Molly H's NDE

I REMEMBER WAKING UP HAVING NO IDEA WHAT HAPPENED TO ME. MY MOTHER WAS NEXT TO MY HOSPITAL BED. I ASKED WHAT I WAS DOING THERE? WAS I IN A CAR ACCIDENT? AND SHE TRIED TO EXPLAIN TO ME THAT DURING A REGULAR SURGERY FOR AN OVARIAN CYST REMOVAL, I HAD STOPPED BREATHING. IT WAS "CODE BLUE" AT THE HOSPITAL THREE DAYS BEFORE.

I REMEMBER BEING IN MY HOSPITAL BED WATCHING ALL THE DOCTORS AND NURSES WORKING ON WHAT I THOUGHT WAS MY ROOMMATE AT THE HOSPITAL. IT TURNED OUT I NEVER SHARED MY HOSPITAL ROOM W/ ANYBODY. I HEARD ALL THE LOUD NOISES OF THE HOSPITAL EQUIPMENT AND PEOPLE SHOUTING AND GIVING ORDERS..."WE ARE GOING TO LOOSE HER, HURRY UP W/ THE PADDLES" I WAS SHOCKED (3) CONSECUTIVE TIMES TO GET MY HEART STARTED AGAIN. THE 4- 5 MINUTES I WAS "DEAD" SEEMED TO BE FOREVER.

DURING THAT TIME I WAS DRAWN TO WHAT LOOKED LIKE THREE VERY LARGE ANGLES SITTING IN A PEW. NEXT TO THEM I SAW A LITTLE ANGEL CRYING. I WAS SO OVERWHELMED AND FELT SO MUCH COMPASSION TO SEE HER. SOMEHOW I "FLEW" OVER TO THE LITTLE ANGEL, AND TO SURPRISE, IT WAS ME! THEN I "FLEW" BACK TO THE THREE LARGER ANGLES WITH REALLY BIG WINGS, WHO HAD NO EXPRESSION AT ALL. I WANTED TO SIT WITH THEM, BUT THEY WOULD NOT LET ME. I WAS VERY UPSET AND I WANTED TO BE WITH THE ANGELS SO BAD. THEY OR SOME ENTITY OR FEELING WAS TRYING TO SEND ME BACK. I WAS AGAIN VERY UPSET THAT NOBODY WANTED ME TO STAY. IT FELT SO PEACEFUL AND SECURE THERE. I DID NOT UNDERSTAND WHY THEY WOULD NOT "KEEP ME"? 

DURING THIS TIME PERIOD I SAW AND SPOKE TO SEVERAL DECEASED RELATIVES.

FIRST WAS MY GRANDMOTHER AND HERE IS WHAT I REMEMBER:

MY GRANDMA TOLD ME TO PUT MY ANGEL COSTUME ON AND THAT WE WILL FLY AROUND TO SEE SOME OTHER PEOPLE WE BOTH KNOW THAT HAS PASSED. SHE HELD MY HAND AND GUIDED ME TO SEE GRANDPA. GRANDPA SAID "HELLO, HELLO" TO ME. I ASKED WHY HE SAID HELLO TWICE AND HE REPLIED " ONE FOR YOU AND ONE HELLO FOR YOUR MOTHER".

THEN MY GRANDMA TOOK ME TO SEE UNCLE STAN. UNCLE STAN DIED BY CARBON DIOXIDE FROM HIS CAR IN HIS GARAGE. WE DO NOT KNOW IF IT WAS SUICIDE, ACCIDENT OR A MURDER STILL TODAY. I SAW A BRUISE OR A BLACK SPOT ON UNCLE STAN'S FOREHEAD. FOUR YEARS LATER I FOUND OUT ONLY ONE PERSON KNEW ABOUT THE BRUISE ON UNCLE STAN'S FOREHEAD. HE LIVED IN NEW YORK AND ME IN FLORIDA SO I COULD NOT HAVE SEEN HIM BEFORE MY "ACCIDENT". MY COUSIN LISA IN N.Y. CONFIRMED THE MARK ON HIS FOREHEAD AFTER HEARING MY STORY 4-YEARS LATER.

MY UNCLE STAN THEN STARTED SHOWING ME AROUND THIS PLACE. GROWING UP HE OWNED A BUNCH OF BARS AND DRANK AND DID DRUGS A LOT. HE SHOWED ME HIS LAST BAR HE OWNED, AND INSIDE, TO MY SURPRISE, WAS FULL OF ICE CREAM AND EVERY KIND OF CANDY YOU COULD IMAGINE! I WILL NEVER FORGET THE GREAT FEELING OF JOY AND EXCITEMENT SEEING ALL THE DIFFERENT COLORED CANDY AND ICE CREAM.

I ALSO SAW A NEIGHBOR WHO I DID NOT KNOW WAS DEAD. HIS NAME WAS PAT H. GROWING UP WE WOULD SEE HIM AT THE BEACH. I WOULD BABY SIT HIS KIDS ALSO. DON'T KNOW WHY I SAW HIM?

