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Richard T's NDE |
EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION:
A CURIOUS INTERMISSION
SO MUCH AM I COMPELLED TO SAY
‘ERE THE TURN OF A COLD MARKED DAY,
YET, WHY SHOULD I SAY ALL THIS
WHEN I’LL NOT CARE OF WHAT AFTER IS?
FOR I AS A CHILD, WAS ONCE THERE
LOOKING BACK AT ALL WITH JUST A STARE.
NO THOUGHTS, NO CRIES, NO HEART FELT PAIN,..
JUST A SILLY HUMANS GAME.
THE PREACHER, HE, JUST CLOSED THE BOOK
AND GAZED AT ME WITH A SOLEMN LOOK,
TEARS HE COULD NO LONGER HIDE
RAN DOWN HIS CHEEKS, AS I DIED.
WHY? THOUGHT I, DID THEY ALL CRY?
WERE THEY SORRY FOR MY LOSS OF LIFE?
OH, WELL. SAY’S I, TO ME, MYSELF
AS I FLOATED OUT T’WEEN WALL AND SHELF.
SO STRANGE, THINK I, SO CURIOUSLY,
AS I LOOK BACK AT THE SPIRIT ME,
NO QUESTIONS THEN, NO NEEDS YOU SEE,
WHEN YOU ENTER WHERE NO OTHERS BE.
UP INTO CEILING BETWEEN THE FLOORS
NO DOCTORS, NURSES, NOR CARES NO MORE.
I COULD SEE THE GIRDERS GRAY WITH DUST
ALL IN A DARKNESS THAT ONE COULD TRUST.
I TURNED AND KNEW A TUNNEL BLACK,
SHOULD I ENTER? OR, NOW TURN BACK?
ALIKE THE CORD I KNEW AT BIRTH,
QUITE HESITANT; A BIT, AT FIRST.
FEET FIRST I WENT THEN DOWN INSIDE
A WHOLE LOT LIKE A TUNNEL SLIDE,
DOWN ON DOWN I SLOWLY MOVED
AFLOAT INSIDE THE CENTER TUBE.
HANDS AND FEET AGAINST IT’S SIDES
I THOUGHT MIGHT STOP MY FLOATING GLIDE.
YET, STILL FASTER DID GO I,
NO FRICTION MET ON EITHER SIDE.
‘THOUGH ALL WAS DARK, NO SIGHTS THERE SEEN,
ALL FEAR OF PAIN WENT OUT OF ME.
MY TRAVERSE THEN SLOWED AND LEVELED OUT
A LIGHT WAS SEEN REMOVING DOUBT.
FOR THIS TUNNEL HAD AN END IN STORE
IT’S AT THE MIDDLE OF ALL LIFES’ CORE.
SO QUICKLY THEN I ENTERED SPACE
A LOVE LIGHT GLOWING AT A GENTLER PACE.
THE BRIGHTEST LIGHT WITH A GOLDEN HUE
WAS SURROUND ME THERE AND FILLED ME TOO.
SUSPENDED LIFE; A CONSCIENCE NEW,
JOINED ME THERE, JUST US TWO.
NO PONDERED QUESTIONS OF MY COURSE
FOR I WAS WITH ALL LIFE’S FORCE.
THE CENTER OF NO DIMENSION SHOWN
WAS ASKING ME OF ALL I’D KNOWN.
FIRST HE ASKED IN A TRANSFERRED THOUGHT
TO RECALL ALL SORROW FROM THE LIFE I’D LOST.
AND WE TWO SHARED FOR A MOMENT THEN
AS WOULD SECRETS PASS BETWEEN TWO FRIENDS.
THEN "LET IT GO" HE SAID TO ME
SO THAT HE COULD SHARE HIS INNER PEACE.
HIS LIGHT SURROUND, IT TURNED WARM GOLD
AS HIS LOVE FOR ME WAS THEN FULL SHOWN.
HE NEXT THEN ASKED TO RECALL ALL JOY
I HAD KNOWN ‘TIL THEN AS A LITTLE BOY.
A WARMTH OF CHILDHOOD MEMORIES DEAR,
FILLED ME SO TO BRING FORTH TEARS.
