EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION:
Much of the auto accident is blurry. Flashes of white surround me
as paramedics try to get me out of the vehicle, and voices. I am in pain, then
out of pain in darkness. There is a time when I am in darkness, floating in
something like fluid with red curves around it. I am content and relaxed just
floating. There are other people around me, just floating, just as content.
Then I hear voices again of people asking me questions, probably in the
emergency room.
I am unconscious again
in darkness, then I awaken in a large "void" gray area. Muted light seems to be
coming from above me, but there is no source. I am floating above other people,
in an upright position. There are people above me and below me, vertically, and
as I look directionally right down the row of people, there seem to be thousands
upon thousands in the same formation. We are all silent. At the moment of
awakening, there seems to be a feeling of something being pulled back or
"peeled" from my eyes and face. I reach down to touch the person below me and
to my left. She has red hair. I want to ask her where I am. As I reach down,
I am called.
At first, the man in front of me is approximately 30 feet away from me. He
appears to be flooded with white light in a white suit, bald, with extremely
white teeth. He floats me out of formation, then in front of him. He is not in
a white suit, but he "glowing". Inner light is flowing out all round him. He
has extremely blue eyes. I am so happy to see him! I know him and he knows
me. I cannot recollect who he is now. I hug him and tell him I miss him. He
tells me it is not my time. I disagree! I see a line of people going through a
dark tear in the fabric of the void and a man stares at me. In fact, there are
other people milling about on the "floor" who have very puzzled looks on their
faces, which are slightly blurred to me. I am puzzled too. I want to go where
the other people are going, but again, I am told it is not my time. I point
again to where the people are going. The man points to the upper right corner
of the void and I am suddenly back in my body. I know I am there because there
is someone telling me, "You scared me to death! Don't you ever do that to me
again". I awoke to find myself in a CT scan. I don't know for sure, but it
must have been the x-ray tech and my brain scan must have flat-lined! After
that, I was back. In pain, but back. What does it all mean? Why didn't I see
the light?
Was
the kind of experience difficult to express in words?
No
At
the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?
Yes Auto accident
At
what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness
and alertness?
When I was reaching down for the lady with red hair. When I was talking to the
man.
How
did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience
compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?
Less consciousness and alertness than normal
If
your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was
different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please
explain:
When I was reaching down for the lady with red hair. When I was talking to the
man.
Did
your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect,
such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of
solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?
Yes Blurriness and brightness. Tunnel-vision.
Did
your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any
aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness,
etc.)?
Yes There was no sound. When the man spoke, it was inside my
mind.
Did
you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?
Yes
What emotions did you feel during the experience?
Puzzlement, contentment, and I really, really wanted to stay. Love.
I forgot about my family totally.
Did
you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?
No
Did
you see a light?
Yes The man. I'm not sure who he was. Although I am a Christian, I don't
believe it was Jesus. I think it may have been an ancestor.
Did
you meet or see any other beings?
Yes The man and other people who were just as puzzled as I was. I believe
we were all communicating telepathically.
Did
you experience a review of past events in your life?
No
Did
you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience
that could be verified later?
No
Did
you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or
dimensions?
No
Did
you have any sense of altered space or time?
Yes I felt as if I had been there for a very long time.
Did
you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?
Yes Just that it wasn't my time. It was irritating!
Did
you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?
Yes I felt that although it was a void, there was a lot more beyond the
"tear" in the void. I also felt as if I were in a waiting room of some sort.
Lots more. More dimensions than we could ever count.
Did
you become aware of future events?
No
Did
you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience
you did not have prior to the experience?
No
Have you shared this experience with others?
Yes A long time. People who are spiritual believe me. People who are not,
do not and think I'm nuts, or that I had a really bad head injury. No one is
influenced.
Did
you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?
Yes I heard it was possible.
How
did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it
happened:
Experience was definitely real I realized that there was life after death,
although I didn't know how to tell anyone. I realized that there must be a God,
and that there is definitely more beyond this life. I was inspired, but so
puzzled about what we hear about Heaven. This wasn't Heaven. I'm sure if it.
But, I'm still not sure what it is......I think about it every day.
Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or
significant to you?
I
think the first time I went back, I was back in the womb, or a womb-like place.
I know the man was significant to me, but I have no idea who he was.
How
do you currently view the reality of your experience:
Experience was definitely real I remember as though it happened yesterday. I
remember everything so vividly. If you are in a coma, isn't it just supposed to
be dark. If you're dreaming, aren't you supposed to feel as though you are
dreaming? It was not always dark, and there was no dreaming.
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your
experience?
Yes
Some
people think I have flipped my lid. I don't talk about it much.
Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your
experience?
Yes
GOD
IS SO MUCH MORE....WE ARE SO MUCH MORE.
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life,
medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
No
Is
there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?
After the experience, I have endured horrible depression and anger. I don't
understand how someone 23 could have wished to stay there, but I sure did.
Did
the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and
comprehensively describe your experience?
Yes Sorry it's so lengthy. I really want to know where I ended up!
