident was me laying in the street seeing my body there and my soul lifting up like I was floating up in a light.  My body got little were I no longer could see it as I went up...I felt so at peace I remember. 

I talk about LOVE how important it is. And that is the biggest word to know and understand and give. But at the same time, I see people really don't know how to .  I see they are into their own thoughts or world as much as anyone else. But LOVE, real LOVE is deep. To really be able to GIVE . to hear to know and to feel good knowing you care. To LOVE everyone even if they are different then you. Not saying you have to like them.  Its just I see people are afraid that kind of bond. I know there are few that do know how. but that's really needing to be open minded to feel someone else's heart  and let it touch yours. We all have our own minds and thoughts. Part of Loving someone  is realizing their thoughts are part of who they are, and not assume they should think like you. but understand them.

Many years have gone by. I raised two girls. Hard job ,but no matter how hard it was I loved them and still from this day I want them happy. To find peace within themselves. And to understand needs of others and not just themselves. To me, that is a gift from GOD.

But after all these years. I love my family ,as in brothers and sisters mother and dad. But I still don't feel a bond or closeness as to them being family. I can't even remember my youngest brother or even where he slept.  And the rest of my family. Just small parts . I will always feel a big part of me got lost.

  Still from this day. I hurt when I see people who is all about them and not others. I feel I'm to be there ,to help . I feel I'm the one who knows what to say to make a person feel better. I feel I can take care of others. But I don't trust anyone taking care of me. I've been abused medically. And not medically just from trying to understand the world on my own. I need health care. And I cry because I don't trust even doctors anymore. They had given me a very traumatic experience that I keep reliving and cry . I guess I now have PTSD. And I don't have a clue how to get rid of it when I can't even trust a doctor no more. 

I don't want to go into the story about that now. It hurts to much. But I do understand weakness of man . But when it comes to the medical profession. When an oath is taken. I can't understand medical abuse.

There is so much to me, and I know its like I have a 3rd eye or the 6th sense. And I really need to find someone who I can  relate to with a similar experience.

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? No       No, it wasn't, but I from this day question myself. What happened that I can let myself remember after I left . Why were all these spiritual words coming from my mouth . I was like I was saying things I had no clue what was making me say them. I still wonder now what I was saying.

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Uncertain            didn't know I had an accident at the time.. Only can recall NDE.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    NONE

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?    Less consciousness and alertness than normal

If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain:            I really don't know how to answer that ,but all explained in letter

Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?  Uncertain      like I said, I recall nothing but seeing my body in the street as my life played back to me all of it in seconds. Then I was gone up in the light, I floated away.

Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
            Uncertain      no recall didn't hear nothing. only saw

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Uncertain

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            only know there was no fear, I was going up, felt at peace. and saw my whole life play back to me

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?          Uncertain      I wish I could remember. I know I feel something happened. But its blocked out. Its like I'm not to know or remember. But I do know things changed lots about me since that.

Did you see a light?           Uncertain      hard to say, I felt me floating up, feeling light, at peace, very calm, might of been a dim light. but in its own space that lifted me.

Did you meet or see any other beings?           Uncertain      I know I did but I don't know. After the effect I've been told I need to write a book. Not by people but by who ever it was that choose for me to come back. And all that spiritual talking that was coming out of my mouth so deep I didn't know where or why I was saying them. And A voice in my head but I believe it to be from upstairs told me to bring this man back. I had an experience in a Ralph's Market. An old man near Christmas was on the floor and blue. A store clerk was yelling there is a dead man on isle what ever it was, can't recall. It was long ago. She said loudly, is there a doctor in the store. I walked over to the body of the man. I got down on my knees. A voice told me to take his right hand in my left hand, and place my right hand on his forehead. And to repeat some words to him over and over. I did just that. I said," You can't leave us now. Your family needs you. Come back to us. I repeated these words over and over in same tone of voice. holding his hand and having other hand on his forehead. After several times saying that. He suddenly started getting color and his body got warm. He sat up ,just as he sat up paramedics came. I stood up ,I started shaking real bad. And heard voices saying to me, How did u do that. I was totally freaked. Didn't say a word to no one in store. Left the store and went home.  From this day I wonder if that old man remembered me .. But I have different things happen out of the ordinary . That is only one. there are more

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?    Yes     I did at time of accident have my whole life pass in front of me, like playback of it all. But due to my head injury or for other reasons unknown, I don't know my childhood but briefly. I cant feel emotion to it. Its like I was briefly filed in about my life before the time. I don't have much emotion or feelings from it. No bonding from it.

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No      

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?            Uncertain      I know I did. but I cant tell you that I did.

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   No      

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?     Yes            think I sort of said on other notes. But yes ,I know I'm here for a reason. Even know what I'm told to do. Write a book. And I know my book is to be a breakthrough for a change somehow.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Uncertain      Like I said before, I know I did, But its blocked from knowing

Did you become aware of future events?       Yes            pretty right on to a point that it scared me

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?     Yes     have explained in others

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes     I don't talk about it lots. Cause I don't believe people cant relate to it. When I found this site this evening this was the first time I ever tried  to see if there was something out there. Because I am looking for answers myself. I would like to find a group of people who are totally different due to NDE I believe they would be the only people who really can understand and relate.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?    No      

How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:            Experience was definitely real    Hard to say I view it as real, It was real. It was something I will never forget. I saw me looking down at my body. It was real. It happened so fast ,guess I can with a pun indented ,"I don't know what hit me"

Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you?    I cant really say meaningful. But I will never forget seeing me in the street. never forget my life playing back to me from day one seems like whole life in a short time. and will never forget the feeling of my body and soul being separated. But there was no fear. It was just accepted I guess. My soul was rising.

How do you currently view the reality of your experience:            Experience was definitely real            Many hears has passed, but that day I can never forget. Only thing I can remember about that day

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?           Yes     I know my family that I grew up with is my family, but I don't feel like I know them as family. or have a bond to them like I should.

Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?            No           

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         Yes     ,,,but I blamed it on the medications. But I remember having people from upstairs sitting by my bed even if it was to me seeming real. I had to tell myself its the meditations. I never talked about this my NDE to the doctors. It was like ,I had an accident. I saw my body in the street. oh u want me talk about my dad, my mom, my sister, my brother. Guess what should of been talked about in dept wasn't. It was I guess out of the question. Its not the normal .

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?        only that my life story would make a good book, a good teaching. a tear jerker and much much more. So much to my life after. Its just the matter of doing it without tears flowing. I know one thing that was very hard for me in this new world ,meaning (a child in an adult body) That is what it was like I had to learn on my own. My doctor always told me the world isn't perfect. I have a hard time learning that all at once. But I do handle most of it pretty good realizing that yes the world isn't perfect. But I do have it bad when it comes to the medical profession.

Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?         Yes     lol there is so much and not enough time or energy to put it all down on paper. but what I would like out of this most is finding others with similar stories I can relate to . We do become different. and we do have the 5th sense. or the 3rd eye

Are there any other questions we could ask to help you communicate your experience?   not at this time, but if anything I have told you makes you come up with any questions please feel free.. I want u to help me as much as I want to help you.