Nick P's NDE

Experience description: 

Wed. June 19 Long Beach Memorial Hospital for By-pass sugary. This was a Mid-Calf opening under the Left chest area.  I was released on Saturday at noon went to the Hotel to rest.  That night I was very sick to my stomach but did not vomit.  Sunday morning I was throwing up and could not keep anything in my stomach.  My wife called the hospital and was admitted back into the Heart Institute for observation.

That Sunday morning my Blood pressure was very high (160/100)and heart rate was very fast (110).  The doctors got all of this under control by 3:00 pm. The rest of the day went uneventful and I rested well.  Monday morning I woke up complaining of pain in my left neck like I fell asleep wrong on my neck. I asked for a pain pill at 8:00 am. At 9:00 am I got the vicadin pain pills, at 9:20 still under pain and then it was moving to my left shoulder area and to my left chest and centering in the chest area with great pain.

I told the Nurse that it was getting more difficult for me to breath it was beginning to cause me to hold my breath and not get any air.  The Nurse brought in a Nitro pill put it under my tongue, and in a few minutes asked me is I was better.  I answered no and  she gave me another pill, waited again and asked me if better, no then gave me a third pill.  By this time I could not move my chest to get any air I was looking at my fingers my nails were gong blue.  The last I remember was the Nurse telling me to keep looking at her and focus on her not to close my eyes and stay with her.  Then the room started to go all white, not bright but just white in color.

When I was able to see anything again I saw my Dad all in white and what looked like a soft robe on. My Mother was next to him, and my Mother's parents were next to her. I was not fearful of where I was but more like I wanted to be there with them.  My Dad then asked me if I could forgive him for his wrongs in his raising us kids ( two older brother's and a younger sister) I went to reach for him then he backed away and said your time is not now for you are not done where I was.  He then said that I have been in great pain for a long time and I must be with the one who loves me and be with her. (I have been separated from my wife of 29 years and living with with a woman I meet in 1999 at this time.)  I then started to drift back to reality and came to with the nurse injecting some thing in the IV tube going to my arm.

Since then I have been very emotional at times and it is somewhat hard to talk about. I have told my brother's and sister about this they have given me some thoughts about what happened.

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience:  Uncertain

      Explanation:  At the time I was taking an oral pain medication, but do not know if that could of caused the experience.

Was the experience difficult to express in words?  No

At the time of the experience, was there an associated life threatening event?  Yes

      Describe:  Heart By Pass sugary done 6 days earlier that had some problems associated with it.

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?  None that I know of I could not move nor talk any more.

Did you experience a separation of consciousness from your body?  No

What emotions did you feel during the experience?  I was very happy to see my parents, as I saw them they were happy together.

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?  no

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?  Uncertain

      Describe:  everything just got white.

Did you see a light?  Yes

      Describe:  not bright but a lot of white all around. like no matter where you looked it was the same color and intensity. 

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?  No response

      Describe:  I am trying to find out about what my father said to me and how it fits with me.

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?  No

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?  No

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?  No

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?  No

Did you become aware of future events?  Yes

      Describe:  Just that I was not ready to be with my parents yet. My time was not yet done.

Were you involved in or aware of a decision to return to the body?  Yes

      Describe:  My Father told me my time was not yet done

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?  Yes

      Describe:  Thinking of the same thought with my friend, and this has happened before.

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?  No

Has the experience affected your relationships?  Daily life?  Religious practices etc.?  Career choices?  No change as yet I lost my job at the same time.

Have you shared this experience with others?  Yes

      Describe:  somewhat bewildered and wanted to know more.

What emotions did you experience following your experience?  a great sadness to come back to where I was at

What was the best and worst part of your experience?  The best was to see my parents and listen to my Father for he talked in a kind voice which made me feel needed and wanted.

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?  not now.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?  Yes

      Describe:  I feel that my marriage is not strong, and that I need to commit to the friend and move on with my life.

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?  No

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?  Yes