Nigel M's NDE

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Experience description: 

A kite surfing accident caused me to be thrown approximately 70 meters horizontally and at least 6m up in the air and into the edge of the roof of my house. I suffered 21 fractures of my hips, ribs, and shoulders, severe concussion, punctured lung, severe internal and external bruising and shock amongst other injuries.

I was basically unconscious for 14 hours with about 3 episodes lasting seconds each of semi-consciousness.

Sometime during my unconscious phase I found myself thrown near the edge of a swirling mass of beings. All the beings around me were very black and the atmosphere was one of depression and resignation. I was being pushed along very fast by the swirling mass of beings, some looking like walking skeletons. I had the feeling that, as we were moving round, we also were moving towards the outer edge of the swirling mass where these beings simply fell off the edge into nothingness or death.

I had the feeling I did not want to go there and tried to struggle against the moving mass of people. It was hard not to be driven along by them, kind of like fighting against a current whilst crossing a river. At some stage I became aware that far in the distance, in the centre of this huge mass of beings was a bright light. Sometimes, whilst struggling to fight the current I caught a brief and faint sight of this light. I wanted to get closer to this light.

I found either by trial and error or else by some external guidance, that the only way I could get closer to this light was to think pure thoughts of helping others. I tried to do this and found that by focusing just on helping others, or trying to develop compassion, I was able to edge closer to the light at the centre.

As soon as I had a self-centered thought or any other thought other than helping others, I was immediately thrown towards the outside of the huge revolving mass and had to struggle back towards the centre. The outer edges of the mass were revolving with thousands of beings at a nauseatingly fast pace. As I got closer to the centre, the pace slowed down and the energy of the beings became much lighter and less frantic.

I passed several people I recognized on my way towards the centre and it felt like I could see by their colors radiating from their bodies what sort of people they really were beneath their outward appearances. If I  made any judgment on them, I was immediately thrown towards the outer edge of the sphere and back to the nauseating, frantic black crowd.

I found it useful to chant "Just helping people" like a mantra which allowed me to eventually approach the inner circle where very calm and slow moving pure beings were sitting round a large glowing white light. I felt honored to be there and aware I had to keep my thoughts totally pure in what seemed like a very sacred space.

I had the desire to melt into the white light. It seemed like a voice told me the only way to do this was to empty my mind of all thoughts, but still to keep one tiny part focused on helping others. I did this and melted into the light. This was an indescribably blissful experience.  I felt like I was part of everything and the same time absolutely empty. It was absolutely purifying, healing and timeless.

My next conscious thoughts is being back in my body and experiencing immense pain. At some stage later I came to in the intensive care unit of Nelson Hospital and began my physical recovery.

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?     Uncertain

Not sure if the experience happened before or after the emergency doctor arrived and administered morphine, as I was unconscious

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes

The feelings and mind state experienced

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Yes

 Severe, potentially life threatening injuries as result of kite surfing accident.

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?           Clinically Unconscious but during the experience I was very alert and absolutely aware of what I saw, but unaware I had suffered an accident and was injured.

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   yes, visually it was but I was very alert and aware

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Uncertain

As I approached the white light I became a being of white light.

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?           no

Did you see a light?           Yes, White pure light like a fireplace

Did you meet or see any other beings?           Yes, see story 4.

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?    No

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Yes, During the dissolving into the white light phase

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?    Yes

Just helping others, understanding of true compassion

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes, White light, I dissolved into it

Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?       No

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?         No

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   Yes

I would like to develop compassion and help people

How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?       In every way. I'm so glad to be alive. I feel a lot lighter, not worried about money so much or things I see as trivial now.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         Yes

I feel a lot lighter, more positive, hopefully more caring for others

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      Best -  wish to develop compassion

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?               No

I'm still in pain and can't type too long. I haven't given a full description of my experience.