Mollie E's NDE

Experience description: 

I had just miscarried with twins at about 4 months and I was operated on to clean the womb out when I came out of the anesthetic, I was in terrible agony.

Something was pressing against something inside me and I was screaming in agony. I could not get anyone's attention, eventually, they came running and hooked up machines to monitor my vitals, the doctors and nurses finally started to operate on me on the bed in the ward. The pain was killing me.  I must have gone into shock and my blood pressure was zero and pulse had stopped or was to weak to monitor, when I found myself rising up out of my body. 

I looked down and could see the doctors and nurses continuing to work on me on the bed.  I knew I was dead, and I could see the bright yellow light at the end of a tunnel, it felt absolutely wonderful, so peaceful, there was no pain only joy and expectation. I recall looking at my body and thinking "I'm not going back into that awful low life thing". Just as I was going towards the light and leaving the hospital ceiling, a lovely woman's voice said " What about Julie?" Julie was my 4 year old daughter and I had forgotten all about her in my quest to get to the light.

Then, it was like being shot through a gun, I was fired back into my body and then I passed out.  When I awoke some time later the bed was almost vertical and I was standing on my head to get some blood pressure back into me.  I then spoke to the nurses and anyone who would listen and told them that I was dead and that I returned but they just said that it was close and they seemed to be apologizing for the doctor and hoping they would not get sued.

Afterwards, I have never been scared of death and have had various strange experiences including an OBE which I have also written onto this web site.

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?     No

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? No

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Yes

A miscarriage.

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?           Very high.

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   No.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Yes

I did not think to look at myself in the air but I had the feeling that I was a superior being to my human body.

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            Peace, and expectations.

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?           No, just the voice of the woman saying "what about Julie?"

LOCATION DESCRIPTION:  Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or amazing creatures?    No

Did you see a light?           Yes

A bright yellow light at the end of a grey tunnel.

Did you meet or see any other beings?           Yes

Just the voice of the lady, I was wondering why no one had come to get me.

Did you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state? Yes

I witnessed the doctors and nurses around the bed from above them and I could see the other patient in the next bed.

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          Yes

I knew that they operated on me on the bed in the ward.

Did you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they different?          Yes

Eyes were working as normal (except that you are above yourself).  Hearing is by thought patterns. There is no touching.

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   No

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?    Yes

I knew that once you are dead to go to a higher level of consciousness.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?             No

I crossed from the ceiling into the opening of the tunnel but was stopped from going too far in.

Did you become aware of future events?       No

Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?       Yes

Both the voice of the lady and myself decided that it was not my time to die and that one of my purposes on earth was to look after my daughter.

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?         Yes

I have had quite a few psychic experiences both before and after.

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   Yes

I am a very spiritual person and want to find out more about NDE and the afterlife.

How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?       I divorced my first husband and went back to school and built up a career and met another man very quickly. We are still together now.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         Yes

I was more determined to make more of my life because you can go at anytime.

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes

Most seem to believe, some think that I am nuts.

What emotions did you experience following your experience?  Happiness that I no longer fear death.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      The best part was the feeling of peace and sheer joy and no pain, of course. The worst part, looking back, was the feeling that my own body was somehow "dirty".

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?        A NDE makes you appreciate both life and death more.

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         Yes

A OBE some years later.

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?               Yes

The questions where relevant and although I did not go as far into the tunnel as other people have done I can understand the point of the questions.