Ruth's NDE

Experience description: 

My first one was in 1965, diagnosed with terminal cervical cancer.  I was in a coma for 10 days, and I was out of body seeing how all the nurses and doctors were saying "we have lost her now."

I did not recognize the body, as I only weighed 65 pounds at the time, and it was ugly to me. 

Next, I was wandering the hospital and next thing I knew, I was in a long tunnel and all my relations who had passed before were standing, smiling as I passed them. I could only discern one motivation and that was to reach the awesome LIGHT at the end of the tunnel, meantime I was shown all my life experiences, and I WAS the person whom I had hurt or helped so that I felt what they felt when I had erroneously against or helped them.  A voice told me 'you have been judged in that being the other person I judged myself...Hard to explain, seems easiest for me to call it karma.

When I reached the LIGHT, it was so bright, like nothing on Earth, pure white LIGHT, and such a feeling of unconditional love and warmth.

Any questions I had ever had were answered by the LIGHT.  It seems like I was there for a long time, just absorbing all the answers.

Next thing I knew a voice came from the LIGHT and told me it was not my time to stay there.  I BEGGED as hard as I could, but I was slammed back into my body in reverse, and I cursed all the doctors and nurses.  Did not speak of this to anyone as my family was/is fundie Pentecostal.

I had a heart attack in 1993, and the situation was the same but for ONE big difference. I was married at this time and I was shown my husband crying for me not to die, thus I was offered a decision to stay or to return to him. I chose life this time.

In 2000, I lived alone and became very ill with what I know now was e-coli and was not taken to the hospital. I was so ill, I was vomiting, could not stand. I screamed to the Universe to let me die or make me well.

I was taken out of body through the tunnel, but this time, I was able to visit other planes of existence.

There were 7 I was allowed to view, including one very strange plane where I could look inside a giant morass where souls were being tortured sexually, etc in all types of vile forms. They "thought" they were trapped when all they had to do was to look up and there was a path to the LIGHT. Not seeking seemed to be their doom? I screamed at them, but it seems they could not hear.

I was taken to special entities who looked like the usual grays, but they had lots of wrinkles on their faces. They called themselves the Counsel, and said they were part of a group called "soul recyclers" helping souls to re-incarnate.

This was by far my most profound NDE, as I could see the silver cord that attached me to my body. This experience lasted for over 20 minutes as best I could remember. I was dead, this was NOT an obe, as I know how those feel.

There is such a profound structure to the Universe that cannot be described. I look upon it as Cayce did the Akashic records, but in my view, it is a giant gigabyte mainframe that can do trillions of bytes per second. It is like a well run machine that is totally fair and well ordered. The Universe is the opposite of Chaos.

There is much more I saw on the different planes, but some of it I will not speak of just yet.

 Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes,    There are no words in any language to describe that "feeling"

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Yes    
 
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    Near the LIGHT.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?    More consciousness and alertness than normal

If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain:            I knew I was me, IOW my personality survived, I just no longer needed a body.

Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?  Yes     Indescribable amounts of colors that we do not have on Earth, also a type of vibration? and I asked what it was, as it was a type of music?

I was told these are the prayers, pleas, praise coming from Earth and other planets.

Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?            Yes    

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     No

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            Total peace and that I was finally at HOME.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?          Yes    

Did you see a light?           Yes    

Did you meet or see any other beings?           Yes     see NDE description.

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?    Yes     see NDE.

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          Yes     The doctors in 1965 and my husband crying in 1993.

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?           Yes            see NDE

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Yes
            Time no longer existed,

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?     Yes            Yes, all the answers I got from my queries.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No      

Did you become aware of future events?       Yes            Have not discussed.

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?     Yes     Empathy and healing of others.

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes     Only with others who have been there..

One who has not gone look at you as if you are possessed if you try to describe it to them.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?    No      

Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you?            The simplicity of how the Universe is run.

How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:            Experience was definitely real
           
How do you currently view the reality of your experience:            Experience was definitely real
          
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?           Yes
            My ex was disturbed by any mention of it, I have become a recluse.