THE LAST PERSON I SAW WAS MY FATHER IN LAW. MY HUSBAND'S DAD PASSED AWAY AT A EARLY 66 WITH COLIN CANCER. HE CAME TO ME EXPLAINING I COULDN'T STAY IN THIS PEACEFUL PLACE. THAT I WAS NEEDED BACK FOR MY HUSBAND AND KIDS. 

Submitted a week later:  As I was reading Rick R's NDE, I remembered something about double doors; people were calling my name they wanted me there fast ,so I began running up a spiral stair case, running and running seems like a non ending stair case. When I got to the top an old man was laying on a hospital bed ready to go through this huge double doors and you could see the bright light coming from the double doors people were all saying good bye to him. It was like family, were all around him talking to him and giving him hugs, and behind him were a line of people waiting to get through the doors. He saw me and I just felt love pouring from his body.  Don't know who this man was, he just wanted to say goodbye me.

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? No      

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Yes     my heat stopped during surgery for the removal of a cyst.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    when me and my grandmother went to the most beautiful church I have ever seen, as we flew in I could see a little angle up were the choirs would sing, she was she had her head down and she was crying, I felt so compassion for her I wanted to help her so I flew over and as I got up to her face it was me.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?    More consciousness and alertness than normal

If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain:            when me and my grandmother went to the most beautiful church I have ever seen, as we flew in I could see a little angle up were the choirs would sing, she was she had her head down and she was crying, I felt so compassion for her I wanted to help her so I flew over and as I got up to her face it was me.

Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?  Yes     WHEN MY UNCLE TOOK ME TO HIS USED TO BE BAR HE OWNED, WAS NOW THE MOST BEAUTIFUL CANDY AND ICE CREAM SHOP. ALL THE COLORS WERE SO BRIGHT AND THE CANDY WAS SO WONDERFUL, I FELT LIKE WILLY WONKA AND THE CANDY FACTORY, AS A KID THAT WAS MY FAVORITE MOVIE. THIS WAS MY UNCLE STAN  WHO DIED AT AGE OF 42.

Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
            Yes     IT WAS NOT TALKING IT WAS KINDA LIKE READING THERE MINDS AND THEM MINE.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Yes

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            CALMING, HAPPY TO SEE EVERYONE, JOY, WANTED TO STAY WITH THEM, BUT NOW I'M HAPPY I'M HOME TO TAKE CARE OF MY FAMILY, I HAVE 2 BOYS AND A HUSBAND.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?          Uncertain      IM JUST NOT SURE

Did you see a light?           No       PROBABLY BECAUSE THEY TOLD ME WHEN I FIRST GOT THERE TO PUT ON AN ANGEL COSTUME, LIKE I WAS ONLY TO BE HERE A SHORT TIME, WISH I KNEW WHY, EVERY DAY I ASK MYSELF THAT SAME THING WHY ME AND WHAT SHOULD I DO ,WHEN I TELL PEOPLE THEY THINK IM CRAZY, OR THEY SAY THEY BELIEVE, BUT U CAN TELL THERE REALLY NOT LISTENING AND THEY START TALKING ABOUT SOMETHING ELSE REAL QUICK. THERE WERE ONLY 2 PEOPLE WHO WERE REALLY WANTED TO KNOW EVERYTHING ASKED A MILLION QUESTIONS, BUT THEY BOTH DIED, MAYBE THEY KNEW THERE TIME WAS COMING UP.

Did you meet or see any other beings?           Yes     MY GRANDMOTHER MET ME, SHE BROUGHT ME TO MY GRANDPA WHO HELLO HELLO I SAID GRANDPA WHY HELLO TWICE HE SAID ONE FOR YOU AND ONE FOR YOUR MOTHER. I SAW UNCLE STAN THE ONE WITH THE BRIGHT CANDY AND ICE CREAM SHOP. I SAW MY SISTERS BEST FRIEND WHO HUNG HERSELF, SHE LOOKED BEAUTIFUL SHE WAS THE PRETTIEST GIRL IN HIGH SCHOOL. MY SISTER PAM TOLD HER PARENTS I SAW HER AND THEY DID NOT SAY MUCH THEY DIDN'T BELIEVE I SAW HER. WE THOUGHT THEY WOULD BE SO HAPPY NOT, LAST PERSON WAS PAT A NEIGHBOR I DIDN'T EVEN KNOW WAS DEAD, WHEN WE WERE KIDS I PLAYED WITH HIS KIDS AND MY MOM AND DAD WERE FRIENDS.

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?    No      

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          Yes     I COULD HEAR AND SEE THE NURSES AND DOCTORS YELLING AND RUNNING IN AND OUT OF MY ROOM HURRY WE LOST HER HEAT BEAT SHE'S DEAD, THEY HAD TO PADDLE ME 3TIMES BEFORE MY HEART WOULD START THEN THE 4TH BECAUSE IT WAS GOING TO FAST.