AT THIS HE SMILED WHILST I SHARED ALONE
FOR THIS HE SURELY, HAD ALWAYS KNOWN.
HIS NEXT PURE THOUGHT FROM HIM TO ME?
A BALANCE FOR THE WHOLE OF THEE.
AT THIS THOUGHT WE SHARED NO GLAD,
FOR THE BALANCE SHOWED SO MUCH MORE SAD.
OF LIFE? WELL, THEN, WHAT DO YOU THINK?
WAS THE LAST HE EVER ASKED YOU SEE.
NO ANSWER DID I HAVE JUST THEN,
SO, BACK TO LIFE, I WENT AGAIN.
HIS PARTING THOUGHTS, THEY CAME TO ME,
AND HAVE ALWAYS BEEN A MYSTERY,..
“YOUR LIFE’S NOT DONE, YOU’VE A PURPOSE STILL,
A MISSION YOU’RE ON, YOU’VE YET TO FILL.”
Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words?
YES and the reasons are many. First? Nobody wants to hear it and when you
stumble across somebody who's open minded enough to listen there are aspects of
the spatial dimension of the spirit side that no language on earth can
accurately define or convey to those who haven't been there. Time and place is
the hardest concept to let go of or explain not having. Still, words are not so
much what makes describing an OOBE, a NDE or a NPDE (Near Permanent Death
Experience) as I went through so impossible, it's the field of science we're all
taught to think within that tosses up the barriers. Such experiences,
notwithstanding all others such as precognitive night and day dreams, visions
and astral travel, just aren't the kind of things science can slap in a jar,
label and put on a shelf for later study and review. If you haven't experienced
such, you're forced to "believe" those that have and the aforementioned too
often conflicts with other belief and faith systems already held. So, we learn,
we're even forced and coerced to keep it to ourselves.
At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?
Yes. I entered the hospital 16FEB1965 at 8.5 years old because I kept passing
out and didn't have the strength to walk more than a few steps without having to
lay down where I was and sleep to regain strength enough to walk a few feet
more. I was acutely anemic. My bone marrow stopped reproducing new red cells,
continued to decay from the inside out. After 11 days of IV-ing donated blood
and running every test they could think of to no avail, it was decided less
cruel to remove the IV and let me go as I wasn't responding to anything and the
hope for survival had run every course beyond all prayers. On 27FEB1965, the
other kids in my room were removed, my family came in one at a time to say
good-bye, the IV was removed and the hospital Chaplin came in to read me last
rights. He went through the rituals and got half way through Psalm 23 when I
died and left my body at which time sound stopped and telepathy took its
place.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of
consciousness and alertness? When I exited the dark tunnel into a blinding white light and
our Creator approached me while answering every question I began to have with a
single telepathic thought from Him to me which was a complete restoration of ALL
knowledge. This transfer of thought/downloading of His knowledge to me allowed
us both to move on to the questions He had about my life and life in general.
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience
compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness? The
difference is pretty much the same between being dead asleep and wide awake.
Conscious life is like being dead asleep. We're aware of nothing but fleeting
glimpses of elusive knowledge in waking life. One the other side, all the
knowledge we had before life is restored and you suddenly fill stupid after it
is restored that you had any questions at all.
If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was
different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please
explain:
When I exited the dark tunnel, came into His Light and our Creator approached me
while at the same time answering every question I began to have with a single
telepathic thought from Him to me which was that complete restoration of all
knowledge. This transfer of thought/downloading of His knowledge to me allowed
us both to move on to the questions He had about my life and life in general.
Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any
aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception
degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)? Vision?
That's a real slippery term; an earthbound reality that doesn't compare or
translate well although you do continue to sense the physical environment you
died in until you pass thru the dark tunnel that leaves all that behind. When I
came out of the dark tunnel into the blinding light, all perceptions and senses
changed. I was inside (and sensed more than saw) the spatial shape of a huge egg
when I became aware of another consciousness approaching me from 12 to 1 o'clock
in front and slightly above and to their right of me. As this consciousness came
closer and closer He transferred a telepathic thought that told me 3 things at
once. That He was the creator of all life's force and there was no doubt
whatsoever that He was a He. His command was very loving and gentle, "Be at
Peace." (The Egg Space I found myself in can be experienced by anyone who visits
the Corning Museum of Glass at Corning, New York. They have recreated an exact
full size replica that's hangs from the museum ceiling which can be entered
via a skywalk. I was stunned by it's exactness when I first saw and went into
it. The only difference is the visible structural ribbing inside and that it's
black glass not white.)
Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any
aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness,
etc.)?
Yes What sound? It was completely silent. All communication with
Him (who most call God) was telepathic not audible and thus there was no room
for misunderstandings. Me? I haven't used the tiny term of "God" much since.
It's way too small a word with too little meaning.
Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?
Yes. While the Chaplin was reading Psalm 23 my soul began to rock side to side
within my body much like a boat upon slow, gentle swells. It then sank slightly
below my body into the hospital bed before it began to rise up, out, away and
completely disconnected from my body. I was wide awake and a tad confused that I
was floating through the air, over the right shoulder of the Chaplin who had
begun to cry and towards the ceiling and corner of the room. As I wondered why
he was crying I suddenly realized that I was headed for that solid corner like a
balloon and wondered what was going to happen when I hit it. Much to my
surprise, I wasn't surprised that I passed right through it and drifted in the
the dark crawl space between the ceiling and the roof or floor above my room.
What emotions did you feel during the experience?
Pure wonder, complete absence of life's concerns, love, sorrow and
peace; all depending on the moment and/or review of questions during telepathic
conversation and mind share I had with our creator.
Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?
Yes The dark tunnel IS THE PASSAGEWAY that separated all I saw and knew of
the physical hospital where my life ended and what I experienced after I came
out of the tunnel into the light. Science can go back and review the floor plans
of the hospital and the medical records up until 27FEB1965 but, that's where the
rest has to be accepted on my word alone and the words of others who've had
similar experiences. And I really must insist "similar experiences" as while
there may be similarities, I've found no two exactly alike. Most say this was a
NDE, while I insist mine wasn't. I was dead and damned near stayed dead. Had I
answered His last question as I would today, I wouldn't be writing this.
Did you see a light? Yes Here's where vision and mind and the English
language throw up walls that are extremely hard to overcome using a 26 character
alphabet with very limited terms of expression. At the end of the dark tunnel I
exited into a blinding white egg shaped space and hovered there in this space
being aware that the tunnel opening I'd just come thru was still to my right
side. I was also aware of my body/spirit shape but, never looked down at it. I
was surprised that although the light surround me was like looking directly into
the sun, I didn't at all have to squint my eyes because of it. I was thinking
that rather odd when I became aware of another consciousness approaching me from
above, in front and slightly to the right of my mind. The closer He got the more
I KNEW who He was. As I looked towards this approaching consciousness it had the
shape of a sphere of intense consciousness and mind and can only be described by
saying He looked exactly like what we see when we look at the Sun without
sunglasses. God? Jesus? I immediately threw those titles out the damn window. He
doesn't know of them nor use them to refer to Himself. "Creator of all life's
force" is the thought He sent forth to remind me who He is. Another way of
looking at it? If left alone on a desert island for 8 years you'd probably have
to be reminded of who your Father was when you got back home. It's much the
same.
Did you meet or see any other beings? Just the creator of all life's force which most others
call God. At the risk of repeating myself, I still find that three letter word
too small, insignificant and all religious definitions of Him very misleading.
Did you experience a review of past events in your life?
Yes but, I never saw a video or imagery review of my life as others often claim
and think their explanations are simply a very poor attempt to explain what did
occur. The center of all life's force doesn't use Sony video recorders or DVD's
to play back the significant events of anyone's life. I refuse to buy that
such accounts can compare with a NPDE. I think those people came "close" to
death "dreamed" and/or "invisioned" about such events but, I don't believe they
were actually on the other side of life or, like myself, they would never say
such things nor define it using religious terms. All the religious dogma I was
taught went right out the window as if it never existed once face to face or
spirit to spirit with our creator. And this is why very few religions on earth
will acknowledge such events. They'd be bankrupt in a heartbeat if everyone knew
the truth. Most every church, temple, mosque and synagogue on this planet would
be in ruins and ignored if all knew the truth about life and the afterlife. Most
would want every dime back they ever donated.
