Rica S's NDE

Experience description: 

      My husband and I were living in Florida by his family.  My father called and said he needed me to come home and help him.  (He was dying of cancer)  Since my husband of 14 years had a "girlfriend", I left on the next plane.  After several months of staying in a very small trailer and taking care of my Dad, depression set in very bad.  My brother had come and taken my Dad to Tennessee to stay with him for the weekend.  I couldn't take it any longer.  I took 90 tablet. I was crying and yelled at God to forgive me.  I called the hospital ER after about 15 minutes and asked them if that amount would be fatal.  The lady started asking me questions.  I told her I didn't want her involved.  But in the meantime, I guess she traced the call. 

After the tunnel experience, I woke up in the hospital and new exactly that it was 2 days later.  I even knew the day of the week.  The Dr. came in and told me that by all rights I should not be here, that I had taken enough medication to kill 10 grown men.  He said I had been "dead" for 45 minutes and in a coma for 2 days. 

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience:  Yes

      Explanation:  Took overdose

Was the experience difficult to express in words?  Yes

      What was it about the experience that makes it hard to communicate?  I can not find the right words to describe very much after the tunnel.  It was just so beautiful, feelings of peace and love and the "fullness of moisture" of everything. (Not the right words)

At the time of the experience, was there an associated life threatening event?  Yes

      Describe:  I had taken a months supply of my fathers antidepressant medication.  He was dying of cancer and I was the only one to care for him. 

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?  Total alertness.

Was the experience dream like in any way?  No way at all.  No one can ever convince me it was a dream.

Did you experience a separation of consciousness from your body?  Yes

Describe your appearance or form apart from your body:  So hard to explain.  There was just not a solid body.

What emotions did you feel during the experience?  During the tunnel, a feeling of such love and peace.  Total lack of bad emotion.

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?  At first, a swooshing sound. 

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?  Yes

      Describe:  It was a gliding feeling.  A fast glide. 

Did you see a light?  Yes

      Describe:  Indescribable 

Did you meet or see any other beings?  Yes

      Describe:  They were at the end of the tunnel.  I did not know him.  He had long white hair and a long white beard.  I can not remember a lot of the conversation.  I have thought of being hypnotized so that I could remember, but mainly he said "You HAVE to go back".  As soon as he said it, I regained consciousness. 

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?  No

      Describe:  Oh, yes.  What you answer for when you die is not what the Preachers preach.  It is "What have you done to help your fellow man". 

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?  No 

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?  Yes

      Describe:  It was a "scene" with trees and flowers and it was full of "moisture".  So peaceful. 

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?  Yes

      Describe:  I'm not real sure what you mean by this 

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?  No 

Did you become aware of future events?  No 

Were you involved in or aware of a decision to return to the body?  Yes 

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?  No 

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?  Yes 

Has the experience affected your relationships?  Daily life?  Religious practices etc.?  Career choices?  Yes. 

Have you shared this experience with others?  Yes

      Describe:  Very few.  People think you're nuts. 

What was the best and worst part of your experience?  Coming back was the worse part.

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?  I learned that a person can not go back if they take their own life or anyone else's. 

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?  Yes 

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?  No

      Describe:  I think about it a lot at night when I'm going to sleep, but it can not be "reproduced". 

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?  Yes 

Please offer any suggestions you have to improve the www.nderf.org questionnaire?  Make it shorter.  I've tried 3 times to complete this before someone came in the room wanting to know what I was doing and looking at me like I had lost my mind.