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?            Yes     JUST THE ICE CREAM CANDY STORE CANT EXPLAIN HOW BEAUTIFUL IT LOOKED, AND GOING IN THE CHURCH THE PEWS WERE LIKE MADE OF GOLD MOST BEAUTIFUL THING I EVER SAW.

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Yes     DIDN'T REALLY KNOW I WAS DEAD WEIRD HARD TO EXPLAIN.

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?     Uncertain            THE REASON IM TRYING THIS FOR THE 3ERD TIME ,THE OTHER NIGHT I WAS AT A CANDLE PARTY AND MY MOMS FRIEND WAS THERE SHE LOST HER HUSBAND AND DAUGHTER WITHIN A TWO YEAR SPAN. I WAS AT HER DAUGHTERS WAKE AND EVERYONE WAS PUTTING MONEY IN THEIR ENVELOPES, THAT NIGHT I DIDN'T HAVE ANY CASH SO I THOUGHT I WOULD JUST WRITE HER SOMETHING I WAS FELLING CHEAP BECAUSE I DIDN'T HAVE ANY CASH, I'M THINKING SHE GONNA THINK IM CHEAP. SO MONTHS WENT BYE AND HE WAS HAVING A BAD DAY WHEN I SAW HER AT THE CANDLE PARTY, SHE SAID CAN I TALK TO YOU I SAID SURE SHE STARTED CRYING, IN THE LETTER I TOLD HER THAT I'VE BEEN THERE IN HEAVEN AND TRUST ME SHE IS IN A BETTER PLACE WERE IN AND THAT SHE IS WITH YOU ALL THE TIME, SHE HUGGED ME AND TOLD ME SHE READS MY CHEAP LITTLE CARD OVERTIME SHE GETS SAID, SHE SAID IS SHE REALLY IN A BETTER PLACE AS HUGGING ME, I SAID YES TRUST ME, I FELT SO GOOD TO MAKE HER HAPPY..

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No      

Did you become aware of future events?       No           

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?     Uncertain      WELL I THINK I CAN HELP PEOPLE WHO ARE AFRAID OF DYING, AND DON'T SWEAT THE SMALL STUFF.

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes     I'VE TOLD A LOT OF PEOPLE, A LOT PROBABLY FORGOT 2 MIN LATER THE ONLY 2 PEOPLE THAT SEEMED LIKE THEY WERE REALLY INTO IT DIED,

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?    Yes     MY HUSBAND HAD ONE BEFORE I MET HIM, BUT HE DOESN'T REMEMBER ANYTHING.

How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:            Experience was definitely real    LATER LIKE A WEEK LATER I REMEMBER IT WAS MY HUSBANDS FATHER IS THE ONE WHO TOLD ME I HAD TO GO BACK FOR STEVE HIS SON AND MY 2 BOYS NEED ME.

Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you?            THE WHOLE THING

How do you currently view the reality of your experience:            Experience was definitely real            YOU JUST KNOW IT WASN'T JUST A DREAM, IT'S A GUT FEELING ITS A TRUE GIFT TO GO THROUGH, IT TOOK ME A LONG TIME TO REALIZE THAT,

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?           No      

Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?            No           

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         Yes     YES AFTER SOMEONE GAVE ME A VICODINE, I SAID NO IM NOT IN PAIN THEY SAID JUST TRY ONE, I SAID OK I WAS HOOKED FOR 5 YEARS BECAUSE IT GAVE ME THE FEELING OF HEAVEN I THINK, FINALLY I WENT TO DETOX AND AN AFTER CARE FOR 2MONTHS THANK GOD IT WAS KILLING ME AND MY EMOTIONS. I THANK GOD EVERY DAY AND MY HUSBAND FOR GETTING HELP. I'VE NEVER BEEN ADDICTED TO ANYTHING NEVER SMOKED ANYTHING EVEN AS A TEENAGER, NEVER DRANK ALWAYS MADE ME SICK, AS A TEEN I WOULD JUST HOLD A BEER TO BE COOL BUT I NEVER DRANK IT, THEN AT AGE 36 AFTER THE NDE I BECAME A ADDICTED OF VICODINE. I'VE BEEN CLEAN FOR ALMOST A YEAR

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?        AFTER THE NDE EVERY TIME MY HUSBAND WOULD GO AWAY FOR WORK SOMETHING WOULD WAKE ME UP AND MAKE NOISES, I THINK IT WAS SPIRITS TRYING TO GET MY ATTENTION, ALWAYS WHEN I'M ALONE AND AROUND 3AM. ANYONE COULD GIVE ME A LIE DETECTOR TEST AND I WOULD PASS. ALL THIS REALLY HAPPENED, I KNOW MY SPELLING IS REAL BAD SORRY

Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?         Yes     I SURELY AM NOT AFRAID OF DYING, AND WHEN FRIEND AND FAMILY DIE I DON'T GET DEPRESSED IM HAPPY FOR THEM.