As
for what does occur? He simply asks, "Recall all sorrow." And He means
everything you know of that you did that hurt others and everything you didn't
realize hurt others; ALL OF IT. And at that command, your heart within your
spirit begins to slowly swell like a water balloon. As it swells the pain in
your heart increases until it becomes overwhelming and the fear of
it exploding thus banishing the remnants of your soul to all corners of the
universe and beyond begins to increase with the pain. I was lucky. When He had
seen enough and knew where allowing it to increase would go, He commanded me to
"Let it go" and "Be at Peace." And suddenly the swelling pain stopped, reversed
and relaxed again to neutral. He then surrounded and washed my soul with His
"Love Light Glowing at a Gentler Pace" the essence of which took on a more
golden hue. He had seen quite enough and so had I. His next pure thought?
"Recall all Joy." The same swelling in my heart occurred which accounted for all
the love, joy and happiness I had experienced during the 8 years of life I had
lived. There was no video replay, just the pure essence of all joy opposite of
the pure essence of all feelings of sorrow. At this He didn't ask me to stop
because it never became too intense. And a sustained moment later He again
commanded me to "Let it Go", and "Be at Peace." And again He washed and cleansed
my soul in His love light until I was at neutral again. He then asked, "Balance
the two." Balance the measure of joy against the measure of sorrow. That was an
instant no-brainer. There was so much more sad as I suspect is true with
everyone. Love and Joy during physical life is such a fleeting and elusive
nectar whilst sorrow is so much so more ever present. I think we all answer that
balance question the same yet, he had a final question. "Of Life; what do you
think?" My reply then? I shrugged in thought, "How would I know; I was only 8."
(What could I know?) He thought about that honest answer a moment then replied
with His own conclusion, "Your life's not done. You've a purpose still. A
mission you're on you've yet to fill." I awoke back in my body as the car I was
sleeping in the back seat of bounced over the gutter into our driveway far from
the time and place of the hospital room I died and never regained consciousness
in. And this is where it gets real confusing. I have very vivid memories of
every day in that hospital; of every child I shared that room with and every
test they ran on me from spinal taps to bone marrow extractions until the day I
died. I KNOW did not recover in that nor any other hospital. When I returned to
life and full consciousness, the first thing I saw was our crab apple tree
beside the driveway; it was in full bloom which never occurred in February.
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your
experience that could be verified later? YES!!! I can explain what happened in my hospital room
after the life support IV was removed, what the nurse who disconnected it said
when she thought I was already dead and no one else was in the room. Her words?
"This is going to hurt you a lot more than it is me!" She seemed to be glad that
she was allowed to pull the IV that ended my life. I can also describe exactly
what the preacher did as he performed last rights over me including at what
point in Psalm 23 he stooped reading and began to cry as I floated out of my
body past, above and behind him. A tear ran down the left side of his face while
I floated behind him which I thought kind of odd seeing how I was behind him
when the tear began. Better still? I have never seen the architectural plans for
the Arden Community Hospital in Carmichael, CA but, I can very accurately draw
the ceiling and roof substructure plans including girders and air conditioning
ducting that exists or existed in the crawl space above room 14 and the hallway
outside it. I floated up and through the corner of the room and found myself in
the sub-roof space over the hallway outside and above my room. It was in this
crawl space lit only by a faint light which seemed to emit from my soul that I
found the opening to the dark tunnel that I traveled feet first thru then into
His blinding white light.
Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or
dimensions? Yes. The beauty I experienced was the acute awareness
and feelings of pure love in which our creator bathed my soul and shared with
me. Of those that claim to have seen mountains and valleys of wildflowers and
fresh running rivers and/or angels and deceased relatives, 72 virgins and rivers
of gold awaiting them? I have a real hard time buying any of that. Those who
claim such may have experienced astral projection, had a simple hallucination,
vision, night or daydream that only their religion could help them explain and
so they falsely interpreted what they experienced and/or hope to some day.
Did you have any sense of altered space or time?
Yes Spatial perception was fuzzy but, when cornered on the thought, the
space I met our Creator in, as previously said, was a large egg shaped space
which is exactly, duplicated in full scale size at the Corning Museum of Glass.
Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or
purpose?
Yes ABSOLUTELY. Our Creator telepathically transferred from His mind
to mine All Knowledge so as to answer the 20 trillion questions that began to
rush to the front of my mind as soon as I realized who I was standing before in
spirit form. It's not detailed knowledge we can consciously have while trapped
in a physical body and I'd LOVE to have access to the plane or dimension we were
in that allowed me access to that knowledge again yet, the essence of it
remains. It keeps me from stressing much over anything. Life is much like being
in a deep sleep. Death as most don't know it is a return to full consciousness
and mental aptness though' earthly concerns no longer matter.
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?
No, I passed right through the walls and ceiling as if both didn't have solidity
anymore and they didn't.
Did you become aware of future events? Yes
I have had many precognitive visions, day and reoccurring night
dreams that later played them selves out in exacting detail. Some warned of
danger which I was able to avoid; others of horrific events that couldn't be
avoided such as the passenger jet and small plane collision that took place over
our City of Cerritos while others had little to no importance; just proof that
the script of my life has already been written. As Shakespeare said, "We are all
just actors on a stage" acting out our parts. It's also become very clear in
the decades years since my NPDE that the most powerful and richest people on
this planet seem to have access to the script of my life. While many of them
have approached me for my thoughts on many topics of both insignificantly small
and global events they also seem to be under some horrific threat not to tell me
anything about that which they already know. That my life is being closely
watched and monitored by many great and powerful people has become all too
obvious. Just as obvious as some unspoken instruction they all have NOT to
interfere with my life's path as well. Here's a tidbit. I'm a nobody in the
great scheme of things and never wanted to be. I have zero aspirations to rise
to any level of power over anything or anyone at any time. I'm not a control
freak and abhor those that are. I consider myself an international citizen and
only hold a US Passport because it's the country I was born in NOT the country
I'D prefer to claim as my homeland. I do NOT agree with this countries foreign
policies which are controlled by war caterers and the mega rich who only seek to
get richer. Yet, oddly, back in the late 80s William Randolph Hearst, Jr., one
of the nicest mega rich people I've ever had the pleasure to know asked me who I
thought most deserved the noble peace prize. I said, Mikhail Gorbechov. While
perhaps an easy guess, I was taken aback when he was later named.
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the
experience you did not have prior to the experience?
Yes Precognitive visions which only I had prior now seem to be sharable with
those standing near me and/or with those emotionally attached to me afterwards.
If you don't want to see unexpected visions of future events, stand off and away
from me and/or don't get emotionally attached to me or you might start seeing
things too that you can't explain. It's not a bad thing but, can be scary if you
don't understand what's occurring. I refer to it as both a blessing and a burden
and it's often hard to decide which it is when. An example? There were three
others, Bob, his brother Rick and a mutual friend named Ted who were with
me when we saw the passenger jet explode and fall to the ground over the Los
Angeles area 10 years before it actually happened. We were so convinced that
we'd just witnessed an air crash that we all went home to catch the news to see
why it happened. There was nothing on the news and nothing in the papers the
next day. We were stunned then that no one else had witnessed it and that it
wasn't in the news. How can a passenger jet break up over the Los Angeles area
and then vanish as if it never happened. It didn't make any sense at all until
it happened directly over my neighborhood Ten Years After.
Have you shared this experience with others? Yes but, like most
others, I've learned it's largely a waste of time as it scares most people. It
totally attacks the belief systems they hold and people seem to love their
beliefs no matter how bogus. Me? I don't have to believe in beliefs anymore and
haven't had to since. I know what's true and what isn't. Religion is based in
truths but, quickly shrouds itself again in fanciful stories and mysteries that
have no basis in fact, truth or any meaningful significance. Religion is a
comfortable place of mind for those that really don't want to face the truth.
They're taught they don't need further data so long as they have "faith" in the
things their church tells them regardless of the fact that there are answers to
the questions they ask. Others? The more they get to know me and others with
similar experiences, the further away they seem to need to get. Honesty is a
horrible thing and only an honest person can force others to face honesty.
