Rick R's Possible NDE

EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION:

I don't know how I got there but I stood in a huge hall.  I could see the forms of people standing around me.  I could not see their faces but it seemed like I knew them.  I sensed this.  The people around me were more like shadow people.  I could see their silhouettes.  It seemed like I was not “allowed” to see them, directly.  The most usual thing about where I was, is that the ceiling was THE NIGHT SKY, with brilliant stars.  The floor was like polished marble.  Then he comes into the hall and walks straight up to me.  I hear him say, "hello, I am the Son of God."  From here on out I cannot remember anything else.  It is like every thing just cuts off right there. 

He was about 5-10 to 6-0 tall, he had shoulder length brown hair and had a dark complexion.  He has blue eyes, and a short beard.  His skin is dark in complexion, with a kind of olive color to it.  He was wearing a white robe with some kind of a belt or sash around his waist.  I could not see his feet.  He was smiling at me when he walked up to me.   I can’t remember seeing his lips move, but I heard the words.

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? No       The only problem I have had is trying to determine if this was some kind of a dream or not.  It was so vivid and undream-like, plus the fact that I nearly always forget dreams and this one stuck just like I really was there.

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          No       I was having my torn ACL repaired.  I woke up and went home.  No problems.  But in the months afterward I began to have flash backs of me being there.  I have often thought I am going crazy.  I am embarrassed to discuss it even with my wife.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    What little time there is I was wide awake and very alert.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?    Normal consciousness and alertness

            What little time there is I was wide awake and very alert.

Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?  Yes     I could see people standing around me but I couldn't see their faces.  I could clearly see the room, and him.

Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
            No       The only thing I could heard was his voice.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Uncertain

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            Wonder

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?          Uncertain      I don't know how I got there

Did you see a light?           No       the light in the room came from the stars in ceiling.

Did you meet or see any other beings?           Yes     The Son of God

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?    No      

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No      

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?            Yes     The hall I was in was pretty darn unusual.  When I describe the “hall” having a ceiling, it was really not a ceiling like we have here.  It was “the night sky” and not like what you see now looking up at night.  The stars were brilliant, bright enough to clearly see everything (except the people.)  The closest thing I can think of to describe it would be like if you were on the international space-station with a glass dome over your head looking out at the stars.  Now get rid of the glass and leave space and the stars.  That’s it.

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Uncertain     

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?     No      

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No       I was just there in the room.  I can't explain how I got there or how I got back.

Did you become aware of future events?       No           

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?     Uncertain      The only thing I have noticed is that I can tell when someone is lying to me.  It is like a lie alarm goes off in my head.

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes     The only one I have felt comfortable enough to tell is my brother.  I haven't even been able to bring myself to tell my wife.  I thought I was going nuts for a while.  He kids me about it and I halfway wished I kept my mouth shut,  but all in all I can now talk to someone about it.  He hasn't been influenced by it one way or another.  He thinks something happened to me but he still kids me.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?    Yes     I have heard of it before but until this happened I have never given it much thought.  I have been reading everything I can get my hands on since then.  Read Moody's book and several others.  I have run across only one other NDE that kind of resembled mine.  Some of the ones I have read I find rather hard to swallow, but I am trying not to judge someone trying to describe the indescribable.

How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:            Experience was probably real    At first I thought it was a dream.  Then the picture of it in my mind, the vividness of it, the clarity of it, just will not let be believe it was a dream.  I have had flash backs of it.  These began several months after the operation.

Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you?    I wish I could remember more.  I would really like to know why I was there.

How do you currently view the reality of your experience:            Experience was probably real            The room and He were crystal clear real.  The only thing that did not seem real were the people around me and not being able to see their faces.

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?           Yes     The only thing I have noticed is that I now have this desire to teach.  I take young adults under my wing and help them every way I can.  I have found jobs for them.  Council them.  Show them what I know.  Even my hardheaded son has started listening to me, especially when I told him the secret to being happy in this world.  The secret to finding happiness to in helping others.  There is an endless supply out there.  The look on his face was priceless.

Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?            No            Nope, I didn't need to see him to know he was there.  I have always believed in him.

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No       I have never tried any drugs.

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?        I must be nuts doing this form.  But here it is anyway.

Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?         No      


Addendum:

I never gave much thought to NDEs and being somewhat of a cynic, thought they were just stories made up by people who were having hallucinations.  That was until I had an experience myself (I have already filled out your form.)  Since then I have been doing extensive reading on the subject and find your site very helpful in trying to deal with mine.  If I am some kind of a nut, then I have a lot of company.  I have been doing a lot of reflecting on my life, trying to remember what has happened to me during my 55 years here. 

What I am writing you about is the two times in my life when I was directly contacted by my guardian angel.  I have never thought much about it until now.  And as I have reflected, I have thanked him continually for saving my life, twice.  The first time was when I was a stupid, foolish teenager.  I had just dropped off a friend at his house and it was very late, about 1 am.  I was speeding down a residential street, doing about 60 in a 30 mph zone.  There was an intersection on this street that did not have stop signs for either direction.  I foolishly decided to cross that intersection at full speed.  I was almost into the intersection when there was a male voice, screaming in my head, “STOP!!”  I immediately slammed on the brakes and locked up the wheels.  Just then, another car streaked across in front of me.  I wound up sideways in the street, almost in someone’s front lawn.  I sat there a minute composing myself, shaking and trying to wipe up the urine from my jeans.  I very carefully engaged the clutch and drove home the rest of the away like a model citizen.  Without his intervention, I would have been “T-Boned” and dead as a door nail. 

The second time came when I was 40 years old.  My wife had left me.  I was in a deep dark malaise, contemplating suicide, taking anti-depressants, and just off the most horrible phone call fight with her in my life.  As I hung up the phone, I totally lost it, balling my eyes out and praying to God that I might have my life back.  I can never, ever remember a prayer to him with more earnest fervor.  After about thirty minutes of prayer I said my, “amen.”  Then once again, the male voice came into my head.  He said these words.  “Okay, now get a hold of yourself and straighten up.  Things will get better.”  To make a very long drawn out story short, my wife and I just had our 33^rd anniversary.  This time was not so deadly of circumstances, but ever so important for me this time of my life. 

Neither time did I even wonder whose voice that it was in my head.  I just accepted it and went on like this is completely normal.   And, just now while reading some of the accounts of NDEs where people have interacted with their guardians, that I remembered what has happened to me.  I have never told anyone about this for fear of being locked up for hearing “voices.”  Woooo!!  But now, after my encounter with the man himself, this made perfect sense.  So, if they want to lock me up then so be it.