Rusty S' NDE

EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION:

            I was in a black space on a black nothing it was kind of like a path because it was lined with small lights close to ankle height that outlined a "path". As I proceeded down this "path" (not really walking but just kind of skipping from light to light) I would look into the small lights and see significant happenings in my life. I saw my birth, a few other things that are vague to me then I saw my enlistment into the army, my marriage and the birth of each of my daughters. I was not present at the birth of my first daughter because of military issues, but I saw it starting from a position to the right hand side of my wife about the waist area, elevated approximately  7-8 ft. The feelings that I had while proceeding down this path is one of accomplishment.

Each light was like a level or stage in my life that I had completed or conquered. Many of the lights were small events that I cannot decipher if I recall them from this memory or from my cognitive memory. I reached the "end of the path" and in front of me was a large light entrance? It was a light that wasn't really giving off light this is where I have a hard time putting words to my memory the accurately describe what I was seeing or felt. I stepped into the light with no hesitation when I got to it. I was instantly surrounded by the same light. at this time I felt nothing physically. Actually now that I am writing this I didn't have any physical feelings during the whole thing, everything was emotional thought related. I wasn't floating or standing or lying I was just "there" surrounded by this light. At this time I had a overwhelming feeling of completion like I had accomplished some great feat or game. I was feeling/thinking "you did it. you won. you beat the game.

Then I  remembered my daughters birth that I saw for the first time just moments ago. I felt the joy, sense of accomplishment and realization of a task unfinished and experiences that were still available to me. I had the feeling that I don't want it to be over I don't want this to be the end I want to experience more. Then it was all gone, the light the path everything I "woke up" three days later. I say "woke up" because I was awake off and on but I was being given Versaid. And every time I went to sleep and woke up I would have forgotten everything that had happened to me each time. From the time I was intubated at work shortly after the accident, to the time I was taken off Versed three days later the only thing I was able to remember was the path and light.

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Uncertain      what I saw and felt after I stepped into the light.

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Uncertain      I was seriously injured, extensive trauma with a large loss of blood

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    In the light thinking that I had more to do and experience.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?    More consciousness and alertness than normal

If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain:            In the light thinking that I had more to do and experience.

Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?  Yes     I saw more and from every angel all at once it is hard to explain

Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
            Uncertain      I don't really recall a lot of sound. It was more like the only sense I had was sight everything else was muffled

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     No

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            excitement relief love joy anticipation

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?          Yes     please see question #3

Did you see a light?           Yes     please see question #3

Did you meet or see any other beings?           Yes     please see question #3 no communication

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?    Yes     please see question #3

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No      

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?            Uncertain      The light that surrounded me in question #3 was very distinctive.

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Uncertain      the scenes from my life weren't like memories it was as if it was happening for the first time like I was actually present for things that had happened years earlier and miles apart, this was some what of a sense of altered time and space

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?     Uncertain            everything is important every little thing that you experience is a building block into what makes you. The family you raise and the training/education of your children are your greatest responsibilities.

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes     five days. They were more or less sad at the realization of how close to death I was. My father is set on there being a higher purpose for me. I have had five near misses with death and he thinks that there is some great plan from God that I need to do

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?    Yes     I have heard of walking to the light on TV like probably every one in the united states

How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:            Experience was definitely real    Even in memories you kind of loose things this was so different. I have never felt the complete calm I felt then or the lack of fear or pain I almost feel as if I'm always in pain compared to those moments. I don't know how to really explain my certainty. It just seamed more real than life itself

Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you?    the two most meaningful times were the birth of my daughters and when I made a conscience decision to continue my experiences

How do you currently view the reality of your experience:            Experience was definitely real            same as above

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?           Yes     my outlook on life and what I hold to be important has changed. My experiences and interactions with other people especially my family has gained importance.

Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?            No           

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No                 

Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?         Yes     some of the specific questions allowed me to single out things that I didn't notice in my own personal analysis