Haven't met many that can face honesty but, I can be nothing but honest as I
know the pain we face before our creator when we have to face all our dishonesty
at once. I'm not going thru that much pain again and the only way to limit it is
to remain completely honest at all and any cost. And it's been my experience
when you do that a strange thing occurs. You become free of the mental
burdens that dishonesty adds to your life and you become a lie detector machine
of sorts. Quite unintentionally, others seem to be attracted to this. You become
their ground wire; a walking confessional. You'd be shocked at what strangers
have confessed to me capping their horrors with; "I don't know why I'm telling
you this?!! I've never told anyone what I just told you!" Just another part of
why I consider all this both a blessing and a burden. It's part of why I became
a non denominational emergency crisis Chaplin. What I've hear is thus
confidential.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your
experience?
No
How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it
happened: The experience immediately changed everything. The acute
consciousness known on the other side can in no way be compared to waking life
in a human body. The awareness is so much greater on the other side that this
life becomes the dream we wake up from when we leave this body in the junk yard
and are finally free to breathe in spirit form again. Directly after my
experience, I was shunned by everyone I'd previously known. Doors slammed in my
face when I went to visit my friends and was NOT AT ALL encouraged to discuss
where I'd been. I said things that scared ALL adults surround me to death. My
mother reported years later that the first thing I said to my Dad upon returning
is that "God made me His Son too and sent me back." From that statement forward,
my father never again hugged me and that was quite contrary to his affection
before the event. To this day, he still won't touch me and rarely talks deeply
about anything. All contact has been reduced to an occasional rare handshake
which I really thought odd as a child. The experience has taken on more and more
meaning as the years and decades since have passed. I want to know all the
details of what they did with my body while I was on the other side but,
everyone who knows refuses to discuss it as if the answers are too horrid to
contemplate. Even the blind can sense the horror in their minds when I bring the
topic up. The more I get this reaction the more it forces me to ask; what did
you do with my body after I left it? I finally located the doctor whose cared
for me from old bills found after my mother passed away. Three queries have been
sent to him but, he refuses to reply and I know damned well he hasn't forgotten
the 8 year old boy who died under his care when he first became a doctor. My
mother always hated the subject, my father refuses to discuss it and my older
sister becomes frantic when I ask her what happened here on earth while I was on
the other side. She will only say, "You're not suppose to know." So, all I do
know, is that this side of life is the dream. What we call death is an awakening
after a very long restless sleep. My life is anchored to that event and the
further time takes me from it the more significant it becomes. It's far more
real than physical life.
Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or
significant to you?
Oh, YES. All of it changed my life completely after being restored
(resurrected?) to life by our creator. (I have to add the word "resurrected"
because my body was completely destroyed and that's the only English word that
defines being raised from the dead and restored to life after the body has
decayed.) The answers religion stuffed in my head suddenly became absurd. It was
quite obvious afterwards that no religion on earth had the first clue and they
don't want to look at the truth where it can be had. They vehemently ignore
those of us who know the truth in exchange for the cash they get from pretending
they know all the answers they can't possibly know. Quite simply, their answers
prove they know nothing. And while most religious people are of very good
intention, heart and soul; those that design the religions they adhere or claim
to adhere to are, in my opinion, not. For me, its quite possible to have a very
close understanding of or relationship with our Creator without giving a middle
man 10% of your pay each week. For those seeking reality based answers, you're
going to discover more of them by combing through websites like this than by
memorizing and religious books.
How do you currently view the reality of your experience: My
experience was definitely real. It was a "Zoogle" times more real than the
keyboard I'm staring at as I type right now. (A Google is the number one
followed by a million zero's. To explain a Zoogle (infinity) mathematically, I
had to run to the end of our alphabet to the letter Z and coin the term Zoogle.
A Zoogle is the number one followed by an infinite number of zero's. 'Got a
mathematician who wants to express a Zoogle in writing? Have them start writing
it out and we'll check in on how they're doing a Zoogle eon's from now, eh?
