Patricia S's NDE

Experience description: 

It was almost as if I was coasting and in the near distance I saw  an extremely wide really bright light. Almost as if I was entering a well lit foggy area. But at the same time I could see a field. The love and just so much inner peace was so over empowering that it cannot be expressed in words. I felt presence there. I do not mean that I think someone was there. It was the actual feeling of presence of several. My grandfather spoke to me. I did not see him or hear his voice. I felt him say "I am not going to take you away from your father like I was" (I remember them exact words like it was yesterday.) At that time my grandfather had been deceased for 9 years. The whole experience was enlightening to me as my life has changed forever for the positive. My experience was the actual feeling of the love not only in my body but in my inner self. It is very hard for me to describe. I guess you have to feel it for yourself.

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?     Uncertain, was on some kind of pain medication

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes

I cannot begin to explain to allow someone to understand what i felt and went through

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Yes

grade five liver laceration, died twice on operating table

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?           i was totally aware of what was happening at the time of the experience. But I was unconscious from my accident

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   No not at all. It seemed as real as me typing this, without a doubt.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     No

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?           i was a bit surprised to feel my grandfather talking to me

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?          Yes

            Describe:      just a very short tunnel enough to see widening in front of me

Did you see a light?           Yes

It was like looking into a light bulb but with a softer glow, and it felt almost as if the light was drawing you near

Did you meet or see any other beings?           No

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?    No

i completely believe there is a higher power and i certainly believe in angels now. I appreciate love even from a stranger. I guess i overreact to things that make me laugh. i laugh at the silliest things whereas i never have before. i tell people what they mean to me. i am more open.

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          Uncertain

well when i came out of my coma my mom and dad was standing by the bed and the first thing i asked was "is grandpa ok"

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?           No

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   No

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?    No

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No

Did you become aware of future events?       No

Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?       No

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?         No

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   Yes

my whole attitude toward everyone and thing has been a 180 degree turnaround

How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?       i am more understanding, let my feeling show, very kind to everyone i cross, and am very interested in the holy spirit although i do not attend church. I believe i do not have to go to church to have a relationship with Jesus

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         No

other than noted above not really

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes

they think i have lost my mind. my mother and father thought i was brain damaged when i woke up and asked them about my grandfather. nobody was influenced by it except me

What emotions did you experience following your experience?  sadness, longing and desperation for answers

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      feeling the feeling of being completely engulfed in love

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?        i really wish others would feel what i have. this world would be a better place

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         Yes

yes, i tried the drug ecstasy once and looked up into the sky. The whole sky was lit up and the clouds were  outlined in a brightness that i distinctly know was in my experience. I had looked at my boyfriend and he had an angelistic glow around the frame of his body, and i told him it was time for me to go home. that what i was seeing and feeling was almost the same thing i had experienced before

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?               Yes