Miriam P's NDE

EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION:

The surgery was scheduled for afternoon, they laid me on the operating table and the anesthesiologist gave me the anesthesia I saw that other people entered the operating room I think they were nurses and nurses aides. At that moment I wasn’t looking at the doctor. What I remember is being conscious and wanting to open my eyes and move my body because I heard the monitors going off and the doctor saying that they had lost me. 

He asked a woman if my husband was outside and told her to go speak with my husband, the aide asked what’s going on and the doctor said, sew her up. I wanted to scream and tell them that I was still here but I couldn’t open my eyes. It seemed as though there were fractions of a second in which I saw scenes of my life with my family, my children, my husband and my work colleagues and I asked myself why, since there was so much more for me to do, when the most beautiful music surrounded me and I resigned myself to staying. Then I saw my 20 year old son leaning against a wall, my sister-in-law was asking him how my husband was doing and he answered he’s better now, and then I realized that hours had passed and I heard my other son, he was walking and they had already told him about my death, I was sad thinking about the pain that my death was causing everybody and I said to myself that I needed to go back, it wasn’t fair even if the peace and serenity that I was feeling was so wonderful and unexplainable.

Then I felt a pain in my chest starting up slowly until it built into a terrible pain I said to myself it doesn’t matter if it hurts I have to go back, in that moment it was as if the same movie that I had just seen began to go in reverse until I heard them tell the aide that I had returned and a moment later the nurse told me they were taking me to a hospital room. I believe I was conscious throughout the whole event and the most significant part is the cycle of life. The next day I asked the doctor what had happened and he simply said that I had not taken the anesthesia well.

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? No At the moment when I quit trying to wake up that’s when I saw that I had already died and it was as though hours passed during which they told my family they had lost me.

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event? Uncertain The truth is that I don’t know because I heard the doctor say that he had lost me during the surgery, that they should disconnect me and the next day when I was in my hospital bed I asked if all that had actually happened and he didn’t give me an adequate explanation except that something happened with the anesthesia.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? When the doctor told the aide he had lost me, to disconnect me and sew me back up.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal

If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain: When the doctor told the aide he had lost me, to disconnect me and sew me back up.

Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)? No

Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)? No

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? No

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Much resignation, peace, tranquility and sadness for my family

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure? No

Did you see a light? No

Did you meet or see any other beings? No

Did you experience a review of past events in your life? Yes since I saw scenes with my children, my spouse and work colleagues and I understood that I could have done things differently, I knew that things could be better for everyone.

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? Yes Just a detail when I saw my son leaning against a wall he was dressed exactly the same way when he came to visit me at the hospital the following day.

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions? Uncertain A beautiful music

Did you have any sense of altered space or time? Yes, it seemed as though hours passed at the same time that it was only seconds

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? Yes, we all have our part to play, a mission and a special gift to help guide those who don’t understand the process of life and death.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No

Did you become aware of future events? Yes I felt the pain of my children and the sadness when I realized that a day had passed, it was a day after the surgery, and I knew that I had died, I no longer existed on earth.

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience? Yes I don’t know how to describe it but I can know when someone wants to tell me something and what they want to say.

Have you shared this experience with others? Yes The following day, in the morning I told my husband and he said that all he thought about during the surgery was that I shouldn’t leave him alone with our kids

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened: Experience was definitely real Because the more time passes the more I know I lived this event even when the doctor tells me nothing out of the ordinary happened and laughs when I recount the scenes that I saw and the music that I heard.

Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you?
The strength to open my eyes and tell the doctor that I was alive, to not disconnect me from the monitors, and the inability to move.

How do you currently view the reality of your experience: Experience was definitely real I view my experience as a gift because it taught me the importance of my life and why I am here

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?  Yes  Interpersonal relations with my family and children and others has improved

Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience? No

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? No

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?
I would like to expand my experience by helping others, by guiding them at the moment when it’s time for them to leave.

Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes