Roger M's NDE

As a result of the rapid loss of blood, the amount of time that I remained conscious after the fall was only a few minutes. I have very clear memories of the moments leading up to and after my transition from this plane to the next. Miraculously I suffered very little head trauma as a result of the fall. I distinctly remember going into shock as the blood poured from the severed arteries in my arm. The feeling of my life slipping away became more apparent as I felt the extreme cold come over me as my breathing became more and more shallow. The people at the scene of the accident were all telling me to stay calm and keep my eyes open.

Oddly, I don't remember being anything but calm. I did feel an intense fear of the unknown that I was about to face and at the prospect of never seeing my wife and children again, but that feeling passed rather quickly. I remember taking my last breath and then instantly my entire spectrum of existence changed completely. All the coldness I was feeling while I lay there bleeding to death was replaced with the warmest feeling I have ever known. Not the heat that could be associated with Hell, but a warmth from within my being. I no longer felt dread or fear or any other emotion I had experienced in a physical realm. I can only describe it as a sense of peace and well being. It's amazing the pressures we feel everyday just by being alive in our mortal bodies. It's only when these pressures are completely lifted from our existence that our souls are able to experience real peace and tranquility.

At the same time I felt all these changes occur I also experienced an existence without the burdens of an Earthly body. The senses that replaced sight sound and smell felt like one sense of all inclusive awareness. There was no need for physical interaction as all levels of experience were not felt or spoken, but simply known. The function of sight did not exist as I had known while in my body. Everything that I perceived as existing could be experienced as the most intense light I could possibly imagine. I remember it as being a hundred times brighter than the sun, but it was not painful to experience. I had the sense that the light was responsible for everything I had been a part of since leaving my Earthly body. I don't know if I can describe this source of light as God or Jesus or any other divine being. It was far deeper than we can describe in Earthly terms or feelings. I had an awareness of this "source" that needed absolutely no means of conveyance or communication. I had become a part of this "source" to the extent of oneness. Maybe I had become part of this "source".

The thing I remember the most is how distant I had become from the physical body. When we express as humans the hope to one day be reunited with departed friends and family there is no way to explain how we will truly be together again. The reunion is not as Father and Son or as our dear friend. It's as if our souls are part of an atom that had been split with all the destructive force of the universe and then suddenly come back to form a single atom again. This atom somehow contained every experience ever thought felt or imagined. Nothing ever beckoned me to the light or tried to persuade me to come or go. Our souls just know where we belong. And as fast and beautiful this transition had occurred it was over.

 My accident had occurred on Friday April 4th of 2003. I regained consciousness on Monday April 7th. Since that day I have felt an emptiness that I can only guess comes from having been exposed to this plane that truly liberates our souls from the rigors of mortal existence. Upon my return from death, I cried when I hugged my family, my parents, children, wife, and dear friends. I cried not because I had missed them, because everything I had gone through seemed to last only minutes. I cried because I had absolute knowledge that there is a beautiful awareness that will follow this life and regardless of our experience in an Earthly body our souls will exist in way that human thoughts and words simply can't do justice.

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words?          Yes    The experience was more of a feeling than an event. There were so many things at the time it's very hard to differentiate between the physical and emotional portions of the experience

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Yes    A Severe accident (fall from about 15 feet) That ended with several broken bones and the complete laceration of all the major arteries in my right arm. After hitting the ground at an odd angle I went through a plate glass window. It was the massive blood loss that would ultimately bring me face to face with mortality.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?  My awareness felt at it's height just after I lost consciousness. There is absolutely no mistaking the transition from this plane to the next.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?          More consciousness and alertness than normal

If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain:        I had a sense of feeling a part of the entire fabric of all forms of existence in all planes of being. It's as though we not only meet our maker so to speak, but we are our maker or some part of.

Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?          Yes    There was not anything to see. Everything is experience in an all inclusive awareness of being.

Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
          Yes    Awareness, awareness, awareness!!! All senses act as one.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?          Yes

What emotions did you feel during the experience?          warmth, safety, belonging, indifference, liberation, peacefulness, wellness. There was no happy or sad, this plane of experience was well beyond that.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?        No     

Did you see a light?         Yes    The light enveloped the entire plane. It was the "source" of our being. This light did not appear in the way we see our sun or headlights or any other Earthly light. This light was reason for everything that has ever taken place.

Did you meet or see any other beings?         Yes    I felt every form of being that had ever existed. There was no need for communication when we become each other.

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?   Yes    I was aware of everything I had ever experienced.

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?         Uncertain     I would imagine anyone who has ever felt mortal death has has some sense of this transition. It may not be perceived by everyone in the same way, but the experience results are inarguable.

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?          Yes    The transition can not be described or explained by human terms or concept of existance. I will say that this plane exists distinctly separate from our own, but is still as much a part of this Earthly realm as our next breath.

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?  Yes    There simply is no concept of space or time. it simply does not exist.

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?     Yes    I exist in this life and body only in knowing what awaits. The things that make human nature feel individual and exclusive fade as to have never existed at all. It is my impression that we only exist in these Earthly forms so that we are truly able to experience the "Heaven" of our soul's rebirth as the warmth and peacefulness of all that has, does, and ever will exist.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No     

Did you become aware of future events?      Uncertain
          The feeling or thought of mystery that plagues the human mind is no longer relevant. I no longer have a curiosity about the who, what, where or how of my existence or place in the big scheme of things.

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?       Yes    I am very much aware of the spirits that surround us in our Earthly existence.

Have you shared this experience with others?        Yes    I initially told everyone from friends to family, but soon kept it to myself instead of trying to persuade the skeptic in everyone. Again, there are no human words or descriptions to convey this experience. Of all the typing I've done today I feel as though I've told you nothing.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes    Yes, but often as the skeptic. I still think there are people that have intentionally fabricated this type of experience. For whatever reasons they may have, there is no way to convincingly fabricate this happening.

How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:   Experience was definitely real   The transition from Earthly plane to the next evokes sensations that humans are simply not capable of. Death is the only way to comprehend the whole sum of everything that exists. However some of us are able to accidentally make this transition only to return can't possibly be the way it was intended to be.

Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you? The entire process altered my being.

How do you currently view the reality of your experience:          Experience was definitely real         Again, Human beings regardless of their depth of character or emotions are simply not capable of producing this experience in their thoughts, dreams, fantasies, etc.

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?          Yes    I am able to feel the relationships that I have with others in ways I'd never done before. I can feel a sense of love and understanding for everyone in knowing that we are all alive in each other. Existence breathes collectively outside the confines of this life.

Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience? No     

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?    No         

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?       If I had hand written this in blood on tear stained paper I could still never tell the experience from my Earthly heart.

Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes    I responded to the extent of my ability.

Are there any other questions we could ask to help you communicate your experience? none that I can think of.