Robert B Probable NDE

EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION:

I drifted out of my body and suddenly was pulled thought a tunnel of light. I passed thought it in less than the blink of an eye. Suddenly I was floating in a dark warm safe place. I heard voices from beneath me and could see titans doing what I could not see. They were speaking a strange language and bathed in orange light. Somehow I knew them and felt safe with them. On my left there was a woman floating like I was I could not see her head or hands and she was clothed in robes that had the colors of the earth and more in them. After being there for a long time I looked at her and wondered what she would feel like in my arms. She then let me see some of what she was. I had no idea such power could exist. In the terror that only a child can feel I began to fall downward streaming and clawing at the air. I saw that if she ever made a mistake with her hidden tasks I could be destroyed even in soul worlds could cease to be with a small mistake on her part. I saw her hand far below form and as I got closer I could see her fingerprints were mountains. trees and snow covered them as I neared all I could see was the landscape. Suddenly I was stopped and suspended above the ground her finger appeared above me and she began filling me with something that I couldn't identify. It was overwhelmingly wonderful but soon I felt as if I would burst and became frightened. Then it stopped I after much thought identified what she was filling me up with was tenderness.                                                                        

I am a creature of guilt if someone falls down near me it was my fault as I should have moved faster to help them. She knew that. I began to see every act of mine that helped another. First thought my own eyes many of which I had long forgotten and nothings. Then from inside the person or animal that I had helped. Then through all of the others that had been helped by each act. It was amazing everyone saw the world differently some aw color better than I some worse some strangely. I noticed hearing was also different in was hard to put into words. There was even a difference in taste in each mouth. It was astonishing to be in another person as them. Some were so small and fragile and I could feel their fears see their entire lives if I wished as I relived the act that helped them. It made the best sex that I had ever had seem like a loose handshake from a sweaty fat man. Many traumatic events in my life were seen and understood. When all was seen I was again filled by this Goddess with tenderness until I again nearly burst and was told, "That ever act of kindness matters" Before I was sent back I asked how long was I here and is this was it would be like for everyone else. I was told that I was there for 7 years and that each person would see only what they could understand when they came to her. Some would see her as Jesus some their fathers or moms every imaginable deity as well.

All that mattered was that they be changed and completed made new. I was shot back thought the tunnel and saw a dark husk beneath me. A bit of a conflict was going on Then I realized the dark husk was my body. Dead. The woman that was assisting my surgeon pushed him aside and reached into me as I reentered my body. The pain was tremendous I could feel the rubber and even the hair on her arm as burning razors. The anesthetic finally got me. I heard a woman complaining even yelling and realized that it was about me. " What is wrong with him they brought him here hours ago and he is scanning everything he's out cold and scanning everything. No one can by him I tried others tried what's wrong with him? I realized that I was not really in my body I could hear it thinking that since it couldn't get up how could it protect anyone. Maybe it could lure another to attack me and use the IV to hurt them to protect the others. I had spent a lifetime training and protecting others and my body was grimly on duty. My soul was in rapture overwhelmed with joy. I entered my body looked at the nurse and she looked very embarrassed.

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Uncertain      I was dead for 1 minute 47 seconds yet was on the border to the other side for 7 years. I cannot remember all of it yet still become very emotional when discussing it. It was not what I had expected and more than I could have believed possible.

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Yes     Minor surgery that went bad.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    When I was in the people that I had helped.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?    More consciousness and alertness than normal

If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain:            When I was in the people that I had helped.

Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?  Yes     I could see anything and colors that I could not describe as well.

Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?            Yes    

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Yes

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            Terror, bliss, joy , sorrow, wonder, extreme happiness, Love and tenderness

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?          Yes     It was very fast and appeared not to matter.

Did you see a light?           Yes     Light from below and from every being and object near me.

Did you meet or see any other beings?           Yes    

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?    Yes     I am no longer a creature of guilt. I feel peace in bad situations and feel less pain regarding the death of loved ones.

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          Yes     The operating room scene and the woman (Goddess) that for some reason helped and taught me for so long, I found that she was know to others as the Utterer ; she who uttered forth creation the Goddess to some and she is always seen without hands or head as the Utterer according to R.J. Stewart.

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?            Uncertain     

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Yes     Time was much faster there when compared to our time. It also was irrelevant.

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?     Uncertain           

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Uncertain      I was controlled.

Did you become aware of future events?       No           

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?     Yes     I am much more empathic.

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes     about a month later as I tried to put it al together first.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?    Yes     I heard that people experience a tunnel light and past life review but thought it was all crap.

How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:            Experience was definitely real    With wonder.

Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you?    It was overwhelming and wonderful.

How do you currently view the reality of your experience:            Experience was definitely real   

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?           Yes    

Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?            Yes     They have become much deeper.

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         Yes     Trance and deep meditation.           

Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?         Yes