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes. Sadly, I've
never met a girl than can keep up with me mentally and it's not
that I'm smarter than every woman out there; I just don't think the same as
anyone else. I don't think I'm alone though. For those that have been on the
other side and back, life is forever changed. It's extremely difficult to
talk deeply with others without the profound changes it has had on your
thinking coming up and altering the conversation in a direction no one can or
wants to follow. I have discussed this with some but, find most just roll their
eyes and say, yeah, I've heard of that but, don't believe in it. To which I
often say, well, put it this way. If a UFO landed in your backyard and you went
up and kicked the tires, talked with the aliens who came out to ask why you were
kicking their spaceship and then they flew off before you could call your
friends or take pictures, you'd no longer have to "believe" in UFO's and those
that fly them. You'd KNOW they're real but, everyone you told would have to
"believe" you. You'd know "for sure, for sure" but, they never would unless the
same happened to them. It's much the same with this topic albeit, astral
projection, visions, precognitive and sometimes recurring night or day dreams,
NDE's or, as I insist mine was, NPDE's.
Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes. I've shrugged off religion immediately after. I found that what they tried teaching me about heaven and hell wasn't true at all. The Creator never asked me what brand of religion I was reared with. He never asked if I knew and accepted some guy named Jesus as my savior. Religion was most remarkably absent from both our concerns and it has remained absent from my life since. And I don't miss it. I don't "need" it. I do accept and quote often the good thoughts each religion has to offer but, I'd adhere to none of them. The ever present reminder that one day I'm going to be forced again to review the pains and sorrows of my life forces me to keep them as few as humanely possible until then. It was tough enough after just 8.5 years but, at least since, I've been armed with the kinds of things I'll have to face when I die again and don't get sent back. In light of that thought? If I've offended your beliefs, expectations or accumulated knowledge herein, I apologize for that but, it was not intentional. Much as I hate to say it, for those that haven't had such an experience this is like a religion which means you have to believe it's true without knowing it is. Thus, this is a religion of sorts but, it's based on events that have verifiable points in today's world. It's not something you can't research because it happened 2000 years ago and no evidence remains.
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life,
medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
No. Only death again will produce the same experience and when that occurs, I'm
going to tell Him what I thought of having to come back! If He skips to the
question, Well, Of life? What do you think? I'm going to tell Him straight up,
"You want to know what life's like? How about you go back and pick mine up,
whilst I stay here and check people in. And O, by the way? When you come back, I
won't bother to ask you what you thought of it! Boy, did I screw up by saying,
"I don't know, I was only 8." Now I have to go through death a second time. Not
that death is painful, it isn't. It's actually quite pleasant but, you can't go
around telling people how pleasant it is or everyone would rush to experience
it. And that may be why it's so hard to describe. Maybe He doesn't want those
that know telling others?
Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?
Hold an annual seminar in which others like myself are the speakers with an
audience of those who aren't afraid of the answers they'll get to their
questions.
Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and
comprehensively describe your experience? That's
a tough question. There isn't enough time in any life span to accurately explain
all that changes during and after such an event. There are simply those that
know and those that don't; those that think they know and those that will always
want to know more and refuse to stop asking questions no matter how many
different answers they get. The questions and answers are as infinite as the
expanse of the universe. But, if you mean, should you add more Q's to this web
form? No, yours is as complete as any I've visited. For those websites that ask
have you ever been in a mental institution? That's common of those that don't
answer questions "normally." And if you've had a NDE or NPDE as I have, you'll
NEVER answer questions "normally" again. The real question? Did they find any
reason to keep you in a mental hospital? To that question, my answer is NEVER. I
have amazed many shrinks in my time by answering their mental tests in a manner
that went far beyond all previous respondents and walked out leaving them
pondering their life's career choice. I've done the same with police, attorney's
and judges too. None of them want any part of arguing with me in a formal
environment but, trust me, their lives were all significantly changed after
talking with me on and "off the record."
And I still insist there's a HUGE difference between NDE's and the NPDE experience I went through. I did die. I did not recover in that hospital before returning home and there's a huge chunk of missing time between dying in that hospital 27 February 1965 and returning home near 22 March 1965. As said I have very conscious memory of every day in that hospital and the days leading up to death. But, of the 3-4 weeks that followed until I regained consciousness at home; my mind is blank as if it has been erased. Weird stuff. Just weird.
Are there any other questions we could ask to help you communicate your experience? Yes! Ask the question, Would you be willing to speak and answer audience questions at a conference about such experiences?