Pinchon's NDE

Experience description: 

Impression came to me very quickly in a space with colorful prisms that paraded around me.  When I arrived in this space of soft and brilliant light, there was an amazing ambiance of love.  I felt like I was in communication with a charismatic entity.  I was surprised because the being communicated in an unknown language that I understood.  I had a life review where I saw the good and the bad events of my life.  I was judged on this balance:  The judgment was favorable.

I had a feeling of extreme lucidity, omniscience and superconscience and I had the impression I could speak all languages.  I "saw" my 2 children (currently living) being held by the hand, they were rays of light, dressed in white. 

I was flooded with information.  I knew I needed to come back to my children.  Some messages printed themselves in my mind and one only remained in my memory:  "it is necessary to fully use one’s capacities on earth, not to waste his/her/its talents, but to share them with other’s." 

I made huge efforts to come back to life.  When I came back to the world, I was agitated with what I was around me.  I could not speak, nor open my eyes, yet I felt all emotions and the thoughts of all around me.  The first scene I saw was one of a tree on the gray sky with Paris off in the distance.  I regretted my return.  A depression followed, in spite of happiness at recovering.  My family didn't want to listen to my deliriums.

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience:  Uncertain

      Explanation:  anesthetics

Was the experience difficult to express in words?  Yes

      What was it about the experience that makes it hard to communicate?  difficulty to translate into words.

At the time of the experience, was there an associated life threatening event?  Yes

      Describe:  hemorrhage during a hysterectomy

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?  omniscience, hyperconscience and very extreme lucidity compared to the "wakening" time.

Was the experience dream like in any way?  no, it was rather a new and unknown state

Did you experience a separation of consciousness from your body?  No response

Describe your appearance or form apart from your body:  no information, no memory of it

What emotions did you feel during the experience?  ?  immense love, extreme lucidity and omniscience, judgment and understanding, "paternal" advice

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?  music marks Jean-Michel Jar

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?  Uncertain

      Describe:  Uncertain, not a tunnel, but a space with scrollings of color prisms

Did you see a light?  Yes

      Describe:  very luminous space without being glaring and in which one feels penetrated of love

Did you meet or see any other beings?  Yes

      Describe:  my 2 children who are living, but a lot younger than they were actually

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?  Yes

      Describe:  I had to "to tell" my life, but I don't remember what I said and this in a strange language.  I know I have been judged and have been forgiven.  I had several messages to "to bring back" one only remains with me in memory.  One must maximize his/her/its talents.  I’m sorry I can’t remember the other one.

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?  No

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?  No

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?  Uncertain

      Describe:  the chronology and the sense of time seem fuzzy to me

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?  Yes

      Describe:  omniscience:  impression of all knowledge in an innate way and what surprised me that is to the level of the languages (I am not very good in languages) I also had a sense of the universal and my role.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?  No

Did you become aware of future events?  No

Were you involved in or aware of a decision to return to the body?  Yes

      Describe:  I decided to come back, but it was very hard

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?  Uncertain

      Describe:  I note a strong capacity to feel others.  I feel nature sometimes, I developed this feeling in the painting

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?  Uncertain

      Describe:  this experience that I assign to biologic and neuronal phenomena allowed me to wonder if religious roots were able to build itself/themselves on old testimonies of NDEs when such experiences were new and where the sense of the magnificent was real and at the origin of myths and beliefs.  I believe that she/it allowed me to touch a little better the "god" who is biologically in me and to think about to develop this parcel of me

Has the experience affected your relationships?  Daily life?  Religious practices etc.?  Career choices?  I was and I am teaching in biology and paint in my spare time.  I have accentuated my work by teaching the young to try to make them understand the same experience that I had.  I took responsibility in the processes of orientation, I was then very attentive to my own children of 10 and 14 years old.  Then I developed the painting with courses of watercolors, teaching people of various ages.  I use the painting process to help others to feel nature and allow it to pass itself/themselves into their creation. I help them to open up and find God.  My career was already spiritually oriented, so it is natural that I accentuated this aspect of my NDE.

Have you shared this experience with others?  Yes

      Describe:  Disappointing reactions (curiosity or indifference) sometimes mockeries, only the priests or people touched by one death had reactions of certain monitoring.

What emotions did you experience following your experience?  Disappointment on the world that surrounded me, that I found gray and very superficial.  I had difficulty to rebounding.  I considered that the death was a happiness and didn't understand the social vision of the death anymore.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?  the best:  to live it.  It also allowed me accept with serenity my father's death the following year.  the worse:  the efforts to come back and the spiritual censorship.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?  Yes

      Describe:  I look for the essential in my relations with others.  I don't waste anymore time with the useless.  I have to make efforts to be more socially acceptable:  for example it is hard to sympathize with others about the the death of someone without speaking of my experience.  I listen to my life and I know that there is urgency in life.  I think every day about my death and the oddness of it all.  Now, I fear death 13 years later, a little because I will separate from my family.  I don’t feel like I have accomplished all that I need to do to show what of beautiful and serene has on this earth

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?  No

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?  Yes

      Explain:  but I forgot a lot by non verbalization and it is my big regret
 

Reader Contribution:

I have been reading your wonderful site for a long time. It is very inspirational!

I have a comment to make about Pinchon's nde. Since it is translated from the french, I was not sure if you understood the reference to "Jean-Michel Jar."  Jean Michel Jarre is a new-age type musician. I have not heard many of his albums, but I have one of his earlier ones, "Oxygene." Some of the music on it sounds like some of the other music I have heard that was created by near-death experiencers who were trying to communicate what the music they heard was like.  His website is www.jarre.net.

Peace,  Katherine